Chp 20 Where It All Began

The next day Shawn and I spent our whole day on the yacht. He sly self already had some bags packed prior too, just for this occasion. I was enjoying every moment of it. I love the water. It was so calming and peaceful. And with Shawn by my side, i knew i would have nothing but a great time. When i awoke he had I might Shawn out on the deck smoking a cigar. He had breakfast laid out on the table. Then minute i walked out i started smiling from the sight of Shawn. He was so damn handsome and charming standing over the puffing on his cigar like he was a boss. That guy has so much charisma, he just blows me away every time i see him. I walked over kissing him, then sat at the table to eat.


(Shawn) "How'd you sleep?" he said turning around to face me. He was standing at the wall, looking over.


(Bey) "I slept great." i said with a smile. "What about you?"


(Shawn) "Thats good and I slept pretty good." he said taking puff out of his gar.


I begin to dive into the food. Everything looked so delicious. I couldnt wait to to eat. I have an appetite of an obese woman. I started feasting away. The food was so good, that i started humming and shaking me leg. You know how you are eating something that is just so good you feel the need to do whatever comes to mind, well i started humming and rocking my leg. I was paying no attention to myself until i saw Shawn standing over there laughing to himself. Then i caught on.


(Bey) giggling from embarrassment "What?" i said as he stared at me smirking "This food is just really good."


(Shawn) "Yea i hear ya" he said still smirking at me.


(Bey) "Your not gonna come eat?" i asked quickly changing the subject to get his attention off my off guard moment.


(Shawn) "Na, im good." he said turning back around to look off into the water.


I took a few more bites out of my food, took a sip of my juice to swallow it down and went over and stood next to Shawn. When i walked over he put his arm around my shoulder and we both stood there just staring off into the ocean.

The view was so beautiful. And being here on this yacht with Shawn was even more beautiful. It was something about this moment that really moved me because out of nowhere i just started singing, but not loud singing in was more in a light whisper. Shawn peeked down at me while i was singing but i was just so into the moment that i didn't notice him looking at me.


(Shawn) "I love hearing you sing. Your voice in general is like music to my ears."


(Bey) blushing "Thank you." i said smiling.


(Shawn) "You should really think about getting in the studio though." he said taking a puff out of his gar.


(Bey) "I've actually been considering it, i just don't know why I'm so hesitant."


(Shawn) "I don't know why either. I mean you practically have the opportunity right here in front of you, i don't think you should waste anymore time."


(Bey) "It's that easy huh?"


(Shawn) "Well when your working with me is most surely is." he said all with confidence.


(Bey) "I mean I'm not even sure want i would want to sing about, what kind of artist i want to be labeled as, i me--"


(Shawn) takes a puff "You just got to stop over thinking it. It'll come natural..." takes a pause it starts to think "It's like this, when your rapping or your singing, well i know for me i just go with my emotions and how it is I'm feeling and lay it down on a track."


(Bey) "Ta, i got a lot of emotions i've been feeling." i said in a relatable since "I just go so much I'm holding in, that i just want to get out. I usually do so in my writing."


(Shawn) "You write?"


(Bey) "uhm-hm, ever since i was a teen. Kelly, Michelle, and I use to have us a group back in the day and i use to write for us. But we eventually grew up and went on our separate paths."


(Shawn) has a thinking look on his face "Hmmm, so have you ever considered turning what you write about into songs."


(Bey) "All the time."


(Shawn) "So how about we do that then, you could take what you write about and how you are feeling and incorporate that into some songs."


(Bey) starts to think "You know that actually sounds like a good idea."


(Shawn) "Remember that instrumental i played for you a while ago?"


(Bey) "Yea, what about it?"


(Shawn) "Well i've been writing too it, but i never mentioned it because i wanted to surprise you, but i was thinking that you should maybe, well if you like record that."


(Bey) "Absolutely." i said enthusiastically .


(Shawn) "Great, well i'll time when we get back so whenever you feel like getting into the studio, you already know." he said taking another puff.


I was smiling from excitement. I was eager to get back and begin recording.


(Bey) hugging Shawn "Jay, i dont even know what to say right now, I'm just so excited."


(Shawn) smiling "I love that your starting to call me Jay" he said chuckling "especially the way you say it, you have the cutest little accent."


(Bey) I began to giggle "You have to stop showering me with compliments, you see how you be having me blush." i said flatteringly.


(Shawn) "What i can't help it, I'm only speaking the truth."


(Bey's thoughts)
I wasn't use to be so cared about. I mean i knew Tony loved me and I knew he cared about me, but the way Shawn shows it is so much more meaningful. Tony complimented me only when he was trying to make up for something or if he was trying to get something. Which was also the only times he ever did things for me unless it was a special occasion. But with Shawn he does it because he wants to. It's very easy to pull Tony apart from Shawn because Shawn is a full representation of a man. Tony is not. Shawn knows what he wants, he determined, he's successful, he's graceful, he's caring, he's charming, he's independent, and I could go on all day. Shawn is showing me a whole other life, a life that's fulfilling. He's showing me all the things that i've longed for and all the things that i need. And on top of all things he's helping me to grow not only as a person but as a woman.


Tony and i stood there looking out into the water until something caught my attention. There were people jet skiing, watering surfing, and being pulled by boats on large floats. I was so fascinated by it because i had never tried it before and i've always wanted to. I tapped Shawn and pointed out into the water, towards the direction of where i was looking not knowing if he was looking at it as well.


(Bey) "Look at how much fun that looks."


(Shawn) "Yes that does look pretty fun, you wanna try it." he said as he looked at me.


(Bey) "Heck yea" i said sounding like a little kick.


(Shawn) chuckling "Alright, you go inside and get freshened up and i'll have everything set by the time your finished."


(Bey) "Well aren't you gonna try?"


(Shawn) "Na, i think ima sit this one out."


(Bey) "And why?" i asked a little disappointed.


(Shawn) "Jet skiing and water surfing.....uuuhhhhh, thats not really my thing."


(Bey) "Well thats sucks, i was hoping you would at least do it with me." i said starting to sound like a whining kid.


(Shawn) grabbing Bey and hugs her by the waist "I know Ma, but you'll enjoy it more than i would" he said placing kisses on my face "You go ahead and have some fun, alright."


(Bey) *sighs* "Well okay, i guess i'll just have double fun for the both of us then." i joked.


(Shawn) "Thats the spirit" he joked back "Now you go ahead and go get ready and i'll be right out here when you get out."


(Bey) kisses Shawn "Okay" i said then walked away to go get ready.


***(Shawn's POV)
I went to go talk to Julius about seeing if we could get involved in the water activities. He went to go talk to the guy about it and luckily they said yea. I was hoping they would because i know how much Bey really wanted to try it. I love that about her, she's so adventurous. She willing try anything and do anything. She's a risk taker and she's willing to take chances. She's a fighter, she willing to conquer what ever. She's also very appreciative, caring, loving and free spirited. She's focused, hard working, and very independent. Her style matches mine, as far as being a the right fit for each other. I can't say for sure that her and i could go long term, but i have no reason to believe that we can't. She's the type of woman to make a man change his ways. Im glad to have her in my life.


RING. RING. RING. It was Ye.


.............(Phone Convo)


(Shawn) "What up bro?"


(Ye) "Shit nothing about to catch this flight, what you up too man?"


(Shawn) "Not much, just out on the water with Bey and shit chilling."


(Ye) "Oh okay, well i aint nothing. I was just seeing what yal up too? Did yal talk to Kell yet?"


(Shawn) "Now Bey is planning on surprising, we suppose to meet up with her if not tonight, then tomorrow."


(Ye) "Oh alright, cool. Well i should be there probably like 4 or 5."


(Shawn) "Alright then bet, just hit me up when you touch down."


(Ye) "Alright man, i holla at you later." he hangs up.


As i was getting off the phone, i seen the people bringing over the stuff. They were right on time because   Bey was walking back out into the deck. Gosh she was looking right.

(Bey) "Okay I'm ready for some jet skiing" she said as she walked closer to me.


(Shawn) grabbing on to Bey "Oh yea, you ready for some jet skiing" i asked playfully.


(Bey) "Yea, don't i look ready?" she said all flaunting her body off.


Damn it was hard trying to maintain my composer.


(Shawn) pulling Bey down his lap "You in this bikini got me wanting to do some things to you man i swear, we might have to take a rain check on this jet skiing."


(Bey) "Uh-un, your just gonna have to keep it together and wait until I'm finished water skiing, you act like a few minutes of fun is going to kill you."


(Shawn) "It just might" i said in a dramatic but playful manner "feel my heart" i said taking Bey's hands and placing them on my chest "sees look, my heart rate is slowing down."


(Bey) letting out a laugh "I don't know what I'm gonna do with you." she said shaking her head all amused.


(Shawn) "Well i could tell you a few" i said rubbing my hands up her thighs.


(Bey) "You better stop before you get something started." she teased.


(Shawn) "Maybe thats what I'm trying to do." he said now beginning to grip her on her thighs.


(Bey) giggling "Sha--"


(Julius) walking out on the deck "Hey Bey and Jay, it's all set up."


We both peeked over the wall and saw that they were stationed right aside our both.


(Bey) "Yes, saved by Julius." she said getting up all fast.


(Shawn) pulls Bey back by her hand "Oh don't think this is over, we'll be picking up right where we left off once you are done."


(Bey) rolls her eyes and cracks a smile "What ever say POP POP" she said as she winked at me and walked away.


I just stayed behind and watched from over the top.

***(Bey's POV)

I love teasing Shawn because it makes him want it more. And the more i make him want it the better he delivers. It's like his ass gets turned all the way or something, but i loooooooove it. As i walked downstairs my adrenaline was starting to rush. The excitement built up as I got closer and closer to actually riding on a jet ski. I waited for the guys to pull up and when they did they handed me a life vest and started going over the what to do's and what not to do's, but i wasn't paying any attention. I just kept thinking about how bad i couldn't wait to ride it.

The minute i got on their i couldn't stop smiling, i was ready to go. Once i found out what the gas ignition was, i took off. I was zooming fast across those waters. But smacking down on those aves were no joke. My thighs and my butt were hurting from bouncing up and down on it so many times. I rode all the way out to the big floaty thing so that i could rest up. I also just really wanted to play on it. Shawn took pictures as i rode around. I rode around for nearly 2 1/2 hours on that thing. I was having too much fun.

                                                                                                  

                                                 






When i was finished i thank them for allowing me try them out and told them how much fun i had on it. They were very generous and kind and said that if we ever decide we want to jet ski their again, then they would allow us to use their equipment, free of charge. When I hard got back on the boat, i didn't she Shawn. The table was cleared off and he was not in sight. I figured he must have gone inside. I was so soaked from the water splashing all over me, that i decided i was going to lay out in the sun and dry off. The weather was too perfect. The sun was shinning and the wind was blowing, it couldn't get much better than that.

Shawn came back out only moments after i had started laying down,  with a chef, asking what i was interested in for dinner. Being out in the water all day really made me crave sushi. It was only right that we did have sushi, with the type of scenery we were surrounded by. Then we just decided we were gonna have a seafood night and ordered baked salmon, as well as sushi, with stuffed lobster. After taking our order, he told us that it was going to take about 2 to 3 hrs. But i didn't mind though, because i was relaxing out in the sun and i was still full from breakfast earlier. Once he left, Shawn laid out next to me and we started talking.


(Shawn) "So did you have fun?"


(Bey) "Yes, omg it was amazing."


(Shawn) "I saw the way you were riding on that thing" he said side eyeing me "Hmp, you aint forget about what i told you did you?"


(Bey) "Told me?? What you tell me?" i asked playing dumb.


(Shawn) gives Bey a look "I see I'm just gonna have to refresh your memory." i said slapping his hand down on my bare thigh, but in a playful manner.


My body flinched though when he did it because my thighs had gotten sore, from riding on the jet ski.


(Shawn) "Oh I'm sorry did i hurt you" he asked all concerned noticing my reaction.


(Bey) "No you didn't, it's just that I'm sore from riding and smacking against those waves."


(Shawn) "Oh i see." he said then pulls my chair over closer towards him.


(Bey) chuckling "Jay, what are you doing?" I asked all unsure.


I love how out the blue he was. He was so dominant and so aggressive with things that i was becoming turned on.


(Shawn) "Im gonna give you a massage." he said then begin massaging on my thighs.


(Bey) "No" i said trying to pull my leg away "Your always doing stuff for me, let me do something for you."


(Shawn) grabbing a hold of my leg "But i don't mind."


(Bey) "I know bu---"


(Shawn) "Shhh.....not another word, just let it be."


As usual, i just gave in. Hey, i wasn't gonna stop him, hell i was loving every minute of it. Shawn's hands were so big, warm, and firm and the way they felt on my skin was like someone smoothing out dough to make a pizza or something. He knew all the right spots to touch and all the right things to do and was taking a lot in me to keep my cool. I closed my eyes and kept taking in deep breath's to try to concentrate on something else as i laid there while he massaged me. But booooy was it hard because mona was in full on ready to play mode. She was looking for some action.


(Shawn) "Are you okay?" he said grinning at me.


(Bey) "Huh. What?" i had no clue what he was saying because my mind was somewhere else.


(Shawn) "I said are you ooooookkkkaaaaayyyy?" he said speaking as if i were deaf.


(Bey) letting out a laugh "Don't talk to me like I'm deaf, i was just thinking about something."


(Shawn) "What you thinking?" he asked being all nosy, he was still massaging on my legs.


(Bey) "Oh nothing really." i said trying to beat around the question.


(Shawn) "You must be thinking about something, you just can not be thinking about nothing." he said still trying to get me to talk but it wasn't going to work.


Shawn knew what he was doing, he aint slick. He know damn well whats going on in my head, he was just trying to play around.


(Bey) smirking "No for real, I'm really not thinking about anything." i said still in denial.


(Shawn) "Yea alright......but you wanna know what I'm thinking about?" he asked in his sexy voice.


(Bey) "If i say no, your probably gonna tell me anyway right?"


(Shawn) "Your darn skippy." he said and we both started laughing.


(Bey) "What are you thinking about then Jay?" i asked even though i already knew.


(Shawn) "You."


(Bey) "Me? What about me?" i asked, curious and interested to know, because with Shawn you never know. He is just full of surprises.


(Shawn) "Everything, from your smile, your beautiful brown eyes, your laugh, your cute little perky lips, your simples, the way your nose crinkles up when you smile......."  Shawn sped up the pace of the massage as he went on talking   ".....your voice, the soft smooth hands touching all over me, your sexy little legs wrapped around my waist, the way you say my name, the way you walk...i could go on and on."


I just sat there in admiration. I had no idea he even notice that much about me. Tony still to this day can't even tell me the color of my eyes. And we've been together for 10 years. Shawn makes Tony look like a LOSER. And he was because he sure as hell lost me. And thats for damn sure. Things with Shawn come so natural, whereas i use to have to plane things out with Tony. I couldn't help but point out the difference between Tony and Shawn, they were so obvious. Im so mad with myself, that i even wasted 10 years of my life on that jerk. But if it weren't for Tony, I wouldn't have met Shawn. I have to remind myself to thank him, somewhere along the line.


(Bey) still in aw about Shawn "You've noticed all those things about me?" i asked completely stunned.


(Shawn) "Of course, you all i ever think about. From the moment at your party when i first laid eyes on you until now. It never stops."


Shawn was really making me hot and I couldn't blame it on the sun because it had begin to set. Gosh this man is a smooth talker, he makes me sick.


(Bey) "I couldn't stop thinking about you either. I never told you this because i was too embarrassed but one night while Tony and I were having sex i called him you."


(Shawn's thoughts)
When Beyonce told me that she called Tony my name, while they were having sex i didn't know what to say at first because i was speechless. Thats because at first i didn't think she was that into me. But now i know she's been feeling me all along. I use to think i was in way over my head chasing a girl that i thought really could care less about me. But i see now i was wrong. I actually found her story to be cute and quite amusing.


(Bey's thoughts)
When i told Shawn that i called Tony his name while having sex i could have jumped off the damn boat. I didn't realize what i was saying until i was actually saying it. See thats my problem now, I'm always speaking without thinking. Thats what got me in trouble the last time. I also didn't want him to think that i was just some crazy ass chick who fantasizes about him all day long. But i felt comfortable about it when I saw him crack a smile, i knew he would find humor in it which is why i wasn't tripping so hard that i told him. We'll just laugh it off just like the time i saw him naked for the first time.


Shawn and I both shared in laughter as we joked about the whole name calling situation.


(Shawn) laughing "Whoooo, i probably would have killed myself if i was Tony. Thats some crazy shit."


(Bey) "But then when i said it, i kept on talking like i was really sexing you." I said as i burst out in laughter.


(Shawn) "Welp it don't matter because now you get to holler out my name anytime you want." he said in a joking but serious manner.


(Bey) "Hmp! you got that right." i said as i bit down on my lips, thinking about sex with Shawn, which is absolutely amazing by the way. He never fails me.


(Shawn) "So how are your legs feeling?" he asked as he finished up with my massage.


I got up to feel my legs out and gave them a little shaky, shake. They were just tingling away, but they felt much better.


(Bey) "They feel great." i said as i walked away.


(Shawn) "Wait where are you going?"


(Bey) "To grab my phone, i'll be right back."


(Shawn) "Alright."


I went and got my phone to see if i had any missed calls/texts but i didn't. I also grabbed the camera that Shawn used to take pictures. I was going through them as we were walking out, looking to see some that Shawn and I could joke about. When I got back outside, Shawn was on the phone. He was talking to Ye, because i over heard him say his name. I take it he must have arrived because i also heard Shawn say, we'll see you later. I went and put back on my dress that was now dry, because the breeze of the ocean had picked up making me cold. I walked over to where Shawn was because he wasn't sitting by the chairs anymore to show him some pictures. We went through the pictures pointing out our favorites, making jokes about the ones we didn't like, just simply having a good time.

Shawn and I chilled out some more and set and watched the sun as it set. I kept playing around with Shawn acting like i was about to kiss him and then when he tried to kiss me back, i'll turn away from him. So then he tried to flip the script and do it to me. But then i got him and told him and if didn't stop messing with me, i wasn't going to have sex with him. Then he started sucking up too me. He looked so damn sexy when he was being mushy. 

 I realized i couldn't take it no more. Mona was ready to go. I pulled Shawn up by his arms and lead him into the room inside the boat. But we didn't make it to the bedroom, we just hit the floor as soon as we stepped foot inside. I climbed unto Shawn as he laid there on the floor unbuttoning his shorts. I was already a step ahead of him, i had undone my bottoms at we were making our way inside. The minute we hit the floor, so did they.


(Shawn) "Fuck."


(Bey) "Whats wrong?" i said as i kissed him on his neck.


(Shawn) holding Bey by her sides "All the condoms are in the room."


(Bey) sits up on Shawn and starts to think "Dammnit Jay" i didn't want to waste another minute so i tried coming up with alternatives "Okay, roll over and get on top."

(Shawn) "Bey what?"


(Bey) climbing off of Shawn "Come one, it'll be easier for you to pull out faster vs me being on top." i said as i helped him position himself on top of me.


(Shawn) "Are you sure Bey?"


(Bey) "Yea I'm sure, just make sure you know when to stop."


(Shawn) "OKay."


With that said Bey and Shawn started go at it, they didn't even bother to fully undress. It was just like Bey said, the longer she makes Shawn wait, the better he performs. Shawn was really putting the works on Bey, he stroke game was A1, he was positioned and just the right spot, and he had Bey dripping wet. And he was pulling out when needed.


(Bey) moans "Mmmmmmmmm, Yesssssss."


(Shawn) whisper's in Bey's ear "Thats right come for daddy." he pushes in deeper.


(Bey) biting her lip "Fuuuuuuuck JAY." she was loving it.

Shawn was just about to release another one, when he heard foot steps coming up the stairs.


(Shawn) "Got fucking damn, not this shit again." he pulls out and stops.


(Bey) sits up in disappointment "Jay whats up? I still had another one i needed to get off."


(Shawn) rushes up off the floor, helping Bey get up "Here take these and got fix your self" he said handing Bey her bottoms "Somebody's coming up."


(Bey) "Oh daaaaaaaaaamn" she said a little pissed "Alright" she goes into the room and freshen's up.


Shawn stood out there and fixed himself up. He waited to see who it was coming up the stairs and saw that it was Julius and the chef, bringing their food up. He went out onto the deck as they and watched as they set the table and served their meals.


(Shawn) "Thanks Ju, Thanks Louie." he said as they walked back in after getting things ready.


(Ju and Louie) "Your welcome."


Moments later Bey came back out all freshened up. Her and Shawn were making eye contact with each other as they sat at the table, still in disbelief about being interrupted. That was the second time that has happened to them in the past week.


(Bey) starts laughing "We have to have better timing." i said eating a piece of sushi.


(Shawn) chuckling "Yea, i'll say."


(Bey) smirks at Shawn


(Jay) "So are you ready to go to the hotel tonight?" he asked taking a sip of his wine.


(Bey) "Yes and know."


(Shawn) "We gotta get back to kelly and Ye though."


(Bey) "I know that's the only reason i said yes." i said eating another piece of sushi, it was banging.


(Shawn) "Don't worry, we'll be able to come back anytime we want. We got all the time in the world. And maybe next time i'll go jet skiing with you." he said digging into his lobster.


(Bey) "Yea your right and i hope so, so that we could race and i'll whoop your ass."


(Shawn) "And what makes you so sure." he said when a look on his face.


(Bey) "Need i remind you about DB's." i teased.


(Shawn) "But you can't compare land experience to water experiences."


(Bey) "Well you say tomato and i say tomàto."i said taking a sip of my wine.


(Shawn) laughing "You are silly."


(Bey) giggles "yea i know"


I notice Shawn stopped eating and he became more serious.


(Shawn) "I just want to let you know, i had a really amazing time with you these past 2 days."


(Bey) "And i have too....i appreciate everything."


(Shawn) "It's like i keep telling you, you deserve the best and I'm just here to see that you get it, i care a lot about you and I just want to see you happy."


(Bey) "And it's nice to be with someone that does." i said smiling at Shawn. "Come on, hold your glass up, lets propose a toast."


(Shawn) raises his glass up "Alright what we toasting too."


(Bey) "To happiness, to life, to lots and lots of love making......" i said winking at Shawn, letting out a brief laugh".....and to you."


(Shawn) "Me, why me?"


(Bey) "Because Shawn Carter, your are a good man as well as a friend and you are the reason I'm sitting here smiling today, I'm just so glad that you are a part of my life."


(Shawn) "Shit, i'll toast to that" he said letting out a soft chuckle "But in all seriousness we should be toasting to us, as an me and you. Im glad we have each other and I'm glad I'm able to share moments like this with you, your one hell of a girl Beyoncé Knowles and a special one at that i can't wait to see what our future has in stored for us."


(Bey) blushing "Me either."


(Shawn) "Cheers."


(Bey) "Cheers."


On that note, they touched glasses and sipped their drinks. From there on, they ate and continued to watch the rest of the sun set. And by the time they were done eating, they were pulling back up to the docking station, where there car service was waiting for them and headed back to the hotel, with nothing but good thoughts flowing through their heads.

Chp 19 Where it All Began

A few days has passed now and Kelly's concert was in the next 2 days. I talked it over with Shawn about going with me and he agreed. We were in the middle of packing because we decided we would go out there a couple days earlier. Being that both of our schedules was cleared, we felt a mini vacay would be perfect for us. I also wanted to surprise Kelly. I know how it could be when your away, because i know for me i get really home sick. Solo and Daniel decided they were gonna stay back at the house since Daniel was going to be leaving by the time we got back anyway. I didn't mind though. I already gave Michelle and Angie the heads up to do random check ups. I'm not no fool. My mom knew Daniel was in town, but she would flip out if she knew i was leaving them here at my house by themselves. So i told her that Daniel was going to be staying at a hotel and Solo was going to be with Michelle. She knew that if Solo was going to Michelle's than she wouldn't have anything  to worry about.

(Solo) coming into the room "Hey Bey, what time are you guys leaving again."

(Bey) packing clothes into her suitcase "Uhm, well our flight leaves at like 6, but where gonna leave out like around 5 or 5:30, so in next hour probably."

(Solo) "Ohhhhh uhm well alright."

(Bey) "Why whats up?"

(Solo) "Oh nothing, Daniel and I were gonna go grab a bite to eat but we'll just wait until after you guys leave."

(Bey) "Oh alright."

Solo leaves out and Shawn comes in with some bags full of stuff.

(Bey) looking at Shawn bring all that junk in "Jay....What is all that?"

These past few days, i have been getting use to calling Shawn Jay, since it was everyone calls him. But i still do call him Shawn, when things are on a more serious matter.

(Shawn) "Oh i just went to go grab a few things, that we're gonna need."

I walked over and searched through the bags and starts pulling out things he had things like gum, magazines, some beaded bracelets, dvd's and a whole bunch of other mess.

(Bey) chuckling and pulls out the bracelets "Really Jay, bracelets?"

(Shawn) snatching away the bracelets "Look they're stress relieving bracelets, i googled them on the on the internet, they're suppose to keep your anxiety levels down."

(Bey) "Anxiety for what?"

(Shawn) "The plane duh" he said putting them back into the bags.

(Bey) starts giggling "Don't tell me your afraid of planes."

(Shawn) "Nooooo im not" he said all in denial "It's just that whole incident with Aaliyah really tripped me out, thats all."

(Bey) walks over to Shawn and kisses him "Look, you have nothing to worry about i'll be with you."

(Shawn) "Yea, you gonna be right with me when we die."

All i could do was laugh because he was really serious. I just found it amusing. He's all tough when it comes to anything else, but flying, i just had to laugh.

(Shawn) "Im glad you think it's funny." he said getting a bit offended.

(Bey) "I don't mean to laugh but what are the odd of us crashing, like come on really?"

(Shawn) "Okay if your trying to help, please don't. It's only making matters worst."

(Bey) "Okay, I'm sorry.....i'll just be quiet." i said holding in my laugh.

I wanted to laugh so bad but i knew it'll just make him more upset, so i tried my best to hold it in. I couldn't believe he was really that nervous about flying.

(Shawn) counting my bags "Geesh did you pack enough?" he said sarcastically but halfway serious.

(Bey) looks at her bags "Well i don't know what the weather i going to be like and i have no clue what i want to wear an---"

(Shawn) shakes his head "Women man, i tell ya." he said walking into the bathroom.

(Bey) rolls eyes "Did you talk to Ye?" i said yelling into the bathroom. He was also suppose to come with us.

(Shawn) "Yea" he said yelling back "He said he's going to fly out in the morning."

(Bey) "Oh ok--" i said in attempt to yell, but he was already walking back out the bathroom "Oh, okay."

(Shawn) "We leave at 6 right?"

(Bey) "Yea."

(Shawn) "Okay, cuz i told the driver to be here at 5."

(Bey) "Alright."

Shawn and I packed up the rest of our things. For the rest of the time being we pretty much double checked everything to make sure everything was intact. Went over the guidelines with Solo and Daniel discussing whats expected while we're gone and just chilled out until the driver came. Before leaving Shawn took about 8 shots of remy. I just silently laughed on the inside, amused by his franticness. When the driver got their it was about 5:15, he had came late. We didn't arrive to the airport until about 5:50. The traffic was really bad out. We weren't tripping though because we had our own private jet that we were taking. We were rushing through the airport though because we were trying to get to LA at a certain time, well i wasn't rushing it was so much Shawn.

Walking through the airport i could feel the people as they watched as we passed by. It wasn't long before the paparazzi and the press started swarming in. You could hear them shouting out things to us like, where's Tony? Was i just a temporary replacement for Jay to get over Aaliyah's death. Were we a new couple or was it just for publicity? And all other types of nonsense. Shawn and I just kept walking and ignored them, not giving in. We finally reached the jet and quickly boarded it. It wasn't long though before our the security and the airport staff was bringing our luggage to us. After about 15 more minutes we were finally taking off. I looked over at Shawn while he popped in a piece a gum in his mouth, put in his ear phones, and squoze on to his stress beads. I instantly let out a chuckle because i just thought it was just too funny. I reached out to touch him to see if he was okay, but i shouldn't have even done that because the minute i laid my hand on him, his ass jumped up out his seat yelling "Are we crashing, Are we crashing?" I started falling out laughing. He was just standing there looking around, his beads were tossed on the other side of the plane.

(Shawn) "Man what the hell." he said all shaken up.

(Bey) rising up off the floor, trying to catch her breath from laughing "Wait" i said still laughing and trying to get up "I was trying to see were you okay." As much as i was trying to stop laughing i just couldn't.

(Shawn) "Do it look like I'm okay." he said finally sitting back down.

(Bey) climbing back into the chair "Aww POP POP, your really tripping out huh?"

(Shawn) "Yea man, i need another drink."

As much as i wanted to crack a joke, remembering he took about 8 shots back at the house, i just couldn't. I didn't want to keep picking on him, he was already tripping out, i didn't want to make matters worst. I got up to go pour him up a glass of cognac straight, i knew that would calm his nerves. The minute i gave it to him, he threw the whole thing back, non stop and set the glass down next to him. I just stood above him for a minute, just looking at him.

(Bey) sits down on Shawn's lap "How are you feeling now?"

(Shawn) "I mean I'm good, I'm, I'm , I'm ju--"

I started nibbling on Shawn's ear. My poor baby was all tensed up. It was pretty funny though, but i didn't like seeing him like this. I was going to do whatever it took to calm his nerves.

(Shawn) pulling his head away from Bey "I can't do this right now."

(Bey) starts kissing on Shawn's neck "And why not?"

(Shawn) trying to resist "Be....Be....Because....we're mmmmmmm" clears throat " i mean we're uhm."

(Shawn's thoughts)

I know any other time i'd be down for this, but not when we're thousands of feet in the air. I still couldn't get over the whole death about Aaliyah. She was so young and it was so unexpected. She was on her way to her video shoot when it happened. I always think about the shit i've done in my life and think about how i was suppose to be dead a long time ago. That girl had every ounce of good in her body and yet her life was taken away. I must say i do admire Bey for trying to help me cope with things but my mind was too far gone.

(Bey) still kissing on Shawn

(Shawn) pushes be off, but in a gentle way.

(Bey) giving Shawn a look "Whats the problem?" i asked confused.

(Shawn) "Nothing Bey, i just don't want to this, well not right now i don't."

(Bey) gets off of Shawn and goes to sit in her chair *Sighs*

(Shawn) "Whats wrong?"

(Bey) "Nothing, i fine."

(Shawn) "No your not, talk too me."

(Bey's thought)

I must say i was a little offended that Shawn turned me down. But i could tell something was really bothering him, something that was much more than just the whole flying on a plane thing. I just wasn't sure how to approach the situation. I figured i'll just work it in the conversation.

(Bey) "Im mean I'm just a little upset that you turned me down, but i understand, I'm not tripping on it."

(Shawn) turns his chair towards Bey "It's not you, it's me. I just have a lot on my mind thats all."

(Bey) "Do you wanna talk about it?"

(Shawn) "I don't even know where to begin."

(Bey) "Just start from what you know."

(Shawn) "Well ever since Aaliyah died, it really made me think about things."

(Bey) "Like?"

(Shawn) "Well you and me for instance."

(Bey) "What do you mean?"

(Shawn) "You and I come from 2 different lifestyles, one's that are opposite. The way i grew up it was like i always had to fight to get what I wanted, but i don't mean fighting in a physical way. I did a lot of things in my past that i'm not proud of, but it made me the man i am today. I don't regret anything. I guess it's just that being with you, you make me want to be a better man. Me, Im 33 your 21....i then practically did it all. You still have your whole life ahead of you and i don't want to feel like I'm holding you back from anything."

(Bey) "And opposites attract. And i can't believe you Shawn, you could never hold me back. If thats the case i could have stayed with Antonio. The thing with you, i already know the type of man you are, i know the lifestyle you've lived, but that hasn't once effected the way i feel for you. Being with you lately i've feel more alive then i've ever felt. So far i feel you and i could have something so real together. And i've never felt like this before."

(Shawn) "Im just saying, you and i are going to always be in the public eye a lot. There's going to be a lot of talk in the media, somethings that are good and somethings that are bad. Do you think you be able to handle that? You seen what happened today, when we were at the airport the type of questions they were throwing at us. I just don't want you to get so caught up in things that you let it ruin what we could possibly have."

(Bey) "I could care less about whats being said in the media because i know how they operate.We know whats real. Im just saying Shawn, in order for things to work out between us, we must be able to communicate, trust one another, and be honest with each other. I've been dealing with a liar for the past 10 years of my life, and as your partner i feel that honesty is a must. I don't care how ugly or uncomfortable things may get, you have to promise me that you would tell me, just be honest with me."

(Shawn) "I have no problem with that, just as long as you do so in return. And as for the outsider's , we dont need everyone knowing our business because once you start then people are going to feel like they're apart of this relationship and think they have so much say in what goes on."

(Bey) "I totally agree with you."

(Shawn) "I feel much better now" he says going to pour him up another drink "You want one?"

(Bey) "Thats good, I'm glad you are and yea, but can you add some ice."

(Shawn) "Yea, i got you."

Im glad Shawn and I can sit and discuss things, let this would have been Tony and he would of found a way to turn it into an argument. Every time i open up to Shawn i feel so much more closer to him. He was just.......words can't even explain. I love how he can sense out things about me, just as i can with him. It's crazy though. Tony's old bipolar ass, you could never tell with him. The more my relationship grows with Shawn, the less i start to have feelings for Tony. But enough about him. Shawn and I sat and  drank for the rest of the flight. He and i also talked some more, just about random things and what ever came to mind. He and I were so opposite yet we had so much in common. After about a 4 1/2 hr flight we finally reached out destination. The drive from the airport to the hotel wasn't long, it only about 20 mins. When we got situated into our room, Shawn told me to shower and get dress and that he had a surprise for me. I didn't question him, i just did as told and got ready. After i was finishing showering, i got out and began getting dressed. I didn't even realize Shawn had left.  I found a note on the dresser, saying to meet him out in the front of the hotel. I hurried up and got dress. I slipped into a nice body fitting pink dress, that brought out my figure. I through my hair back into a wet bun. And topped it off with a nice pair of heels and accessories. After that I grabbed my clutch and walked out the door. I got downstairs to the lobby and saw Jay standing out in the front with a car service. I started getting excited because i had no idea what he had planned. I walked up to the car and got in slowly as Jay held the door open, long enough for him to get a glimpse of my ass. I looked back at him and caught him smirking and licking his lips, i just rolled my eyes and turned back around to get in the car.

(Bey) "So where are we going?" i asked all shyly, i just couldn't stop cheesing.

(Shawn) "Hmp. It's a surprise" he said in a real modest tone.

(Bey) cracks a smile and lets out a  chuckle.

(Shawn) "I see someone is a little silly tonight huh?"

(Bey) giggling "Huh." I asked all dumfounded.

I don't know what it is, but every time I'm with Shawn he gives me tingles in all different places. He makes me feel high off life with i'm with him. It just feels so right. I couldn't tell if it was Shawn's spontaneousness or all that cognac i had, because i just stop laughing.

(Shawn) "You look nice" he said as he moved a little closer to me.

(Bey) "Thank you and you don't look too bad yourself." i said all flirtatiously, brushing off one of his shoulders.

Just as i was placing my hand down, Shawn snatched it and pulled me by my arm, moving me closer to him.

(Shawn) "What you mean i dont look too bad" he said playfully pinching my side "I think i look pretty damn good."

(Bey) "Okay, you look alright." i said mocking him.

(Shawn) "Yea okay." he said chuckling.

The chemistry was there between me and Shawn. The way we were acting with each was ridiculous. We rode around for about 25 mins until we reached our destination. I began to look around and notice water, trees, and just beaches was just surrounding us, then i begin to see a bunch of yachts and boats. We pulled into their pier area and parked by the entrance. The driver than came around to open the door and we got out. Shawn held on to my hand, as he helped me out the car. I got out and followed behind him. The paparazzi was posted, but we had Julius. When we got near the end, Shawn started walking up to one of the yachts. I was becoming more and more excited.

We got on to the boat and made our way to the deck, and it was a table set up for 2 with candles all around.

(Shawn) "Alright Ju man, i got it from here." he said as they slapped fives.

(Julius) "Alright I'm a go ahead inside." he said walking away.

I just stood by the table until Shawn came over, pulling out my chair so i could sit down.

(Bey) "Thank you" i said as he pushed me towards the table.

(Shawn) "Your welcome" he said as he walked to sit down.

I just sat there smiling, admiring Shawn and this moment..

(Shawn) "So whats on your mind?" he asked

(Bey) "Nothing.....im just...."

(Shawn) "Your just what..." he said taking a sip of wine.

(Bey) "I don't know, you just got me feeling some type of way." i said smiling out from ear to ear.

(Bey's thoughts)

Shawn is just so thoughtful, he's always doing things out of the ordinary. And he so's secretive with it too. I love that he alway thinking about me and keeping me on my toes. It just makes me like him so much more.

(Shawn) "Im hope that feeling is good." he said jokingly.

(Bey) "Yea" i said letting out a chuckle.

Just then the boat started moving and we were drifting off into the water. I was eager to know where we were going.

(Shawn) "With all thats been going on, i feel you deserve a good night out. So whats better than a candle lit dinner, under the stars, off the the coast."

(Bey) "You are so thoughtful, i really appreciate."

(Shawn) "I just like seeing you smile, thats all."

My cheese became super red, i was blushing so hard. I had this big koolaid smile on my face.

(Bey) "So what are we having?" i said switching the subject.

(Shawn) "Well we have chicken teriyaki w/ shrimp fried rice and "and stuffed spinach wraps.

(Bey) "Ooohs sounds delicious" i said taking a sip of my drink. "And for desert?"

(Shawn) gives me a look "Hmp, oh you shall see." he said all seductive.

(Bey) smiles

Shawn and I ate and finished our dinner. After we were finished we spent some time cuddling up on the sofa out on the deck. It was a blanket out there to keep us warm from the breeze of the night. Everything was going great. I love being with Shawn. He made feel so good.

(Shawn) "Are you enjoying your night?"

(Bey) "Yes......very much."

(Shawn) "Thats good" he said stroking my hair "So are you ready for desert?"

(Bey) "And what exactly do you have for desert" i asked all curious.

(Shawn) "Well" he said getting up and going to grab a tray. "I have grilled pineapple with vanilla ice cream dripped in rum sauce."

(Bey) "Mmm, my mouth is just watering from the sound of it."

(Shawn) walking back over to Bey with the dish "But its only one dish, so we have to share it."

(Bey) "Why only one?"

(Shawn) "Well honestly, i didn't think we'll make it to desert." he said sarcastically but also very serious.

(Bey) laughing "Ha, well evidently you thought wrong." i joked.

(Shawn) "Oh its like that" he asked playfully, he then takes a slice out of  the pineapple dish "here, try his." he said feeding me.

(Bey) "Yum." i said licking my lips of the ice cream. It was so good.

(Shawn) "Good right?" he said eating some for himself.

(Bey) "Uhm-hm."

(Shawn)  "I knew you would like it."

Shawn and I sat their and finished off our desert. He was so charming and sweet. I couldnt help but laugh when i saw he had a smudge of ice cream smeared on his face, with his little chubby cheeks.

(Shawn) "Whats so funny?" he asked looking at me.

(Bey) "You have a little smudge right here" i said taking my thumb and wiping it away.

(Shawn) "Oh so you think stuff is funny." he said and began tickling me.

As Shawn tickled me, i fell into his lap from moving around. I laid there staring up at him as he sat there staring down at me. Then he leaned in to kiss me. It was pretty clear where things were headed. After a great dinner and some bomb ass sex, Shawn and I spent the rest of the night on the boat. It was a great way to start off the vacation and an even better way to end to the night. I was looking forward to the rest of the trip.



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