Chp 31 Where it all Began

RE-CAP: Bey and Jay had a threesome with Sanaa. Sanaa wants to meet with Jay and Bey wants to meet with Sanaa.


(Chp Mood Introduction)
Since the whole threesome thing, i've been feeling really strange and uneasy about things. I know Jay and I talked about it but i still can't get past it. Thats my problem now, i can't let go of shit. I made a call to Sanaa telling her i want to meet up with her and discuss the issue. I also want to let her know that there are no hard feelings between us. I mean we were all drunk and what ever happened, happened. And I'm just going to have to accept it.

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I was just getting out the shower, and when i did i noticed Jay wasn't there. I called out to him and even called his cell, but there was no response. He must have went off to the studio or something. I didn't want to jump to any conclusions just yet. After lotioning and putting on my clothes, i went downstairs and met Solo in the kitchen. I was enjoying the few days that i had off since i was going to be leaving for the next 3 months anyway. But its all good though because once this is over, Jay and I will have more time together.

After giving Solo her morning greeting,i went into the fridge and i pulled out some orange juice and began to set the table while she was cooking. We haven't had a sit down breakfast in a while. Everyone is normally busy doing their thing. Although Jay was gone, i knew he would be coming home soon, hopefully by the time Solo is done cooking. It's odd though, because it's normally not like Jay to up and leave with out letting me know.

After setting the table, i set on one of the bar stools at the counter and watched Solo as she cooked. She was hooking it up, Omelets, Hash browns, Pancakes, and Sausages. I don't know why, but the skill to cook must have skipped over me and went straight to Solo.

(Bey) starts laughing.

(Solo) looks up at Bey "What you laughing about?"

(Bey) "Nothing.....Im just tryna figure out, why is it that my 16 year old sister can cook, but i can't." giggles "That aint right."

(Solo) "Thats cuz your ass was always off doing pageants, and photo shoots, and what not."

(Bey) "Well it all paid off didn't it?" i playfully said.

(Solo) laughs "Hell yea." she said turning off the stove. "Where's Jay?"

(Bey) "I don't know, he was gone when i got out the shower....maybe he went to the studio or Ye house, or maybe even back to his place."

(Solo) "Yea, probably.....he's normally doesn't do much when he's not working......well yea know."

(Bey) laughs  "Yea but i'm pretty sure, he will coming back in a minute."

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***(MEANWHILE WITH JAY)

I was skeptical about meeting with Sanaa because i wasn't sure what her intentions were and what tip she might be on. But I atleast have to go and find out, i mean it's only right considering all that happened. 

I was suppose to be meeting her at a little coffee spot on 44th. I was already 15 minutes past the time that i was suppose to be meeting with her. Man NY traffic is ridiculous. It wasn't long though until i was pulling into the parking lot of the Coffee Corner. It was a nice little low key spot, near the center of NYC. I didn't want to have to deal with the press and their misleading stories. I had on a hat with some shades to sort of disguise myself. As I was walking up to the door, I saw Sanaa coming down the street, walking up the at the same time as me. Maybe i wasn't running late, i thought.

She had this cute little top on, that pumped up her breast, and a tight fitting skirt that showed off her figure. I couldn't help but look. She was walking and smiling as the breeze from the wind, blew through her hair. Good lord why do this girl have to be so fine.

Since i was walking ahead, i proceeded on to open the door, i mean i am a gentlemen.

(Jay) "Hey there......good morning." i said standing there holding open the door.

(Sanna) "Hey, good morning, and thank you." she said as she walked in past me.

There was an awkward silence as we stood and waited for the host. Sanaa was standing there looking all around, as if she was examining the place. I stole little glances from her, when she didn't make eye contact with me.

(Host) walking up "Would you like a table for 2."

(Jay) "Yes please....and can we get a booth, preferably one by the window."

(Host) "That shouldn't be a problem" she said as she grabbed some menu's from behind her stand "Right this way."

We followed behind her as we made our way to our seat. I waited for Sanaa to sit first, out of good manner. When she sat and scooted along in the booth, her breast bounced with every movement. I turned and looked away, trying to resist making googlely eyes at her. Once she was fully seated, i set down.

(Host) "Here are your menu's" she said handing them to us "And in just a few minutes a waiter will be right with you."

(Jay) "Ok, thanks."

(Sanaa) "Thank you."

Sanaa and I set and looked over our menu's until the waiter came and took our orders. I ordered me a stuffed breakfast croissant with a french vanilla cappuccino and she order the breakfast omelet with a Honeynut cappuccino. After the waiter left from taking our order's and our menu's i decided i would be the first to talk.

(Jay) "You look very nice this morning...." i said taking a sip of the water, the waiter brung for us.

(Sanaa) smiling "Thank you, and you don't look so bad yourself." she joked.

(Jay) "Hahaha, girl what you talking about, i look damn good." i joked back.

(Sanaa) giggles "If you say so...." she teased.

I figured I lightened the mood enough, with getting her laughing and feeling comfortable, now it was time to get down to the point.

(Jay) "So what's up Sanaa, what you wanted to talk to me about."

(Sanaa) "OH right......yea, well" she started off, she seemed a little tensed and nervous "I wanted to talk to you about the other night.....I just want to apologize."

(Jay) "You don't have to apologize, look what ever happened, happened. We all had a bit too much too drink and got caught up in the moment."

(Sanaa) "Yea your right, but i didn't want to cause any problems for you and Bey. She seemed pretty upset yesterday."

(Jay) "Well she was at first, but she's not tripping over it. And no you didn't cause any problems....everything was all taken care of."

(Sanaa) takes a deeps sigh "Good, because i really been feeling bad."

(Jay) "Oh no need, it's all good."

(Sanaa) "Thats good to hear. Well now that thats all out the way...i would now like to discuss some business with you."

(Jay) "Business? I like the sound of this."

(Sanaa) laughs "Yes business....."

Just as i was about to speak the waiter came over with our things. After getting situated, i began speaking again.

(Jay) "So what type of business are we talking?" i asked eager to know.

(Sanaa) "Well i have a niece, she about 16/17......the thing is she sings and is looking to get signed. And i hear about you producing people all the time, so i was wondering if you could check her out."

(Jay) starts rubbing his chin "Hmm i don't know, i mean i have my plate full already, with a couple of new artist i been looking at, touring, closing deals, i mean i----"

(Sanaa) "Oh no....i completely understand." she said, with a disappointed look on hers face.

I don't know what it was about Sanaa, but seeing the look of disappointment on her face made me feel some type of way. I kind of had a change of heart.

(Jay) "Okay look, if you can bring her to the studio tomorrow, sometime during the day i'll check her out."

(Sanaa) getting all excited "Well I have a cast meeting tomorrow from 12-3, i actually have to be at one after this......but i can bring her after."

(Jay) "Ok thats fine, i'll be sure to let you know the address and everything."

(Sanaa) "Okay. And thank you so much again Shawn, this is really going to mean a lot to her." she said reaching out across the table to touch my hand since she couldn't hug me.

(Jay) "No prob...Now lets get started on this here food before it gets cold."

(Sanaa) chuckles "Yea lets.....im not one for cold food." she joked.

(Jay and Sanaa) laugh together.

Sanaa and I went on the have a good breakfast. She was such a sweet, beautiful girl, with a hell of a personalty. Her smile was so refreshing. But nothing like Bey's though. Bey's smile could brighten up my whole day. And Bey brought out a side of me, i didn't even knew i had. But both of them shared something in common, which was me being attracted to the both of them. And after that night with Sanaa and Bey, flashbacks of moments between me and Sanaa popped in my head as she set across from me. I tried my hardest to shake my thoughts, but i just couldn't.

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***(MEANWHILE BACK WITH BEY)

Solo and I had just finished eating and there was still no sign of Jay. It was now going on 11:30 and he still wasn't returning any of my calls or text. I went into the kitchen and started on the dishes as Solo cleared off the table. And just as i was finishing up with them Jay came strolling through the door.

(Jay) "Hey Solo...." i heard him say to her. 

(Solo) "Whats up bro." she said back.

(Jay) "Where's your sister?" he started off saying as he walked into the kitchen, then saw me at the sink "Oh never mind Lo.......whats up B?" he said as he walked over and kissed me on the cheek.

(Bey) "Whats up bab---" starts sniffing around "Eww Jay you smell straight like coffee."

Jay was standing behind Bey, holding her from the back, with his chin rested on her shoulder. She was drying off the last of the dishes. Solo had came in, with what ever was left in the dinning room, then left back out to her room.

(Jay) chuckles "Well i was at the coffee corner."

(Bey) "The coffee corner?" i asked turning back to look at Jay "What were you doing all the way over there?"

(Jay) lets go of Bey and backs into thee counter "I had met up with Sinaa...she---"

(Bey) "Sinaa? What did you have to see her so early in the morning for?" i ask becoming curious and taking defense.

I had no idea Jay was even meeting up with her. I know i wanted to meet up, but why did he? I became suspicious.....yet i didn't want to make assumptions. I was thinking in my head how i was going to play this out. I also began thinking, how in the hell was i suppose meet with this girl after she met with Jay.  Once again my emotions were raging all over the place.

(Jay) "Relax, she was just telling me about a niece she has who sings and wanted me to check her out."

(Bey) folds her arms and rolls her eyes "And thats all?" i asked with a slight attitude.

(Jay) "I mean we talked a little about the other night....but that was about it."

(Bey) "What about the other night?" i asked very sternly. My eyebrow started raising, thats how i knew i was getting serious.

(Jay) startes getting irritated "Yo, whats with all the questions?"

(Bey) "Why can't you just answer them?"

(Jay)"For what, what are you even trying to get at?" he started raising his voice.

I didn't understand why Jay didn't just answer the questions and why he was getting upset. If any one should be upset then it she be me. This made me even more skeptical of the situation.

(Bey) "Why are you yelling?"

(Jay) "Because you starting to get on my nerves with all these questions."

(Bey) "Oh I'm getting on your nerves, but your the one thats going out meeting with bitches behind my back." i said throwing the dish back into the sink. 

(Jay) turns away from Bey.

(Bey) "Huh, i can't hear you."

(Jay) "Aye man, whats your deal?" he said still yelling.

(Bey) starts calming down "Nothing....." i lied. 

(Bey's thoughts)
I didn't want Jay to know, i was having mixed feelings about Sinaa, cuz then he's gonna start assuming I'm jealous and i don't have time. And i don't want to start making assumptions either nor accuse him of anything he's not doing. But i cant help it because since the whole threesome experience, i've been really paranoid. And Jay's history with girls, is leading me to this. Not to mention having to deal with it for 10 years with Tony. I don't want to blow things out of proportion, because i would hate to push Jay into that direction, then it will be my fault. I also believe deep down, Jay would never do such a thing. I just gotta stop over thinking things and bringing the past into my future.

(Jay) "Whats up with you man?" he asked in a more comforting tone, i guess he could see all the emotion i was harboring in my face.

(Bey) "Nothing...." i said as i whipped away tear falling from my eye. "...I guess I'm just getting stressed about you leaving again thats all and I'm taking my frustration out on you."

(Jay) pulls Bey in and hugs her "I know, it's hard on me too. But we gonna get through it, okay?......now don't cry." he said as he whipped away more tears that fell from Bey's eyes. 

(Bey) "But how Jay" i said beginning to cry more "....I don't think i could ever get use to this."

(Jay) backs away from Bey "Well thats something i wanna talk to you about?...Come on let's sit down."

We both set down at the table in the kitchen, and Jay started talking. I pulled back my tears and whipped my face, as i listened to him.

(Jay) "I'm been thinking about taking a breath from recording for a while or maybe even retire after this tour."

(Bey) "Retire? But why, when did you decide this?"

(Jay) "Well i been thinking about it for a while, i got so much other things to fall back on. But what i really want to focus more on is producing and on top of it all i wanna have more time for us together."

As much as i was excited about hearing Jay say he was thinking about taking a break, i still wanted to let him know i was supportive. He loves what he do, i just didn't understand it.

(Bey) "But Jay, you love recording. I mean are you sure?"

(Jay) "Yea.....im sure. I feel these past few months have been great between us, and i wanna work more on the months we have yet to come."

(Bey) jumps up and rushes over to Jay "Oh baby" i said kissing him ".....thats sounds great. I think thats a good idea." as said as i sat on his lap.

(Jay) "I knew you would love it. But for real Bey, I'm just saying......i could see myself with you for the long run."

I got excited like a little kid on christmas when Jay said that he could see his self in the long run with me. Us married?! It seems perfect to me. But was i ready to commit just yet. I mean i love Jay and i do one day want to marry him, but 6 months ago, i just got out of an engagement. I want to be sure this time around that it's really going to work. But that'll be something we have to discuss on another time.

(Bey) "Aww Jay, you really mean that?"

(Jay) "Yup, i sure do." he said as he kissed me.

Once again Jay had me going from mad to me wanting him. I positioned myself on top of Jay while he was in the chair and kissed him passionately. His big, strong hands, gripped my back as we began to get lost in the moment. I began grinding up against Jay, letting him know how bad i wanted it. Although i was still a bit in pain from the other day, i was not gonna let that stop me from getting mines. I was ready to give it to Jay right here in the kitchen.

(Jay) breaks the kiss "Bey, we can't....atleast not right here...Solo's going to come down and catch us again."

(Bey) still kissing on Jay "Mmm, your right....." i said still going at it ".....But i don't want to stop."

(Jay) starts kissing on Bey again "Me either....but i don't want to get interrupted either."

(Bey) breaks away from Jay "Ugh, alright......lets just go upstairs."

Jay carried me upstairs, with my legs rapped around him. I was surprised he managed to carry me the whole way with out dropping me, being that we ran into and knocked over everything that was in our way from making out the whole time. When we got to the bedroom, we waisted no time. Jay threw me onto the bed, and dove in with out no hesitation. From there we spent the next couple of hours, making sweet love to each other. And poor Solo, had to experience again.

Jay and I both dosed off, once we were done. I was the first to wake up. I slid out of bed and made my way into the bathroom, where i used the bathroom and got into the shower. Although i took my shower earlier, i had to get the stinch of hot sex off of me. When i got out Jay was still asleep on the bed. My phone starting vibrating and going off. I went over to check it and it was a text message from Sanaa, asking if i could meet her on Chalmers, Congress at the strip mall. I agreed, it was only 10 minutes away and i was anxious to speak with her. I debated on what to wear, but i knew i wanted to look cute. For some reason I felt like going to go meet Sanaa, was like going to meet one of Jay's other woman. It was crazy because this was somebody i considered my friend, whom i was feeling this way about. 

I threw on a nice black dress, with some cute ass shoes, touched up my make up and my hair. And headed out. Before leaving i checked to see of Solo wanted to come with me but she had fallen asleep too. I arrived to the strip mall and got out. I spotted Sanaa and a young girl who was with her coming out of one of the stores, so i made my way over to them.

(Bey) "Hey ladies....." i said as i walked up.

(Sanaa) turning around "Oh hey Bey....you look nice?" she said as she reached out to hug me. "Oh This is my niece Karina." she did not, in no way seemed tensed or nervous as i did.

(Bey) "Thank you.....and so do you....and Hi there cutie." i said looking at the young girl.

(Sanaa) "Thanks."

(Karina) "Omg.....HIIIIIIIIII." she said all excited. "Auntie Ny, you didn't tell me that you were friends with Beyonce."

(Bey) chuckles

(Sanaa) laughs "Well thats because you never asked....." looking at Bey "....She's a huge fan."

(Bey) "Oh are you now?"

(Karina) giggling "Yes, i just love you. I love your spread you did with Vogue, i have that framed on my wall. And also I can't wait for your album to drop, I'm so excited. Your voice is amazing."

(Bey) "Aw thank you, you are so sweet." i said smiling.

(Sanaa) "Karina.....you can go ahead and go into Dolce, me and Bey are going to chill out here....i'll catch up with you in a minute."

(Karina) "Okay....it's was nice meeting you Beyonce."

(Bey) smiles "You too sweety." i said as hugged her.

After Karina walked away, Sanaa and I made our way to the center of the strip where they had chairs and a eating area. But i was still full from earlier, so i wasn't in the mood to eat. I examined Sanaa as we walked over to sit down. She was looking a bit too pretty in her short skirt, and tight shirt. I wonder if this is what she wore when she saw Jay this morning. But i wasn't even going to trip. I knew i looked better.

(Sanaa) "Well first let me start off by apologizing about the other night....." she said "just so i can get that out the way."

(Bey) "All is forgiven, i just wanted to meet with you and see where your head was....i didn't want any hard feelings between us."

(Sanaa) "Oh me either....I was just telling Jay earlier about how i didn't want to start anything drama or mess between the 2 of you. That whole situation was awkward."

It threw me off, she was speaking about Jay as if i shouldn't be mad that they spoke. How did she know rather or not he told me that they met up. 

(Bey) laughs "Girl tell me about it." i said playing it off.

(Sanaa) "So where cool." she said extending out her arms.

(Bey) hugging Sanaa "Yea we're cool."

(Sanaa) "Great, because if Jay signs Karina...she'll have you around to coach her and look up too. And I'm glad, because i really respect what you do."

(Bey) smiles "Aw thank you....and I'll be looking forward to it."

For a minute there was an awkward silence, but i decided i was going to take advantage of the opportunity and get some information out of her.

(Bey) "So what brings you to NY?"

(Sanaa) "Well I'm originally from NYC, but I'm back getting ready to shoot a movie here, called Brown Sugar, and i brought Karina here so she can get started with her music."

(Bey) "Oh okay, thats good...."

(Sanaa) "Yea, her mom died from drug over dose, when she was 5, and her dad walked out before she was born, so i've been taking care of her ever since."

(Bey) "Wow, well thats sad to here, but good for you. Atleast now she has somebody."

I was shocked to hear that, because looking at her you would have sworn she had the perfect little life. But her gracefulness is the reason that girl remains smiling and happy. After hearing this, it was hard for me to be resentful towards her, when all she was showing me was that she was a good person. She didn't have to tell me that but she did. I don't know, maybe i was letting my emotions, get the best of me. But Sanaa seemed like nothing to worry about.

(Sanaa) "Yea, i live to make her happy." she said smiling.

(Bey) "And how does your boyfriend or whomever, feel about her."

(Sanaa) "Im actually separated, i've been for 2 years now."

(Bey) "What? Thats a long time, how long were you married?"

(Sanaa) "5 years, until we separated."

(Bey) "If you don't mind me asking, what made you guys separate."

(Sanaa) "A lot of things, him, me, money, distance....need i go on." she joked.

(Bey) "Aw I'm sorry, i hope you guys are able to work it out."

(Sanaa) "Well, it is what it is." she said in a very low tone. 

(Karina) "Auntie Ny....can you come here for a second, i wanna show you something." she yelled from out the doorway of the store.

(Sanaa) "Okay ill be right there...." she yelled back "....Hey I'm gonna go see what she wants" she turned and said to me "Im glad we were able to talk though." she said as she got up.

(Bey) starts standing up "Oh go ahead, i need to be getting back anyway. And yea me too."

(Sanaa) "So i'll see you later?" she said as she hugged me goodbye.

(Bey) hugging her back "Yea, sure."

(Sanaa) "Alright."

(Bey) "Okay, bye." i waved as i walked off.

As much as i wanted to have something to hold against Sanaa, deep down i just couldn't. I mean it was just my own insecurity that was getting the best of me. Like Jay said, what ever happened, happened. And besides Sanaa and i were friends before and we never had any problems, so there's no need for me to get all worked up.

After getting in the car, i checked my phone and i had a missed text from Jay and a missed call from my mom. I decided to text Jay back before i called my mom.

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***(TEXT CONVO)

Text from Jay:   Where did you go?

Text to Jay:   To the mall.

Text from Jay:   When are you coming back?

Text to Jay:   Im on my way now.

Text from Jay:   Okay, well can you bring me something to eat back I'm starving, you made a nigga work up and appetite. 

Text to Jay:   lol, sure what do you want?

Text from Jay:   Hmm, idk. Something i aint have in a while. 

Text to Jay:   Chinese?

Text from Jay:   Yea, that would do and make sure you get an extra egg roll.

Text to Jay:   Okay, got you fatty. See you in a minute.

Text from Jay: lol, Alright.

I felt a little bad about not telling Jay about Sanaa, it's not like i was lying about where i was, just what i was doing. I don't want him to think I'm sneaking around behind his back, cuz thats not it. I just needed to know what her intentions were.

Well after texting Jay, i decided i would give my mom a call. It's been a while since i last spoke with her and i miss her a lot. But right when i called her Tony started calling, which dropped my mom's call. When i answered, his voice was all shaken and he sounded like he has been crying. When asking him what was wrong, my heart immediately sank in my chest when i heard his response saying his father had died.




PART TWO

After that distraught phone call from Tony, i just had to go see him. I rushed over to his place, forgetting all about Jay. Tony had nobody, and he could really use a friend. I went to the front desk of Tony's apartment and got his room number and a key.  And also because i didnt have my phone to call him. I told the clerk i was his girlfriend. I had never been up to Tony's apartment, just to the building a few times. 

When i got up there, his door was cracked opened. I called out his name as i pushed opened the door, I dropped my purse, as well as the keys, and my body became froze when i saw him standing there with a gun in his hand. I had no idea what he was going to do, i had not idea what to think, all i knew Tony had cracked. I aint never see him like this.

He just stared back at me with so much aggression in his eyes. I was so scared and shocked that my body started to go numb. I felt i was going to pass out. My heart pounded tremendously....and time just seemed to slow down as the seconds passed. I slowly raised my hand and placed it over my heart, as i began to speak.

(Bey) "T..T...T...Tony..." i started off, my voice had become shaky. I cleared my throat and began again. "Tony.....what are you doing?"

He just sat there staring back at me, not even flinching, blinking, or making a sound. 

(Bey) "Antonino" i softly said as i spoke again, this time he answered back.

(Tony) "It's all over Bey.......it's all over." he said in a strong whimpering tone.

(Bey) "What's all over?" i asked, trying to keep him talking.

(Tony) "I managed to fuck up everything in my life, starting with you, my dad, my aunt Shiryl's.....I have no reason left to live."

When he said that, it became clear, what was about to happen.

(Bey) "Tony don't say that..." i said slowly taking a step towards him. It seem trying to balance in 6 inch heels at the moment, was the hardest thing to do for me. "...You have every right to live." still walking towards him.

(Tony) "No i don't..." he started to yell, causing me to jump a little "...EVERYTHING I EVER HAD GOOD IN MY LIFE, I MANAGED TO LOSE OR TAKE FOR GRANITE. You know what, I'm just gonna do it." he said raising the gun up to his head.

I stop did in my tracks, the minute i saw that gun leave his side. I was sure as hell, he shot me. I opened my eye, from when i had closed them. I was just a couple feet from Tony, but it seemed we were nearly face to face. I took a deep swallow and said a brief prayer. Then i stood straight up and stuck out my hand.

(Bey) "Tony give me the gun...." i slowly spoke.

(Tony) "No Bey....it's over."

(Bey) i took in another step moving closer towards Tony "Tony, please...." i begged "just give me the gun."

Tony slowly released his hand from the trigger....I knew i had him, so i kept going.

(Bey) "Think about your mom, think about Ilene, you know she would not want you to go out like this."

Ilene was Tony's mom. She died when he was in middle in a car crash. But he had such a close relationship with her. And if it's anything i learned from studying psychology back when i was in school, and thats how to read people. When a person is at the breaking point, you have to hit them deep within their roots to bring them back. And with Tony i knew exactly what that was which was his mom.

I watched as Tony slowly dropped the gun from his head. And when he did i hit the safety switch, and threw it by the door. Tony dropped to the floor, weak in his knees, and as did i from trying to catch him. He cried out in my arms, about how much he missed his mother and how he wish she could be there. I never felt more connected to Tony then never before. If he would have shown more moment like this, moments that were as real, sincere, and as genuine as this then maybe we might have still been together.

I stayed their with Tony for the rest of the night. I couldn't have just left him there after everything that just happened. Lord knows what he would have done after i left. He didn't have any trustworthy enough i could have called. And i didn't want to call the police because he probably would have ended up in an institution, and he didn't deserve to be in there. 

Tony and i stayed out in the living room the rest of the night until we fell asleep. The next morning when i awoke, i stayed there and talked to Tony until i was for sure he was good enough where i could leave him by hisself. And when i was sure enough, i left telling him i was going to come back by to check on him, because even still i can't risk anything. 

There was no surprise that when i checked my phone, i had a lot of missed calls, vm's, and texts. All of them consisted of work, My mom, Jay, Kelly, and Solo. I didnt have time to call anyone because my battery was low. That drive home, seemed like the longest drive ever. My thoughts were weighing heavy and how i was feeling i didn't have time for any more bullshit.

When i got home, i was happy to find out i was the only one their. I knew Jay was gonna have something to say about me being gone for that amount of time and i didn't need that headache. I placed my phone on there charger and went straight to the bar and pour me up a glass of hennessy black, and lit me a cigar. I was in desperate need of them both. I walked outside onto the patio, the catch a breeze a fresh air. I spent the rest of my morning drinking, smoking, and getting myself together. Trying to gather my thoughts, and figure out how i was going to deal with Tony and how situation as well as mines. I was not looking forward to facing Jay at the moment.



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