Chp45 The Final

RE-CAP: Jay and Bey are home from NJ. Meanwhile Jay gets a call from his lawyer asking if they can meet up to discuss his case. There’s a possibility tat Jay might not have to serve any time. Shelly is back in the picture now, announcing to Jay that she was pregnant. And although it may look like Bey may be taking the news with Jay a little too easy, don’t let her fool you.

(Chapter Mood Introduction)

Although Bey seems to take the pregnancy situation a bit too lightly, just know that that shit is really killing her on the inside. She remains peaceful about things for the sake of the baby, being that last time dealing with Tony and all his mess caused her to have a miscarriage. Bey informs Jay that she will be meeting with Shelly, while Jay is waiting to hear back from his lawyer.

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(Bey's Thoughts)........

After Jay told me Shelly was pregnant, I just wanted too throw up. I instantly became sick to my stomach which is why I haver had went off to bed early. Yea I know I probably should have flashed out on him, but then that would be too easy. He would expect that. But by me acting all cool and nonchalant about it, causes Jay to feel like damn either she’s really upset and just not saying shit or she just doesn’t care. And it's not that i don't care it just that, Jay really cares about me, that i know. But i think he has anyone like me before. Im much younger then Jay, but I'm much more wiser and mature then many other women my age. And for Jay to change his ways for me makes me know that this could be something real. Half the things i do with Jay, i would never do with Tony. Not because i havent thought about it, but it was because of Tony.

Dont get me wrong, i love Tony and I always will. But being in love as a child is much more different once you become an adult. Things are taken a lot more seriously. With Tony i've come to realize that are love for each other was nothing like i thought it was, and though we love each other, we just wasnt in love with each other. And all that im putting up with Jay is showing me how much i really care about him. Because at the end of the day, with i think about the good and bad of our relationship, its the good that out ways th bad.........



I was sitting in the doctors office after just having my 4th month check up. Unfortunately Jay couldnt come because his lawyer called him back in the the office today, for an emergency meeting. I wish he had come though because it's killing me to know what the hell this emergency meeting is all about. If Jay has too face time, i'll be devastated because i know he'll be missing out on his time with Brook and his time with me. When i first met Jay, from what i knew of him, i knew he had a little street edge to him, and though he told ne some things, i would never imagine that i would atcually experience any of it. I mean im down for Jay and all but i aint dumb. With all that has occured within these past 10 months, between Jay and myself, my mom and dad, Kelly, and Sinaa has really casued m to reevaluate my relationship with Jay as far as what do i expect of him, and what it is i want out of this relationship. I feel that in oder for us to completely move forward we might even have to consider counseling.

It wasnt long until the Dr came in interrupting my thoughts. I was happy though at how quick he came back, she was really on a role today. The point of the check up is to pretty much make sure, evertyhing is fine with myself and the baby. Making sure we both are getting are vitamins and nutrients to maintain a good health. As well as for the baby, we have to make sure she is growing and eating regularly as needed. And if anything is uncertain they will be able to correct it in the proper time format to prevent problems in the future.

(DR) "Well Ms. Knowles, it seems as though everything is looking good as usual, but only thing wrong this time is that your stress levels seem a little high, i know in the past that caused a major problem for you during your last pregnancy, so i just want to make sure that you are aware of this, so that you could take the proper steps to work on keeping them low, okay...." she said handing me a stack of papers.

(Bey) "Yea i know, it's just been a lot im dealing with, but im trying my best to stay calm."

(DR) "Oh no i completely undertsand, because i know the pregnancy itself can be stressful at times because a lot of people get overwhelmed. But in those stack of papers you'll find a proposal on how to stay stress free, and it will give you all time of techniques you can use in order to do so."

(Bey) "Okay, great...because i was just thinking like, these arre a lot more papers than usual." I said as we both broke out inot laughter.

(DR) laughing "Ohhh right, but like i say before if you dont have anymore questions or concerns, then you are all set to go. Again, take the blue paper and take that to the fron desk so that can fill your prescription and once you finish with that you are all done."

(BEY) "Ok, cool. I guess i'll see you next month." i said as i made my way of the chair.

(DR) "Thats is correct, ok....we'll keep in contact, you have a good day Ms. Knowles." she said just before walking out.

(BEY) "Yes, you do the same DOC."

After getting up and getting dress then taking my perscription to get filled, i headed off to go meet with Shelly at a nice little dinner just outside of manhattan.  Being that my Dr's office is nearly on the other side of town, The Pit Stop, was the most conveinient place to go. I noticed that when i was getting out the car to go into the dinner, i had a missed cal from Jay. I was checking the time to see if i was late or ealry, but i was right on time. I didnt have a chance to call back because as soon as i walked in, there was Shelly, sitting at te table by her self. She didnt notice me until i finally approached the table. We both gave off a look to each other, but look was much more on a muggin time of factor. I sat down where we both greeted each other, i was to stay as polite and classy about the situation as much as possible.

(Shelly) "Look before you start to speak..." Shelly began "I just want to say a few things just to clear the air." she said clearing her throat. "Looking back, if i could take it all back i would. Thats not the type of person that i am, nor is that the type of things that i do. I just want to let you know woman to woman that is was nothing more than just a physical relationship between Jay and I. At that the time we both were emotionally unstable....." she said beomcing a bit queiter, making things a little more interesting.

(Bey) "You dont have to give me no explanation Shelly....i just came here t---"

(Shelly) "No actualy i do..." she said cutting me off. "You know your friend Kelly?" she asked me as i became curious as to why she would bring her up.

(Bey) "Yea, what about her?"

(Shelly) "Well that guy that she's dating, well was dating....he's my ex...." she said, causing my eyes to widen, nealry choking on the water i just took in "And when i came down to the station that night to see about Jay, i heard a bit about the case and who the guy was and i realized that that was my Reggie, the one that they were talking about......"

Shelly went on telling me how her relationship was with Reggie and how he manipulated her and how abusive he was, and i could do is picture that night Kelly caming pounding on my door, all beat up. My feelings for Shelly shifted from hate and anamosity to sympathy and forgiveness. She went on saying how she and Reggie was still together around the tim Kelly and Reggie hooked up, and talked about how she didnt find the straight to leave him until she met Jay. She told me how Jay use to talk about his feelings for me to her and how they use to talk all the time, which caused both of them to become close. And on one night they both were feeling really vulnerable, and after the liquor got into the system one thing led to another.

(BEY) "So does Jay know any of this, about you and Reggie?" I asked not sure what to stay. It was going to take a minute for me to process all this information.

(Shelly) "No, i never menntioned his name to him out of fear that he might have knew Reggie, and i never told him about the beatings because i was too scared and embarrassed, so i just told him that we had or problems."

(BEY) "Wow Shelly, i...i....i dont even know what to say...i mea----"

(Shelly) "Look you can feel how you want to feel about me, i can accept that. Because that stills doesnt justify what i did, because at the end of the day it was wrong. But i just wanted you to get to know me and here my story before you went off and judged me. And being that Jay is the father of this baby....i would love for us to be able to get along, well thats if Jay even wants anything to do with the baby."

I really had no words for Shelly it was really taking me a while to proccess everything, my heart just metled for her, like i seruously wanted to cry. And the fact that she's so young and so beautiful and im sure somewhat talented, makes it that much harder for me to stay mad at her. She had me thinking about Tony and when i would be with Jay, knowing damn well I had feelings for him but would deny them when i was in front of Tony. It's kind of like the same thing. But it's totally different.

See for a guy he can cheat and not think twice about it. A guy a looking for no friend or any tyoe of shit like that, he just want the goods and he can go about his business, it's just all physical. But for a girl just because we're not fucking the guy that doesnt meant we're not cheating. For us it's much more if an emotional thing. Rather it's long talks, frequent dinner dates, hanging together, etc....we just do it in a different way, so thats why i say i can relate to Shelly in a way.

(Bey) "To be honest with you Shelly, i was actually coming here today to let you have it, but now after hearing you and speaking with you, i can see the realness in you. Although i hate what went down between you and Jay, it's not right for me to forgive him and not forgive you. And im sorry that you had to go through what you went through, but i assure you, you will have no problems with Jay when it comes to being there for the baby, but just to make myself clear....i do mean JUST for the baby. Thats his responsiblity too..."

(Shelly) "Beyonce i ju--"

(BEY) "Wait let me finish..." i interrupted "I forgive you, but dont think for one second, ima forget the shit, and excuse me for if i seem a little angry right now, but thats just how im feeling. I didnt sacrifice being the wife of a professinal NFL star for nothing....i genuwinely love Jay with all my heart, and although we only been together for 10 months, thats shit doesnt matter becuase.....it's all the things we put forth for these last 10 months is the reason im still fighting for our realationship still.....I could give up like i did with my ex and say i dont care, but it's different with Jay..losing him, will be like me taking my last breath, you feel where i coming from." i said speaking from my heart, with so much passion, anger, and rage. I wasnt trying to be mean, but thats just how i was feeling.

(Shelly) "Yes, i understand and i apologize for all the touble that i've cause and i take full responsibilty for my actions. I just hope that one in the future we could be friends or something."

(Bey) "Friends? Thats a word that gets thrown around likely....look Shelly i dont have no problem with you, you spoke your peace, and i said what i had to say. I aint looking for us to be friends and i aint looking for us to be buddy buddy, but however we do have to learn to deal with each other for the sake of our kids, which is the only reason, i even came to see you today."

(Shelly) "Well thats understandable and i can respect that."

(Bey) "Well i guess thats it then, we both said what we had to say, if there's nothing else that needs to be said, i guess i can go ahead and get on out of here."

(Shelly) "Im really gald we were able to talk Beyonce, thank you."

(Bey) "Yea, same here" i said dropping down some money to cover the bill. We didnt even have time to get to our meal, and we barely had time to order drinks, being that i was sipping on water. But it would atleast cover for Shelly.

After leaving i think i was more mad leaving then i was when i first came in. Hearing that Shelly was there the night he was in jail, bothers me. What was she even doing there. I can see now why she has become so invloved with his case but trust me boo, i can handle this. We dont need your help. I do think it's fucked up what Shelly had to deal with, but at the end of the day she made her bed so she must ly in it. And as for me and Jay, i was done with trying to be the nice girlfriend and be so reasonable and understanding. I wonder why he never told me about Shelly coming to see him in jail. See shit like that is why at times its hard for me to trust Jay. We get ahead 10 steps to get knocked back 20. And this time around it's not even me. I know at first Jay was patient with me, trying to get over Tony, but its harder when your the one trying to be strong and helpful.

I dont think i could have dialed Jay's number quick enough i was heated, he has yet to feel my raft.

(PHONE CONVO)

(Bey) "Really Jay" i said not giving him a chance to even say hello. "You told me you had no contact with that bitch, but she's showing up at the princent and shit...come on Jay now really. You must want me to turn into the psycho girlfriend from hell huh?"

(Jay) "Look Bey can we not talk about this right now, im not trying argue with you."

(Bey) "Well evidently we havent been communicating enough becasue how is it that i didnt know about this." i snapped.

(Jay) "BEY....i really dont have time to deal with this really....Things arent how i thought they were, i could be facing time, infact i am facing time. The whole part of this emergency meeting was set up for me to negoitate a deal. If i serve the time they give, they'll clear my background, and if i refuse it then i have to serve more time."

(BEY) "Dammit Jay!" i yelled into the phone, not only disappointed but merely sad. I knew one day we were going to have to face the facts. "How much time i we talking." i asking trying to bring my focus on Jay case."

(Jay) gets quiet for a min then begin to speak "3 1/2 years, but 2 and 1/2 on good behavior."

(Bey) "Damn you Jay..." was pretty much all the words i can say. I mean i knew the day would come and as much as i was  trying to prepare myself for it, the fact thats its finally here brings a much more extreme feeling.

(Jay) "I know B, I know....but look i need you too be strong right now. I have to go though, they're getting ready for sentenc--"

(Bey) "Wait what, but i wanna see you Jay...I need to see you."

(Jay) "Well you can't right now. Regina has your number, she will be contacting you, was everything is over. B, i just want you to know that I'm sorry for everything and i love you so much. Just be strong, i need you to be for baby girl and me, okay."

(Bey) "But i need you Jay.....you don't understand." i said as i broke out into tears.

(Jay) "I have to go be, there calling us back in.....I love you Beyoncé, i'll see you soon."
 he said right before hanging up.

(Bey) "JAAAAAAY!!!!" i yelled into the phone trying to keep him from hanging up.

I can't believe it. I can't believe that Jay is really going to be gone. I wish i hadn't start fussing at him, i should have just heard him out. I shouldn't of answered when he called the first time. Man, this is going to be the longest 3 years of my life. And poor Brook, she want even get to see or meet Jay for the first couple of yeas oif her life. Nor will he even be there for her bIrth. I went home feeling the worst way. Its crazy how things in your life can change so fast, especially when your not ready. All i can do at this moment is be strong, because with Jay not being around Brooklyn is going to need all the love she can get.


THE END........

Thanks for reading, look for part 2, which will be coming soon. I appreciate all my readers and all my supporters. I love you all. I wanna dedicate this blog to the Lovely Bey and Jay and my behive, because yal are my inspiriation, and the reason for me getting into this. On that note stay tuned, stay posted, and just be prpared for whats to come.

(BTW: Sorry this post was a little short, but it will be worth it for part 2.)

CHP 44

Re-Cap: Jay and Bey goes to visit Jay's Yai Yai who is now out of the hospital. Bey and Jay have a good time with Jays family. They also are learning to communicate more effectively and learn things from one another. They finally become one with each other afar all these months. Meanwhile Jay is still dealing with his case.


(Chapter Mood Introduction)
Jay and Bey are heading home from a wonderful weekend with his family. During the ride home Jay received a call from his lawyer asking if he could meet with her pronto to discuss his case. It seem as though while they we're gone, Regina, Jay's lawyer was able to work out a deal with the judge to see if Jay could serve less time or no time at all. Both Jay and Bey are fearful of the news and are dreading even going to meet with them.


(Jays POV)

       We we're riding in the on our way home from Gloria's. After receiving that call from Jay's lawyer and hour into our ride, made the rest of the ride so awkward. It was quiet no one was talking, the radio was turned off, our heads was just all over the place. I kept looking over to B and i could see in her eyes how devastated she was and it hurt me knowing that she has to go through all of this.

(Bey) "So what time exactly do you have to meet with them?" she said breaking the silence. As much as it hurter B to even think about it, i knew she was just trying to remain strong.

(Jay) "2:30..." 

(Bey) "Well it's a good thing we left when we did, because otherwise we wouldnt have made it."

(Jay) "Yea...i know, right?"

(Bey) "So what is it that she wants to meet with you about?"

(Jay) "Uhh, well apparently my lawyer was able to work out a deal, with rather or not i'll be having to serve time or not....she didn't really go into all the details, she just asked if i could meet her and i said yea."

(Bey) "Well thats sounds like a bit of good news. I just hope you don't end up serving anytime at all."

(Jay) "Yea you and me both."

      After that Brief conversation with B, the ride went back to being quiet again. As we were finally back in NY, but now on our way to meet with my lawyer. We arrived there almost 45 mins later, but we we're still early. It was around like 2:10. I figured i'll just take B on home so she could rest, and being that i don't know how long the meeting is going to go i didn't want her to have to wait on me. Although she unwillingly agreed to me leaving her at the house, she still stayed behind. I made it back to my appointment just 10 minutes after it's original time and i was nervous as shit.

I walked into the office of my lawyer with the little bit if confidence i had left. I sat down on the sofa in her office, rubbing my hands against my jeans because my palms had begin to sweat due to my nervousness.

(Regina) "Well Hello, Mr. Carter....long time no see." she said.

(Jay) "Yea and I'm tryna keep it like that, if you know what i mean." i said referring to me staying out of trouble. 

(Regina) chuckling "Yea i know what you mean..." she began "Well lets just cut right too the chase, because i know you dying to know whats been going on?"

(Jay) "Extremely...." i said cutting in.

(Regina) "Well, while you were out....i did some more research on the case and i found out that there was a countersuit against Mr. Walker, made by a Kelendria Rowland? Is she someone too you."

(Jay) "Yea....thats my sister."

(Regina) "Okay. Well since she filed charges against him, we could use that to fight against your case and say how you were just protecting her and yada yada yada.....you catch my drift."

(Jay) nodds his hand in agreement. "But what about the witness and people that said they saw me."

(Regina) "Well with that we could have Shelly testify using the alibi she gave stating that she was with you that night and talk about how Reggie, well Mr. Walker attacked you first by making threats and remarks about Kelly saying how he was going to this and that..."

        

             Jay's thoughts.......SHELLY? I had forgotten all about her. But why is she still around and all up in my case. If she's trying to mess up things between B and I she has another thing coming. Im juts gonna have to put her in her place.

                 

(Jay) "So pretty much, i could argue it using self defense?"

(Regina) "Yup and harassment as well. Once the judge see's all these things then it could change to amount of time you would have to face "

(Jay) "Thats good to hear, so when will be the next time you meet with him."

(Regina) "Im actually going over to meet with him right after this, which is why i asked you to meet with me so that we could go over everything."

(Jay) "So do i need to go to?"

(Regina) "Nope, this is just for the officials and I to talk over everything and bring in any new information to the case and once that is all over, we are going to set up a private trial, for the sentencing. So give us a couple of weeks maybe to do so or probably even a month. To get everything together. This is a very sensitive case and it must be handled with the proper care."

(Jay) "Okay....thats what i like to hear."

(Regina) "And on that note Mr. Carter you are good to go. But we'll keep in contact through, you should expect a call from me later on tonight or first thing tomorrow, so i can tell you for sure, how things are going to go."

(Jay) "Okay, sounds good" i said standing up with more confidence than i had when i came in. "I'll talk to you later."

(Regina) "Okay, you have a good day Shawn."

(Jay) "Thanks you too." i said just before leaving out the office.

I couldn't have gotten out of there soon enough. I had a lot on my mind, trying to think about what was Shelly's motives. All i knew i needed to get down to the bottom of it. So i decided to cal her....

(PHONE CONVO)

(Shelly) "Well Hello Stranger...." she said answering the phone.

(Jay) "Shelly what are you doing? Didn't i tell you, you and i are to have no contact with each other, what we had is now long over...." i said beginning to snap.

(Shelly) "Shawn slow up and calm down for a sec, geesh and tell me exactly is it what you are talking about."

(Jay) "You know what I'm talking about Shelly, the case, why can't you just let things go."

Then all of a sudden there was a break of silence on the phone.

(Jay) "HELLO!....Shelly....Shelly, you still there?"

(Shelly) "Yea...im still here." she said in a very low sadden tone.

Jay's Thoughts.....As much as i was mad at Shelly, i knew something was wrong. Im not that coldhearted of a person, i mean at one point in time i did have feelings for the chick.

(Jay) "Yo, Shelly are you okay?"

(Shelly) "Yea I'm fine...what makes you ask?" she said lying.

(Jay) "Your voice, i can hear it when you speak...now tell me whats up?"

(Shelly) "It's not that simple Shawn...i mean....im not sure if i even should tell you."

(Jay) "How it's not simple, and what you gotta tell me."

(Shelly) "Look i really can't talk right now..." she said beginning to whisper "But can you meet me by the park around 5."

(Jay) I thought about it for a minute, but then decided what more do i have to lose "Yea i can, see you in hour...." i said then hung up.

I sat and thought to myself all the things that Shelly could possibly have to tell me. 

But i ruled out a lot of things because i was actually naive enough to think that it was something pertaining to my case in which i hope it is because i can't handle anymore stress. I drove around for about 30 mins before finally making it to the park. I spent the rest of my time, walking around the park until she arrived. Right when she pulled up, i had received a text from B asking where i was at. I didn't have time to text back.

I slowly approached Shelly as she made her way out the car, she tried to hug me when she got out but i denied her. It just felt to weird. I sat on the hood of her car as she stood in front of me, staring at me. I knew what ever she was about to say was something very extreme. Since Shelly seemed like she was too scared to talk i figured i would start the conversation off.

(Jay) "Well this is the first?" i began.

(Shelly) "The first for what?" she asked confused.

(Jay) "I never seen in sweats and stuff before, your normally dolled up."

(Shelly) rolls her eyes "Every now and then i tend to break them out, only when i need them."

(Jay) chuckles "Oh okay...i feel you. So whats that?" i asks referring to the wrist band she had on her hand.

(Shelly) "Oh this..." she said pointing at it "I was in the hospital for the past 3 days, they said i was dehydrated."

(Jay) "Oh well I'm sorry to hear that."

(Shelly) "Thank you, but it's fine. I just got released today though actually."

(Jay) "Word."

(Shelly) nodds her had, then it becomes quiet.

(Jay) "So whats up, i thought you said you had to talk to me about something." i said beginning to rush her, as B started calling but i ignored it.

(Shelly) "Oh yea, yea, yea.....right." she began and started fiddling with her keys. She walked over and leaned up against the car right next to me. I watch her movement to see if she was going to try to pull something, but she didn't, she actually seemed scared and shooken up. "Shawn, i don't even know how to tell you this..." she began "...but ima just come right out and say it, I'm pregnant." she said.

The minute those words left from her mouth, my heart sank deep into my chest. All i kept thinking about was B, what she going to say, how was she going to react. I just knew things were gonna be bad for me and B. I paced around on the pavement for a minute trying to gather my thoughts, i didn't want Shelly to seem as if i didn't care but she needed to understand that the only family i'm trying to establish is one with B.

(Jay) "Damn...." i said aloud to myself, but i didn't mean to be disrespectful to Shelly.

(Shelly) "Look i understand if you don't want anything to do with me nor my baby, but i jut thought you should know."

(Jay) "Its' not that Shelly it's just....things between b and I are so good right now, with baby girl arrival slowly approaching, Me and B's engagement.....i'm just not trying to re-destroy something i've worked so hard to rebuild."

(Shelly) "Thats understandable, and i can respect that. And I'm not trying to either. Don't get me wrong, but i regret what happened us...Going through all that i had went through with guys, i couldn't understand how i could allow myself to let that happen."

(Jay) "So how far along are you?" i asked.

(Shelly) "Just only 6 weeks....."

(Jay) "So what do you plan to do?"

(Shelly) "Honestly, i still don't know. There's so much i got going for me right now but at the same time it's my own fault, and my mistake, which make it my responsibility so i have to own up to it."

(Jay) "No, your wrong. It's both of ours. It's takes 2 to tangle. And I'm sorry if i've put you in a position to feel like your in this all alone, but your not. I'll be right here with you with whatever decision you decide."

(Shelly) "And what about Beyoncé, i know she going through enough already as it is."

(Jay) "I'll deal with her, you don't have to worry about anything, okay?"

(Shelly) "Alright."

I gave Shelly a hug to let her know things were going to be alright. After we said our goodbyes, i left and headed straight home to B. She called me 2 more times and sent me a text all on the way home. I rushed home to her, ready to deal with the situation head on. I owe it to B to tell her truth. She deserves honesty, loyalty, and respect. 

I walked into the house and met by B at the front door. She seemed more worried than mad. I slowly made my way in the house, walking right pass her, going to have a seat. She followed behind me, and stood over me, watching me worriedly.

(Bey) "Jay...how did it go? I've been calling and texting you and you weren't responding, i thought they had locked you up or something. Do you have any idea what was going on in my head?" she said yelling, but not at me.

(Jay) "I know B and I'm sorry, i was just taking care of some business thats all."

(Bey) "Jay, whats wrong?" she said hearing the uncertainty in my voice.

(Jay) "Baby you might want to sit down......i got some shit to tell you."

(Bey) starts sitting and becomes even more worried "OMG Jay...how are things looking?" she said still talking about the case.

(Jay) "Baby lets not talk about the case right now...i have to talk to you about some more important."

(Bey) "Like what?" she said changing up her attitude.

(Jay) "Well first off let me say this....you and i are in a very very very good place. We probably are more happier then we have ever been with each other, but i can't continue on with us with out you knowing that....." i said as the words became harder to speak.

(Bey) "Know what?" she said giving me this fearful look.

(Jay) "Shelly's pregnant......"

(Bey) "I thought you said you haven't been seeing her?" she said trying to remain calm.

(Jay) "B i havent, i swear. I went in there to peak with my lawyer and she began giving me a run down about my case and she brought up Kelly and Shelly...and well when she brought up Shell i thought it was strange, so i called her and asked why she was all in my case and what not and thats when i found out she was pregnant."

(Bey) "So let me get this straight, you claim that you have had absolutely no type of contact with this woman, yet she's a part of your case and now she saying she's pregnant. If that aint about the biggest load of shit, i then ever heard." she said beginning to stand, making an attempt to walk away.

(Jay) "B wait!..." i said standing up after her "Look I'm telling you the truth...i wouldnt dare lie to you...EVER. Now i can admit i did some fucked up shit, but i wouldnt lie."

(Bey's POV)

Looking into Jay's eyes, i could tell he was telling the truth. But i can't help but to be mad. Now this bitch will share something with me, that only i was only suppose to have. And that shit sucks. If only i wouldnt have took back the proposal and not went on a break with Jay, then we wouldnt even be in this predicament. 

(Bey) "As much as i hate to admit it, i believe...i guess I'm just so mad because you allowed another woman to have something that was only meant for me and you. And the crazy part about it is that we have no control over that, thats up to god, and now rather she wants to have it or not, now thats up too her."

After hearing B say that, i let out a deep sigh...i was expecting her to be way more upset then this "So what do we do now."

(Bey) "It aint shit we can do...but deal with it. I can't say I'm okay with it, cuz I'm not, but what ever happened between yal is over....atleast now we don't have to worry about Brook having someone to play with."

(Jay) "B, I'm sorry...you know i never meant for anything of this to happen."

(Bey) "Jay i don't think any of us mean for anything to happen, they just happen the way that they do. I mean it's life shit happens."

(Jay) "So what now?"

(Bey) "What you mean what now, tomorrow i'll be giving Shelly a call because i would love to speak with her, but as of right now, I'm calling it a night, you've got me drained with all this info."

(Jay) "Ok, well good night." He said going to kiss me but i denied him by turning the other way. He didn't even bother to try agin, he just left it alone. Nor did i say good night, i just stormed off upstairs, leaving Jay downstairs where he ended up sleeping.

I was so livid. I was trying my hardest to stay calm. It don't make no sense to be mad and angry though, if i know that I'm still gonna be with Jay. I mean i have every right to feel the way i feel, but that defeats the purpose of us working things out. Sometimes i feel i took the situation between Shelly and Jay too calmly, and resolved them to quickly, but thats just the type of person i am. Im not gonna cry over spilled milk, i juts grab something  to clean it up with. And as for Shelly, she and i must have a few words with each other because although she was fucking Jay, and she wants to her and the baby the be apart of Jay's life, she needs to know i aint for the bullshit. And if she's looking to stir up drama and cause trouble then i'll have something for that ass...TRUST.

Chp 43

RE-CAP: Jay finds out his Yai Yai is sick and once again his temper gets the best of him, but after a talk with Bey, Jay is calm. He and Bey goes to visit Yai Yai in NJ. Yai Yai and Bey hit it off well. And aside from the bomb ass sex Bey and Jay had, there time there was great. They’ve also came to an agreement of the name of the baby.

(Chapter Mood Intro)

Jay and Bey are spending time with Jay’s Yai Yai, because she was ill. Being that Jay is going through  a lot with his case. He and Bey are trying to remain stress free for the sake of little Brook. There time in NJ, is the perfect opportunity to do so.

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(Jays POV)

I don’t know whats up with B but since we’ve been in NJ, she’s been being very sexual. Just last night she came strutting out the bathroom, showing off and shit, and before I knew it we were doing all types of sinful things in the mother’s home. Im  pretty sure…No, im 100% sure somebody heard, because they must be death if they didn’t.

Just this morning I was getting out there shower and in walks B forcing me back in. Now I was kinda of sore from last night, being that B practically fucked the life out of me…shit I was still trying to recuperate. She came into the bathroom, with her robe on and the minute she walked up too me she grabbed my sack, and  push me back into the shower, dropping her robe and coming in after me.

Now when she grabbed my sack, I didn’t know how to react, honestly I wasn’t expecting her to come in wanting to have sex. She when she grabbed me I let out a high pitched scream, I kept it G though. But anywho, she had me pinned against the shower wall, kissing on me and grabbing on me. I felt a little violated by the things she was doing. But we had out little time in the shower, then after we started getting for breakfast. You cant ever spend a night with my mom and wake up the next morning without breakfast.

I was sitting on the bed putting my shoes on, I had already finished getting dress. B on the other hand was having trouble because she had been growing so fast with her pregnancy and all, and the clothes she had brought with her were no longer fitting. I found it to be a bit amusing.

(Bey) “Got Dammit….” She said after unfastening yet another pair of pants “This is the third pair of jeans I’ve then tried on and none of them are fitting…” she said in her whining voice. I thought it was cute.

I got up and walked over to B after putting on my shoes to comfort her, I could tell she was becoming frustrated, “Don’t sweat it babe…we’ll just go to the mall and buy some new ones.” I said placing on her head, one of my most famous forehead kisses.

(Bey) “huhhh…ugh” she sighed in frustration “I just tried these things on like a couple days before we left…” she said throwing back into her suitcase.

I walked over by her side, as she searched threw her bag for something she could wear, “Well B, you are growing bigger by the day…it’s not like your getting any smaller.” I said being honest with her.

(Bey) “I know that it’s just…so annoying though.” She said still searching.

(Jay) “I know B…” I said squatting down to help B. I began helping her to search for something to wear. I didn’t like my B, feeling like this. I  was hoping that whatever I was going to pull out would be something fitting.  I pulled out some black, stretchy, elastic, tights looking shit and just judging off how they feel and look I knew they would fit. “Here B…” I said handing them to her “what about these.”

B looked at them and pondered on them for a moment. She knew she had no choice but to wear them. “They’ll do …” she said grabbing them then standing up to put them on “Now I just have to find me a new shirt to wear.”

I couldn’t help but start laughing, B was so just out the box sometimes. She’s not even worried about getting big, she’s just worried about looking cute.

(Bey) “Whats so funny?”

(Jay) “You are…talking about now I just have to find me a shirt.” I said bursting out into laughter again.

I knew B was feeling better when she cracked a smile and started giggling “What…” she began trying to restrain from laughing “…I cant walk around looking like any old ordinary pregnant chick…especially somebody like me, I gotta stay fly. ”

(Jay)  laughing “If only Yai Yai could hear you right now…she would just fall out laughing.”

(Bey) “Oh uh-un…I don’t need Yai Yai to know that side of me…na, she cant meet Sasha.”

(Jay) “Well ima need you tell Sasha, she need to slow up…cuz she killing me.” I said referring to B’s aggressiveness.

(Bey) “Well I’ll tell her over breakfast because uh right now B and baby Brook Brook are hungry.” I said making my way out the door.

(Jay) “When are you not hungry?” I joked.

(Bey’s POV)

We made our way downstairs and you could smell the aroma of the food as we got closer to the kitchen. Gloria was cooking, of course…Annie was setting the table, Eric was out in the dining room, and Yai Yai was siitng off in her chair to the side reading her bible; Mickey was off at work.

(Bey) “Good morning everyone…” I said very cheerful to everyone, speaking for both me and Jay.

(Gloria) “Good morning you too…im glad yal  finally decided to join us.”

(Jay) “B was having trouble with her clothes….” I said going over to kiss my mom “Hey mama.” I said as if I was seeing her for the first time.

(Gloria) “Hey baby ” sbe said too Jay “And oh I remember those days honey, those days are nothing I will ever miss.” She said breaking into laughter.

Jay made his way through the kitchen greeting everyone, trying to make his way to the dining room. I stayed behind in the kitchen with Gloria, and Annie.

(Bey) “Oh it’s nothing to me, I actually cant wait to see how big I’ll be, that’s the crazy thing.”

(Annie) cutting in, she was standing at the refrigerator  getting ready to open it “WHOOO CHIIIIIILD, Jay certainly has his hands full with this one. Aint that right mama.” She joked.

(Gloria) “Its sure is…..this girl said she cant wait until she get big.” She mumbled aloud to herself, but playfully.

(Bey) laughing “That’s cuz im a little weird, but as time go on yal will soon find out.” I said then we all broke out laughing.

After getting a couple laughs in with Gloria and Annie, I made my way into the dining room with Jay and Eric. Jay and Eric were all into the conversation when I walked in. I decided to joke with them for a bit.

(Bey) “What yal talking about?” I said interrupting.

(Eric) “Oh shit, whats up sis….i aint even se you standing right there.”

(Yai Yai) “Now I k now you then lost your mind…” Yai Yai said getting on Eric “As many times as I had to get the switch on you for your little filthy mouth.”

Me, Jay, and Eric couldn’t help but laugh. At that moment we all felt like little kids, and somebody was getting in trouble. “Im sorry Yai Yai…” Eric said.

(Yai Yai) “Mmm-hm…” she said and kept on reading

(Jay) “Ahhh Eric got in trouble….” Jay said teasing him.

(Yai Yai) “Oh don’t make me have to get on you too Skibby.” She said causing me and Eric to laugh.

(Jay) “Sorry Yai…” he said trying not to laugh.

I begin to sit down as I grew tired from standing  “Yai Yai, don’t play.” I whispered to Jay  and Eric, scared to speak a little because I didn’t want to get fussed at.

(Jay) “Hell n-----”

(Yai Yai) “And then you miss thing, gonna come up in here and not even acknowledge Yai Yai….hmp…I tell ya, folks these days.” She sarcastically said to me, shaking her head.

(Bey) “Ohhh im sorry Yai Yai, your right….how are you this morning?”

(Yai Yai) “Im blessed to see another morning…” she began “…How are you?”

(Bey) “Im fine…..just ready to eat.”

(Yai Yai) “Did you sleep good?”

(Bey) “Oh I slept great…..how did you sleep?”

(Yai Yai) “Well I slept well, aside from the strange and unusual noises I was hearing in the middle if the night.”

When Yai Yai said that, I nearly died. I just knew she was talking about Jay and I. I tried my best to keep my composure and keep from laughing. Then in walks Gloria, bringing in the food, along with Annie, catching on to our conversations.

(Gloria) “Strange and unsual? Ha, that was just another night of Bey and Jay. He must not know, these walls can talk.”

OMG, I couldn’t believe all this was really happening right now. I was so embarrassed. My face was super red. I looked over to Jay to see his reaction and this fool gonna block me out from looking at him, over there laughing and shit.

(Annie) looks to Eric “Ohhh somebody about to get it.” They teased.

(Bey) “I told Jay, yal would hear, but he told me to shut up and be quiet.” I said blaming Jay, trying to pay like I was he victim.

(Jay) “Don’t even let her tell yal that…..she was the one who came on to me, and she was so aggressive ma….i was a little scared.” Jay said causing everyone to laugh.

(Gloria) “Yea, yea, yea….i guess yal just aint learn from last time….but it’s okay, yal  will soon learn.” She responded.

(Annie) “Well lets just change the subject before people start going inot to details and I lose my appetite.”

(Jay) “Shut up big head.”

(Annie) “TUMOR LIPS” she shot back.

(Yai Yai) “Yal cut all that foolishness out..it’s too early in the day for all that.”

(Annie) “But we we’re just playing grams….”

(Yai Yai) “How is that playing with yal calling each other names.”

(Gloria) “Ok, ok, ok….can we just eat please…..Thank You.” She said as everyone started preparing themselves to eat. Yai Yai made her way over to the table to bless the food, then after that we all started eating.  The morning was going good, aside for that whole being put on the spot thing. I still cant get over   f course I was done eating before everyone else.

 I had already had 2 plates, but 3^rd one made me full. I was just sitting around engaging on all the conversations that was going on around the table. I was sitting with my hands rested under the table because I had been texting Kelly all morning. We we’re just checking in on each other, seeing how our day was so far, and I had got to telling her about what happened. She was cracking up through text.

After Kelly told me she was going to text me back, I was just sitting at the table with nothing to do. I had one of my hands resting on Jay’s leg, as I laid upon his shoulder. Sitting there I began to think about how Jay tried to thro me under the bus earlier and alli had in my head was payback. Jay was in the middle of eating and talking to his Yai Yai, when I started taking my hand and started caressing Jay from underneath.

When I first started, Jay’s leg jerked super hard to my unexpected touch, causing his knee to smack hard against the table, making everyone stop to see what was going on. Jay played it off and everyone continued on with what they were doing. Jay kept trying to nudge me to stop, and grab my hand, but no matter what, I just wouldn’t. I was dying laughing on the inside. I was trying so hard to hold it in. You could see sweat bullets from Jay’s head start to form, I knew I had him good.

He kept trying give me the evil eye from out the corner of his eye. And I’d just turn away from him everytime he looked at me. Jay was trying so hard to contain his composure, his leg was shaky nonstop, and his foot was tapping on the ground. He kept gripping on the table and jerking. The shit was just too funny.  When I felt Jay about to explode I eased up and stopped. I didn’t  want him messing up his jeans.

By this time, everyone was pretty much done eating. Gloria and Annie were clearing the table. Yai Yai, was still seated, aling with Jay and I, and Eric was off into the living room watching the game. I began to get up leaving Jay their to suffer. It seemed my work was done. Jay gave me the most crucial stare ever, as I walked into the kitchen taunting him.

(Bey) “Would you like some extra helped?” I asked Annie, as she ran the dish water and loaded the dishwasher.

(Annie) “Oh no, me and mama got it. Yoru pregnant, you go sit down honey and just enjoy yourself.”

(Bey) chuckling “Come in An, im pregnant not crippled…” I joked “You sure you don’t need any help.”

(Annie) “Yes B, im sure….no go on out this kitchen an don’t make me have to tell you again.” She said splashing water at me.

(Bey) “Ok, ok….” I said running out of the kitchen.

After that extremely delicious meal, I was due for a nap. Which seems to be all that I just do lately, eat ad sleep. I made my way upstairs and into me and Jay’s room, kicking off my shoes and climbing into bed. This  comforter felt so comfortable. I felt like I was laying on a cloud. I spreaded out amongst the bed, making myself comfortable. After fluffing up the pillows the way I like them to be, and adjusting to covers to suit me, it was all just a matter of time before I was dozing off.

(Jay’s POV)

Thanks to B, I had to spend 30 minutes sitting downstairs at the table by myself, until I was at ease. She think she is real slick for that. If she thinks for one second im gonna let her get away with this, im not. She just started a war that she is not prepared to have.

As I was sitting at the table, I was thinking about so many ways I could get B back. Because if I had too do it, it was gonna have to be something good. I made my way upstairs to where B was. Moms and Annie were off some where, Eric had doze of on the couch, and Yai Yai was sitting out on the porch. I peaked in the room to see what B was up too and to no surprise was she sleeping.

I quietly made my way into the room, making sure I didn’t wake B. She was laying all wild and shit in the bed, with her hand hanging over. That’s exactly how I needed her to be. I pulled from behind me the bowl of warm water I brought up the stairs with me. I gently pulled B’s arm more over off the bed so that it would reach the bowl. I waited in the room for 10 mins to see if she was going to move to make sure that my plan would work. And after the 10 mins was I went downstairs and woke Eric up so he and I could go have a little smoke session. Which meant we had to sneak away from the house.

(Bey’s POV)

After sleeping for nearly 2 hours, I finally awoke. But it wasn’t that I woke up because I was done sleeping, it was just I sensed something was wrong. As I was waking up I felt a bit a warmness underneath me and I was wet. Not wet in the sense of something sexual but wet as if I had peed on myself or something. And that’s exactly what the fuck it was PEE! I crawled out of bed fast as hell And started checking myself to see if I really did just pee on myself. I couldn’t believe that I really did, I was so embarrassed. Like how in the hell can I pee on myself. I started walking around the bed to go into the bathroom, when I stepped in a bowl of water. That’s when I knew…..Jay was behind this.

Before going into the bathroom, I pulled the sheets in the comforter’s off the bed, so that I could go wash them. I was a little embarrass to tell Gloria what happened, but under the circumstances I knew she would understand. After that I went ahead and got into the shower and all refreshed. I threw on some sweat pants and one of Jay’s beater and called it a day.

When I got downstairs I saw that it was just Yai Yai who was only here. I told her the story and she was tickled by it and she helped me to get the bedding and stuff cleaned. Shortly after, Mickey had arrived, and she came in with 3 boys. They we’re probably around 12 or 13. Colleek, Jarrel, and Ramel. They were Annie and Mickey’s boys. I remember Jay telling me about them but I never got a chance to meet them.

Before Jay came back, I got a chance to talk with them and get some insight on Jay. Yea I was being nosy. We chopped it up, had a few laughs, and had a good time. Then I started talking to Mickey about Jay telling her what he did, and she began telling me about all the pranks they use to pull on each other when they were younger. We decided to come up with a plan to get Jay back.

When Gloria and Annie arrived, me and Mickey let them in on our plan. Gloria thought it was funny, what was going on but she didn't want to participate, she said she'd rather sit and watch. After going to buy us some water balloons and water guns, we sat abounding ready and waiting for Jay and Eric to come back. We  had Gloria call and see where they were to pay things off. Only 5  minutes away, me, Annie, and Mickey took our positions. Both Mickey and myself hid on the side of the house with our balloons and guns, while Annie waited on the inside of them front door with a bucket a water, to get them as soon as they tried coming in the house.

The minute they pulled up, we were ready as ever. Gloria and Yai Yai watched from the windows. Eric and Jay got out the car like they normally would and headed up the porch and too the door. The minute we heard a big splash and a loud yell, Mickey and Myself rushed Jay and Eric from the side of the house bombing them with water ballons and squirting them with our guns. They were out numbered and couldn't do anything....So we thought.

Out of nowhere Ramel, Colleek, and Jarrell were running out the house with guns and balloons attacking us, saying "We got your back Uncle Jay." My, My My how the tables have turned. After a brief moment of fun and glory we all stood outside drenched, soaked, and wet.  

(Bey) "Payback's a bitch..." i said teasing Jay as we entered to house, who was completely soaked.

(Jay) "It's okay...my lil dogs had my back..." he said hugging on to Ramel who was walking in right behind us.

(Gloria) "Whew would you look at yal..." she said laughing along with Yai Yai. "See thats exactly why i didn't want to get involved."

(Jay) "Thats messed up ma....how you gonna go against me like that?"

(Gloria) "Hey i didn't have anything to do with it, i just watched." she said teasing Jay.

(Jay) "It's okay, B got whats coming to her...she forgot who she has to go home with."

(Annie) "Oh hush, B aint worried about you."

(Bey) "Right An..." i said as we high fived "Ch...I aint never scared." i said side eyeing Jay and we all broke out laughing.

After joking around for a few moments longer, everyone pretty much sort if went off and got themselves together. After everyone was dry, dressed, and ready, we all gathered around the dinner table for some good ol sloppy joes and home made potato skins Gloria made. I was completely loving my time here, i didn't want to leave, but i knew soon i would have to face the reality of things. I love being around Jay's family, they are so warm feeling and welcoming. I also always have a good time whenever they're around. It made me think of the times when Jay isn't around.