(Chapter Mood Introduction)
As the days slowly approached, my anticipation for Jay coming home has reached the top. It was now less than four days away and i couldn't have been more excited. After a long dreadful month of waiting the day was near. I never thought that a guy could ever make me feel like this, like I'm so crazy in love. Everything about him i loved, and when he's not around I'm yearning to feel his touch. The way he holds me, the way he caresses me, the way speaks, hearing his laugh, and seeing smile with his big chubby cheeks. I swear at times i be having Deja vu. It's like everywhere i look i see him, or at least i think. The man just does something to my soul and I'll be damned if i ever let go.
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With Jay arriving within a few days, i had to make sure everything was intact and we be done when he gets hear. Especially with the party being the same day as his arrival. The next few days consisted of me working, promoting, and planning, and prepping. I had filming and interviews, photo shoots and signings, I had appearances and meetings, and ordering and organizing. Yes, i was busy. The party pretty much was the basis of it all.
I can't say i didn't have help though. Kelly was back in town, Solo was here, and i had Ty and Angie. Oh and not to mention Gwyn. Having them to help me out sort of took a lot of stress off of me. Kelly, Gwyn, and myself were actually on our way to go settle somethings for the party.We were going to do some tasting for some food samples, to see what we were going to cater at the party. We had just pulled up to the Kallarney Rose, and little irish restaurant in midtown NY. We figured sense it was a St. Patrick's Day party, we mine as well have some irish dish. This was about the 5th one we came to and i was swamped. But i was enjoying tasting all the good food.
We got inside it the place was decked out. It was very elegant and traditional. You could see all the different Irish characteristics throughout the place. Already i was feeling good with this one. We weren't standing at the door for no more than 5 minutes, when a woman came out to greet us. She was very small but petite, but she had a little weight on her. She also had light freckles, with long burnt orange and crimson red hair. She kind of reminded of the girl from Wendy's.
(Woman) "Hello" she said with her strong irish accent. "How may i insist you today?"
She was very polite, and warm feeling.
(Gwyn) "Hello" she said smiling, stooping down a little to shake her hand "Im Gwyn, and these are my friends....we were looking to speak with your owner?"
(Woman) "Hello Gwyn, Im Gretta and I'm also the owner." she said with a smile on her face.
I was a tad shocked with she said that she was the owner, because for the past few restaurants they have all been guys, and judging off the layout of her restaurant you, could have though it was ran by a guy.
(Gwyn) giggling "Oh really?" she asked slightly embarrassed "That's great."
(Woman) "So what can i help ya with?" her accent was too cute.
(Bey) "Well we're hosting a party for St. Patrick's day and we wanted to have our dish catered from an irish restaurant, so we've been going around doing a food taste."
(Gretta) now focusing her attention on me "Hello" she said.
(Bey) "Hi....... oops" i said forgetting i forgot to introduce myself. "Hi I'm Beyoncé." i said as i reached out and shook her hand.
(Gretta) "Nice too meet you Beyoncé, and I'm delighted that you decided to choose our restaurant. Are there any dishes in particular you wish to acquire?"
(Bey) "Well see thats the thing, we have no clue what exactly it is that is considered and irish dish."
(Gretta) starts chuckling "I understand. But i'll be happy to assist, if you follow me i can surely help you out."
We all looked at each other and gave each other that nod in agreement to follow Gretta. She took us back into the kitchen, where she discussed, explained, and prepared different types of foods. Aw boy was her food good. Especially the corn beef, I think i might have to have her hook me up with some on the side. After tasting so many things we finally agreed on the corn beef, the pigs in a blanket croissant, and the irish soda bread. We wanted to have good finger food, so people wouldn't have to worry about making a plate and all that other stuff. We also came up with the idea to just name drinks after irish drinks, so that's less we have to spend, even though it wouldnt have been a problem. After they we gave Gretta the details of the place, time, and location, and the amount of people that were going to be their so she would know how much to prepare.
After leaving we headed back to the office to finish up on some final details for the party. Finding a caterer was pretty much the last thing on our list to do for the party, we just had to go back to the office to make sure we covered everything, you know just double checking everything. While we were at the office, we all talking about normal things, you know having girl talk and Gwyn brought up Jay.
Kelly was sitting in the ledge of the window seal, Gwyn was sitting on top of the desk sorting through papers, and i was sitting in the chair behind the desk just lounging back in the chair.
(Gwyn) "So well Jay be coming to the party?"
(Bey) "Yea, he actually gets in that morning." i started off ''He was trying to surprise and not tell me his what time he was going to be getting in, so i called Joe and asked him."i said laughing.
Joe was Jay's body guard. He had know idea i even called Joe. Mostly because i told Joe not to tell him i called.
(Kelly and Gwyn) both chuckled.
(Kelly) "I don't see how yal can do it. And the crazy part about it is that they go to all those different cities and have to deal with all those different woman, thats what'll make me hard to deal with."
(Gwyn) "I know but i trust Chris enough to know he wouldn't do anything like that, we've only been together for 2 years now and not once has he given me a reason to not trust him."
(Kelly) shaking her head in agreement
(Bey) "Well honestly it's still kind of hard for me to say that for Jay, but don't get me wrong I'm not saying that i don't trust him, it's just we've only been together for 6 months, not even long enough for to have our first dispute..........." starts to think back "Well there was this one time......"
(Kelly) turns from looking out the window "What one time?" she asked all confused.
(Gwyn) "Yea and why didn't we know?" she said a sounding a disappointed.
(Bey) "Well it aint nothing serious, but it still just makes me wonder." i said trying to defend the situation. I didn't want it to seem like something that wasn't really it. You know, make it more than what it was.
(Kelly) giving Bey a look "well?" she said initiating me to begin speaking.
(Bey) looking at Kelly "Well remember the night of his party and i said i left early because i wasn't feeling good?"
(Kelly and Gwyn) "Yea..."
(Kelly) "What about it?"
(Bey) "Well when i showed up it was some girl all over Jay, dancing all on him and shaking her ass all in his face."
(Gwyn) "Oh hell no."
(Kelly) "Well i can understand why you would be mad, but you gotta think about like this, he's a man and thats what guy's do........Jay's 32, 33 and he's been in the game for how long. Thats the life style he lives, especially with the type of job he has. Look at his success rate?!"
(Gwyn) "True......."
(Bey) "I know, I know. But after going through all what i went through with Tony, I'm just been like.........and on top of that I'm not even sure if Jay and I will last, all i can do is just go with the moments..........."
(Gwyn) "But thats all apart of being a woman isn't it? But it's different for you Bey, because the only other you have been with was Tony, your still young, i mean your only 21 you never really had a lot of experiences with guys."
(Bey) "Yea right about that?"
(Gwyn) "Im 30, and although Chris is 4 years younger than me, i can say that out of all the guys i've dated he's actually more advanced and mature than most of him, but at the end of the day he is a guy, and i can respect that as long as he can respect me as a woman."
(Kelly) "Yea you can't stop a guy from being a guy." she said chuckling.
(Bey) "See like what Gwyn said, i can respect a guy that respects me. I guess being with Tony the love for him wasn't there like i thought it was. I guess we grew apart but i just wasnt ready to accept it, i didn't know how to deal with the change and then Jay came along.......and with him being older than me it's like I'm maturing fast, he's making me into a woman."
(Kelly) "I know what you mean, shit it's hard being a woman because we when love we love hard. But guys take advantage of that shit. I mean I'll be down for my dude, he just has to deserve it."
(Gwyn) "Yea me too. Because things with chris at first was a little rocky, but as time went on we grew to accept things of each other and deal with things. I mean it's one thing to be down and it's another to be stupid."
(Bey) "And we Jay and i, we always keep it real with each other, like we tell each other things straight up which is probably why our relationship is continuing to grow. Which brings me back to the whole not being able to trust him, I just feel as long as he is open and honest with me and doesn't lie or try hide things, then we will be okay."
I started thinking about how i've been keeping my relationship with Tony from Jay and it really made me think about things. I had to tell him despite how he was going to take it.
(Kelly) "Man......you can't live with them an----"
(Gwyn and Kelly) buts in with Kelly "And you can't live with out them." they both said and we all started laughing.
(Bey) "We'll i guess we could go now, it's seems like we got everything out the way."
Kelly and Gwyn started grabbing their things and so did I.
(Kelly) "Aye Bey, what you doing later on?" she asked as we walked out the door.
(Bey) "Uhhhhm" i said starting to think.
Gwyn's phone had went off and it was Chris calling.
(Gwyn) "It's Chris, you guys. We'll I'm just head off....i'll catch up with yal later" she said and began hugging us goodbye.
(Kelly and Bey) "Alright, see you later."
(Gwyn) picks up the phone and walks away "Hey babe..." she said as she walked off.
(Bey) focusing her attention back to kelly "Well, Ty and Angie were coming by later to show me some dresses for the party so thats pretty much it. You?
(Kelly) "Well i might meet up with Nelly later, I'm not sure though."
By this time i had already, locked up the office and we were headed downstairs.
(Bey) "Ohh so you and Nelly are back on?"
(Kelly) "Nooooooo, it's nothing like that. We just kicking it."
(Bey) stops walking and gives kelly a look "And thats what you said about Ye."
(Kelly) "Lord don't even get me started on that......." she said as she rolled her eyes "But Nelly and I aren't on anything serious, we're just seeing how thing goes."
(Bey) giggling "And when did this happen, i didn't even know yal were talking again."
(Kelly) "Well when i saw him at Jay's party, then he hit me up a fews days later saying we should have dinner and what not and since then we've been going out from time to time."
(Bey) "Have yal had sex?" i asked all nosy.
(Kelly) giving Bey yet another look "Gosh nosy and it's a possibility" she said all sarcastically, which really meant yea.
(Bey) "And your one to talk. And uhm-hm i knew yal were. How could yal not." i said playfully.
(Kelly) nudges Bey "Shut up"
We had finally made it outside and when we did Gwyn was just pulling off.
(Bey) "Alright Kel, i'll see you later. Love you....call me later." i said as i walked up to the car.
(Kelly) "Okay honey, and i love you too." she said as she hugged me.
And with that being said i got in my car and she got in her car and we drove off. Before stopping home i decided to stop at PB's to pick up me and Solo something to eat and also because i was in the mood for some pasta. It's been a while since i've been here, i think the last time i was here i was still with Tony, and i had ran intone Jay. Man that was a while ago.
When i pulled up the were a few people around, and a couple of paparazzi's posted outside. But i had Julius with me so it was good. I wasn't really tripping. I normally have Julius with me on days that I'm working because i normally don't like to drive, or if I'm on vacation. I walked in the the different smells of food made a perfectly good aroma. I couldn't help but take a deep breath as i got in. But you would be surprised who i saw in their though, Tony. He was sitting at a table off to the side by his self. He was also looking pretty down, he wasn't looking like himself. I debated on rather or not i should go over but then i decided to. I had Julius o ahead and order our food, so that it wouldn't take longer for us to be in here then we already intended.
(Bey) "Tony" i said as i walked over to the table trying to get his attention. He just turned in looked at me and gave me a fake Hi, trying to hide his emotions.
(Bey) "Whats up, whats going on?" i said, as i sat down.
(Tony) "Whats up Bey?" his tone was vey low and very saddening.
(Bey) "Are you okay?" i asked all concerned.
(Tony) "Yea I'm fi---" he stopped and looked at me, noticing me giving him a look, knowing i knew he was lying. "No, Im not."
(Bey) "Well whats wrong?"
He took a deep breath and stared at me hard. I knew that what ever he was about to say was serious.
(Tony) "Do you think that if Shawn never came into the picture that we would still been together?"
I couldn't believe he was asking me this. I mean there was no was i was leaving Jay. After looking back and re-evaluating me and Tony's relationship, i knew that we wouldn't have last. I was kind upset about him asking me that, knowing the situation.
(Bey) "Tony Im with Jay now and if your trying to get back with me, we could just in this conversation. And if you can't accept that then maybe us being friends was a mistake."
And when i said that i grabbed my things to leave from the table, but as i did Tony grabbed ahold of my hand but nothing aggressive, just gentle and reassuring. But that Julius didn't take it that way, his ass was in full out charge mode, but i signaled him that everything was cool. I turned back to look at Tony, and i could see so much pain and hurt in his eyes but it was something else he was feeling something way deeper. I sat back down and studied him. After being with someone for 10 years you really grow to know that person and i could tell Tony wasn't himself. I sat back down and grabbed Tony's hand to let him know that it was okay, that i was here for him.
(Bey) "Tony what is it?" i asked trying to help him get what he had to say out.
(Tony) "It's my dad...." he started in a low whimpering voice. He cleared his throat to fight back the tears and started speaking again. "I just found out recently that his cancer has increased and it is now more severe. The doctor's say that there's nothing they could do. He only has about 3 months left to live and if not that then less."
When Tony told me that tears instantly hit my eyes. Just for the simple fact that i actually had a strong relationship with his father, well that was because of Tony. But after leaving Houston our communication got cut back, but every time i went back there i always made sure i tried to go visit. I was also thinking about if this one just another one of Tony's lies to get me to come back to him, but i knew it wasn't. I could see the sincerity in his face and hear it when he spoke. I was really feeling for Tony. And i know he's hurting back because over the past 2 years he and his father haven't been on the best of terms.
(Bey) "Tony im so sorry....I ....I ...I" i became lost for words and my mind was all over the place. I couldn't even picture the thought of me losing my dad.
(Tony) "I know Bey, it's fine. But the crazy thing about it, thats not even it....."
I looked at him with a confused painful look on my face. What else did he possibly have to tell me.
(Tony) lets out a soft chuckle of disbelief "Just when i thought my life couldn't have gotten any worse."
(Bey) just stares at him.
Tony took a deep breath and just stared at me hard. He adjusted himself in the sit, and his back was now against the seat, with his head tilted back. He ran and his hans over his face and let out another deep sigh, then sat back up with his elbows on the table, and his hands pressed together at his face.
(Tony) "Remember the whole paternity thing with Victoria?"
(Bey) "Yea...." i nodded, but the thought of him reminded me made me mad all over again. I was stuck between a deep sadness and a huge madness.
(Tony) "Well it turns out that the child wasn't mine. She had a friend who worked for the company and paid her to alter the test, now don't get me wrong, i am still guilty of the cheating and the false letter, but lying about me having a son is just beyond me. Thats the whole reason why i even decided to marry her, was so that my son wouldn't have to grow up with out both his parents.......but it turns out it wasn't even mine."
When Tony told me that i just sat there speechless. I didn't even know what to say. She was part of the reason why Tony and I broke up, aside from the shit that he did. But i can understand though why he reacted the way he did when all that went down. No one ever wants to lose the love of their life to someone else. But thats doesn't justify for anything because when your wrong your wrong.
After pondering on my thoughts and registering all what Tony had told me, i was about to speak until Tony started speaking.
(Tony) "Do you think that if you wouldn't of had the miscarriage that you would have kept it, even though you and i had broke up."
Tony bringing up the miscarriage brought back some old feelings about the thought of having a baby, the thought of how things would have been if i was able to go full term.
(Bey) "Actually i would have."
(Tony) "Things would have been a lot different."
(Bey) "To---"
(Tony) "Look Bey, you don't owe me anything." he said cutting in "And my reasons for telling you that was not for us to get back together and try to work things out, I just needed somebody to hear me. I don't have anybody to talk or no one who would understands me. I just been in here all morning trying to clear my head.....until you came in."
(Bey) "Tony thats fucked up. And I'm sorry that you have to go through all of this, i really am. But you can't let Victoria get away with what she did, you have to do something."
(Tony) "Well my lawyers are working out some stuff right now, but I'm just like i don't care anymore. With all thats going on in my life i feel like it's happening for a reason, starting with our breakup until now. I guess karma is catching up with me for all that i put you through. I guess Im just not a good person." he said as he threw his head.
(Bey) lifting Tony's head up "Tony don't say that. You are a good person, well at least i know you are. I understand that you did your dirt but still no one should have to go through what you are going through, The shit is just crazy. Despite it all, I'm here for you and I always will. Don't pity your self, just accept what is it life is throwing at you and deal with it. I know more strong welled then that." i said smiling at him.
(Tony) smiling back "Th---"
Julius came walking over with our food. And interrupted us.
(Julius) "You all ready?"
(Bey) "Yea just give me a sec." i said looking back towards Tony.
(Julius) "Okay, I'll meet you out by the car." then stared walking off.
(Bey) "ok."
(Tony) "Thanks Bey for being here for me, it's means a lot to me that we could still be friends after everything. And i wish nothing but the best for you and Shawn" he said beginning to stand up and so did I.
(Bey) "Look thats behind us now, it's a whole new year. Let's just work on making this year a good one. And thank you." I said as i extended my arms out to hug him.
(Tony) hugging Bey back "Yea lets and your welcome."
(Bey) "Welp, let me head back on home to Solo, i got some business to attend to."
Tony drops some money down on the table to cover his meal and what he had from before i showed up.
(Tony) "Alright, i'll catch you later."
(Bey) "Alright, bye." i said and we both walked out and got into our cars and headed home.
The whole car ride i was thinking about all what Tony had told me, especially about his dad. It made me think about me and my dad, so i decided to call him.
****PHONE CONVO
(Bey) "Hello, Dad?..." his background was a little loud i was sure if he could hear me.
(Mr. Knowles) "Hey whats up now pumpkin?"
(Bey) "What are you doing and where are you it's loud in your background."
(Mr. Knowles) "Im at the sports bar having some drinks with the guys. What are you doing?"
(Bey) "Nothing, I'm just on my way home form the office, i had stopped at PB's to grabbed something to eat and now I'm heading home."
(Mr. Knowles) "Oh okay, did you have a good day."
(Bey) "Yea i did daddy, you?"
(Mr. Knowles) "Yea it was alright."
It had got quiet and then my dad started talking again.
(Mr. Knowles) "I don't know i , told you this but i had ran into Shirl, a few weeks ago and she was telling about Anthony and how sick he had gotten."
Shirl was Tony's aunt, and Anthony was Tony's dad.
(Bey) "Yea i've heard."
(Mr. Knowles) "Yea he's doing pretty bad, i just went to go see him like last week."
(Bey) "Oh no, is he? Thats crazy."
(Mr. Knowles) "Yea it is."
All of a sudden my phone started beeping and it was a text from Jay.
****TEXT CONVO
(Text From Jay) Bey?
.........
(Bey) "Hey dad, i got a text coming through. ima just talk to you later."
(Mr. Knowles) "Alright, I love you."
(Bey) "I love you too." i said and hung up, then texted Jay back.
..........
(Text to Jay) Yes?
(Text from Jay) What are you doing?
(Text to Jay) pulling up at the house, whats up?
(Text from Jay) Oh nothing, i had just tried calling but it went straight to voicemail, i was just seeing whats up.
(Text to Jay) Oh i was on the phone with my dad, it must not had went through.
(Text from Jay) Oh okay.
(Text to Jay) What are you doing?
(Text from Jay) Sound check, getting ready for another show.
(Text to Jay) oh okay, well I'm getting ready to go in the house, text me later after the show. Oh and have a good show babe.
(Text from Jay) Alright ma, i will. And thanks. I love you.
(Text to Jay) I love you too.
After that i headed in the house, i called Ty and Angie to see where they were and they were about 5 mins away. I went and called for Solo to come get her food, as I sat at the table and began to eat mines. 10 or 15 mins later Ty and Angie were coming in.
(Bey) "5 mins my ass....." i joked as the made their way into the dining area, with a mouth full of food.
(Ang) "Eww don't you think you should swallow your food first before you eat" she teased as she came over to great me, chuckling "Hey Bey."
(Bey) "Whats up Ang."
(Ang) ''Where Solo?"
(Bey) "Upstairs...."
(Ang) "I'll be back I'm gonna go mess with her."
(Bey) laughing "Alright." Looks at Ty "Ty baby, what you got for me?"
(Ty) "Damn no hello," he said as he laid out each one of the dresses along the couch.
(Bey) "Opps my bad, whats up brotheren?"
I've been knowing Ty for the past 5 years, he's grown to be like a brother to me.
(Ty) "Oh na, you can save it now. I don't need it." he playfully whined.
I got up from the table and started playing with Ty, trying to playfully kiss on him and hug him and we started tussling a bit.
(Bey) "Aw I'm sorry baby" i said as we wrestled.
(Ty) "Nope you should have thought about that 2 mins ago." he said still trying to resist me.
We wrestled until my ass tripped and fell out on the floor.
(Bey) "You play too much" i said sarcastically as i got up using the couch as a crutch, while Ty stood there laughing.
(Ty) "Thats was you ass get, always playing and shit." he said laughing.
By this Ang and Solo had came down.
(Bey) chuckling "Alright, for real lets be serious, let me see what you got Ty."
He went through all the dresses, and after picking out the two i like the best, i stripped down in the living room into my clothes. I didn't care that Ty saw me, we had that type of relationship. And it wasn't like i was full out naked anyway. The first dress I tried on was a black strapless, body fitting dress. The other one i tried on was a green sparkling dress, that hugged my body. I think i like that one the most because it went more with concept of the theme.
(Bey) "alright" i said putting back on my clothes. "I like the green the most, but i'll have the black one as beck up."
(Ty) "I knew you was gonna pick the green one."
(Bey) "Hush up you aint know nothing." i teased, sticking my tongue out at him.
(Ty) puts his fist up at Bey
(Bey) "Okay, I'm just playing." i said laughing.
(Solo) "Yea Bey, that green one was HOT."
(Ang) "Yea, you sue Jay gonna let you out in that." she teased.
(Bey) "Thanks Solo, and HA HA HA very funny Ang, Jay don't run shit." i said talking mess.
(Ang) "Yea you saying that cuz he aint around, i bet you want talk like that if he was around."
(Bey) "Girl bye, aint nobody scared of Jay's ass." i chuckled.
(Ang) "Yea, yea, yea."
(Ty) "Well not thats that out the way" he interrupted "Anybody want a drink" he said walking over to the liquor cabinet.
(Bey) "Hell yea, give me that hennessy black."
(Ty) "How about we take shots."
(Ang) "Fuck no, i got something to do in the morning."
(Bey) "Aw you can't hang." i teased.
(Ty) "I know right Bey." he said as he laid out the shot got glasses.
(Ang) "Shut up TY, and i could hang it's just ima have to drive back tonight in oder for me to get up on time in the morning."
(TY) "Aw you suck."
(Ang) "I mean i would take some shots, but i aint tryna get fucked up."
(Bey) "Welp that's cool, Solo you down, huh?" i said walking over to the bar.
(Solo) "Hell yea" she said jumping up off the couch.
(Ty) "Oh lord, the child is drinking. Celestine gon kill yal."
(Bey) "No you didn't just say Celestine." bursting out in laughter "Really TY."
(TY) chuckles
(Solo) "I know, only TY."
(Ang) laughs.
(Bey) "Alright now, so whats up on theses shots TY, man you playing." i teased.
(TY) "Calm down, alchy......." he teased back.
(Solo) "Alright so how we gonna do this."
(Bey) "Lets play, truth or dare and who ever doesn't do it has to take a shot. But lets all takes shots right now just for the hell of it."
Everybody agreed and we all took shots and went on to play truth or dare. Of course Angie tapped out early, so its was between me, TY, and Solo. But Solo was the next to tap out. She was still a light weight. It was between me and Ty and his ass, would not stop. Me either. I was so competitive and so was Ty. We were always competing against each other over something. It finally ended when i felt myself about to throw up, but i never did, it just felt like it. Although i didn't, i stopped anyway because i didnt want to throw up.
(TY) "Ha, as always i win. LIGHT WEIGHTS."
(Bey) "Awwww shut your face, you lucky my stomach started hurting."
(TY) "Yea, yea, yea, whatever, your ready Ang?"
(Ang) "Yea lets' go" she said "Shit i hope we make it home." she joked.
(TY) "Oh hell." he said laughing "We gonna make it."
(Bey) laughing. "Y'all silly" i said as i followed them to the door. "Alright Ty and Ang, be safe love yal. Let me know when yal make it." i yelled as i watched them walk to the door.
(Ty and Ang) Love you too and okay.
I went back into the living to go clean up our mess and those shots really started to kick in. I just left everything how it was and decided to just do it tomorrow. I looked over to Solo who had passed out on the couch, i tried waking her up but she didn't budge, so i covered her with a blanket and went up stairs.
It took the longest for me to get upstairs, trying to maintain my balance and not fall down the stairs. The minute i got in my room i stripped out of my clothes and threw on one of Jay's tshirts. After i plopped down onto my bed, then my phone went off. It was Jay. I answered the phone and propped myself up in the bed to get comfortable.
****PHONE CONVO
(Bey) "Mm....HI Pop Pop." i said trying my best not to sound drunk.
(Jay) chuckles "Whats up ma....."
(Bey) "Whats so funny?"
(Jay) "You are." he said still laughing.
(Bey) "How?" i said a bit amused, i loved to play around with Jay.
(Jay) "Have you been drinking?"
(Bey) "Noooooooo........."i said trying to sound all innocent.
(Jay) "Yea, Yea, Yea.....ima whoop your ass when i see you, at home acting bad and shit." he joked.
(Bey) "Im not acting bad Pa, i've been good."
(Jay) "Yea, i bet." he said letting out a chuckle.
(Bey) "You better stop laughing at me punk."
(Jay) "Oh what you gonna do little miss tough girl???"
(Bey) giggles "You'll see, keep laughing at me."
(Jay) "You aint gonna do nothing but cry, cry baby." he teased.
(Bey) "You talk a lot of mess over the phone." i said trying to sound hard.
(Jay) "Na, you know me....i can back it up though. And what do you do? Huh?"
(Bey) "I can back it up too, but I'm more legit."
(Jay) "Yea you can back it up alright, fasho." he said in his sexy voice.
(Bey) lets out a cute little chuckle "Hush, silly. What are you doing?"
(Jay) laughs. "Nothing just making it to the hotel."
(Bey) "How was your show?"
(Jay) "Good as always.....what you doing though?"
(Bey) "Laying in bed thinking about you of course."
(Jay) "Oh yea, what about me?" he said in his sexy voice again.
(Bey) "About how much i miss you and wanna kiss you, and wan----.......Mmm let me stop."
(Jay) "Why you stop?" he laughed.
(Bey) "Because thinking about you is getting me all worked up and having this liquor in my system is not helping because I'm like super horny." i said chuckling and slightly embarrassed, i just told Jay i was horny.
(Jay) laughs "Aw my poor Bey-Butt, just 2 more days though and i'll be home."
(Bey) "I know and i can't wait, me and mona miss you oh so much."
(Jay) "Oh is that right."
(Bey) "Yuuup." i said in my cute baby voice.
(Jay) "I miss yal too" he said with a chuckle "But let go ahead and get settled in and ima call you in the morning. I love you."
(Bey) "I love you too and good night."
(Jay) "night" he said then hung up.
And there i laid in bed, another sleepless night without Jay. And as i laid there, drunk and deep in my thoughts, i began to think about things, especially after what Tony had told me. I don't rather it was because i was drunk, or just feeling some type of way. I just knew the things on my mind was weighing heavy.
-PART TWO-
(Chapter Mood Introduction)
It was now 2 nights before the party and Jay's arrival. Tomorrow Jay was going to be performing in Atlantic City, and i was thinking that we should all drive there and surprise Jay. I know my last time around my surprise didn't go well, but i know for sure it will. And on top of that it gives me a chance to see Jay earlier than expected.
I was on my way to Kelly's house to discuss what i've been thinking. Knowing Kelly, she's probably gonna be down for it anyways. Since i was already out it didn't take me long to get to Kelly's house. She knew that i was coming but she didn't know when. I pulled into her driveway, all the way up to the door. As I was walking up to her door she was coming out with Nelly on her arm, wearing her night gown. It was clear they had just got having sex. And i was feeling awkward having watching Nelly do the walk of shame. We all stood there staring at each other, smiling and laughing out of the awkward moment.
(Bey) "Well Hello...." i said speaking to Nelly.
(Nelly) chuckles "What up Bey?"
(Bey) "A little late huh?" i teased.
(Nelly) "Na, it aint late at all."
Kelly stood there cheesing hard because she had been caught. She always so goofy about things so it's hard to take her serious.
(Bey) "Well I'm gonna go ahead and go in the house, while you guys say your good byes" i said as i began to walk in the house "Byyyyyyye Nel." i said turning back to face him.
(Nelly) shakes his head and laughs "Deuces."
I went inside and waited on the couch for Kelly to come back in. I was waiting to let her have it. I love catching Kelly do stuff because then i get to pick with her. It seems she's always catching me doing things, so this time i got her. When she came back in, we both shared in laughter.
(Bey) "So what was that?"
(Kelly) "None of your business." she said laughing.
(Bey) "So i have to ask, is it safe to sit on this couch."
(Kelly) "Not at all" she joked.
I playfully jumped up off the couch, as Kelly made her way over with 2 drinks in her hand.
(Kelly) "Here......" she said handing me a drink, while she took a sip of hers. "So whats up?" she said as she sat down.
(Bey) "Weeeeeell" i started off a bit sarcastically "Jay is having a show in AC tomorrow night and i wanted to see if you wanted to come with me."
(Kelly) "OH AC, Hell yea, i'll go."
(Bey) "Cool, i was thinking about driving, but AC kind of far maybe we should hop on the plane."
(Kelly) "Ohhh yea, thats a nice little drive, and then we have to drive back, no we should just fly."
(Bey) "Yea, i thinks thats what we'll do." i said taking another sip of my drink. "We'll probably leave about mid-day. I was planning on meeting with Dad.........that reminds me, did you hear about Tony's dad."
(Kelly) sips her drink "Noooo, what happened?" she asked eager to know.
(Bey) "Well you know, he's been sick, and well now it's gotten worst and he has less than 3 months to live."
(Kelly) "What Bey,.........noooooooo."
(Bey) "I was the same exact way.......when i found out."
(Kelly) "So how is Tony doing, i know it's killing him, especially his aunt Shirl."
(Bey) "Yea he's taking it pretty bad, not to mention all the other things he dealing with."
(Kelly) "Like what?"
(Bey) "Well to make a long story short, Victoria set Tony up, the baby was never his."
(Kelly) spits out her drink "WHAT!?!!?" she said "How?"
(Bey) "She had a friend working on the inside, and she altered the results, making it seem like he was."
(Kelly) "Damn thats fucked up." she said as she repositioned her self "You know all that was, was her being money hungry."
(Bey) "Yea, because why else."
(Kelly) shakes her head "Thats is crazy."
(Bey) "Aint it."
I stayed at kelly's house for an hour or 2 more. Just talking about the whole situation and some other things. After leaving i went back home and got into bed. When i got there Solo was already sleep. Jay had called me on my home from kelly's but my phone went dead so i couldn't answer. I made sure though that when i got home i texted him to let him know the deal. I wasn't in the mood for much talking, so i kept the convo short. And after showering and changing into my pajamas i went to bed. My thoughts were still wrapped around Tony and his situation, i could only imagine how he was feeling. It wasn't long though before my thoughts put me to sleep and i was now only a day away from seeing my baby.
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