Chapter 7 "Where it All Began"

When Tony called, he asked if i could meet with him for dinner, after giving it much thought i decided i would go. We needed to talk about things anyway. It's been well over a week and after that talk with my mom, i had some things figured out. Tony and I weren't going to meet for another couple of hours. It gave me enough time to eat and prepare my thoughts. While eating, Kelly and I discussed me meeting up with Tony, i needed a second opinion and i knew she was gonna tell me exactly what i needed to hear.

(Kelly) "I thinks it's good that yal are going to meet up, yal had enough time apart to think about things and i think this will be good for yal."

(Bey) "Yea it will, I'm kinding hoping things will go good tonight. Tony and I have been together for about 10 years and i really can't see us letting go that easy. It's just the whole marriage thing that scares me. I try not to let the past effect our future, but as much as i try, i just can't help it. "

(Kelly) "Not to mention Bey, he is a professional athlete. Being on long roads trips and constantly having to be on the go, can get a little hard at times. It's way different from him being in college and the fact that both of yal have some crazy schedule's want help."

(Bey) "I think about that too, but not as much as i think about him being around girls. It's not him I don't trust, its the woman. And judging from the past, i just hope he'll have the guts not to give in or the courage to tell me if anything. I just would want him to be honest about it. "

(Kelly) "Yea i feel you." taking another bite of her alfredo "Mmm this alfredo is good."

(Bey) "Fat ass."

(Kelly) "Your one to talk, yo ass got pasta, alfedo, and some chicken."

(Bey) "Well what you expect I'm eating for 2." i said laughing.

(Kelly) "Excuses, excuses" she said giggling "Anywho, so i wanna hear about what happened when you ran into Shawn. I mean was the girl even cute."

(Bey) "I couldn't really tell, i didn't get a good look at her."

(Kelly) getting up to go in the kitchen "You a good one, cuz uhm i sure would have walked over to that table and been all in there mix. I would had gave his ass the longest, tightest hug ever."

(Bey) yelling too the kitchen "You silly,  but we didn't hug."

(Kelly) comes from out the kitchen "You aint hug him?"

(Bey) "No it was awkward enough seeing him, on top of that he was with another girl. I was trying to act like i aint see him."

(Kelly) "Awwww you a punk" she said teasing me.

(Bey) "I aint no punk!"

(Kelly) "Yea sure you are." she said laughing, walking back into the kitchen.

(Bey) ''Aye can you get me something to drink while you in there?"

(Kelly) "Yea, what you want?"

(Bey) "Just some water."

(Kelly) "Bottled or in a glass?"

(Bey) "Bottled"

(Kelly) "Kay."

Kelly comes back out the kitchen with the water and a bowl of cereal.

(Bey) "how you go from eating alfredo to some cereal?" i joked.

(Kelly) handing bey her water and sits down on couch. "well since you didn't want to share your FOOOOOOD" she said sarcastically " i went and made me some cereal."

(Bey) "Well why you aint make me none."

(Kelly) gives bey a look "Like you need anything else." she laughed

(Bey) "its all good" gets up all floor "i aint want no cereal anyway." 

(Kelly) "Where you going?"

(Bey) "To get ready so i can meet up with Antonio."

(Kelly) "Oh okay."

After throwing the rest of my food away, I went up stairs to shower and get ready. I wanted to you look cute, so that Tony would know what it is he will be missing if he doesn't get his act together. I put on a tight fitting, short, black dress with some bad ass heels and brushed my hair straight. I set in front of the mirror to examine myself and i must say i look pretty damn good.

In the midst of me getting dress, Antonio sent me a text letting me know he was there and that he was waiting on me. That was about 30 mins ago and i didn't care. I was going to get there when i got there. After i was done i walked downstairs to let Kelly know i was leaving but of course she just had to crack a few jokes.

(Kelly) "Aww shit. Are you just going there to talk, or are you just going there to talk?" 

(Bey) "Shut up stupid" i said laughing. "Ill be back in about an hour or so. Ill call when I'm on my way." starts walking out door.

(Kelly) "Oh no, take your time." She said peeking her head out of the door, watching me walk to the car.

I already knew what she was referring to so i didn't pay her any mind. I met up with Antonio at Morso's, a nice little restaurant in New York. When I arrived he was already seated. As i approached him he stood up to greet me, hugging me and kissing me on my cheek. I'll admit, i kind of missed him. And he was looking good.

(Tony) "You look very beautiful tonight." he said after kissing me. 

I could tell by the looks of him that he was nervous, his body was all tensed and he couldnt look me directly in the eyes.

(Bey) "Thank You" i said sitting down, as he pulled out my chair.

(Tony) going to sit down "Whats been up, how have you been?" 

(Bey) "I've been good. And you?"

(Tony) "I've been alright.............i've been missing you though."

When he said that i kind of froze up, i didn't want him to know that i missed him. I had to show him otherwise.

(Bey) "So whats up, you wanted to meet and have dinner so that we can talk, lets talk."

He had a salty look on his face because i didn't say it back.

(Tony) "Look Bey...I uhm.." he started moving around in his chair. He positioned his elbows on the tables with his hands folded across his arms. "Im sorry for everything. I just want you to come home."

(Bey) "Just telling me sorry isn't enough to make me come home Antonio." i snapped.

(Tony) "When you left that note, i didn't know what to do. I thought i was going to lose you. I know i been acting like a ass...bu--"

(Bey) smirks "Hmp, you got that right."

(Tony) "Look I'm not trying to fight with you, baby i just want to let you know that I truly am sorry. And i'll do whatever it takes to make it up. I just want to show you that i'm welling to change for you. And if you and Shawn are friends so be it, i trust you. And even if yal did have something going on, baby i wouldn't fault you for it---"

(Bey) "Antonio I just need to know that if i'm marrying you, i want have to worry about anything. And you know what I'm talking about. I know we are going to argue and i know we are going to fight, i just need to know that when it comes down to it, you will leave me before you hurt me."

(Tony) "Baby i promise, from here on out things are going to be different."

(Bey) "I sure hope so. Im tired of having to go through shit with you, and it doesn't make it no better because instead of talking you rather argue and then you just up and leave me. I don't know where you go or what you are doing. And that worries me."

(Tony) "I know Bey, I know.....so let me know something, are we back on or what?"

(Bey) sits back in her chairs and starts to think "*sighs* Yes, BUT the wedding is still postponed until i feel things are comfortable again."

(Tony) "Okay, thats understandable."

(Bey) "And from here on out, i want no more lies between us. No matter how ugly or uncomfortable things may get, i wanna know. I think if I'm gonna be your wife, i have the right to know things."

(Tony's thoughts) If I'm gonna tell bey, now has to be the time. If she finds out later on down the line, i know for sure we're done. It's time i just man up and face the truth.

(Tony) scoots his chair closer to bey "Bey........baby i got to tell you something but you have to promise you want get mad."

(Bey) "How the hell do you tell me not to get mad if you now I'm gonna be mad." i started to get real irritated.

(Tony) grabs bey's hands "Baby, just say you promise."

(Bey) "Tony i can't promise that, your just gonna have to tell me."

(Tony) takes a deep breath ".......I have to go on the road next week, the first game is away and so are the next few games so i want see you for a couple of weeks."

(Tony's thoughts) FUCK. I just couldn't do it. Things are just getting back good and i don't want to mess them up. I'll just wait when the timing is right.

(Bey) with a blank look on her face "You got me all worked up for that, you had me thinking you were about to tell me some shit. Tony i swear som--"

(Tony) laughing "You know how you get when i have to leave, i was just letting you know in advance instead of last minute."

(Bey) laughing "You are so dramatic, you know that." i said jokingly "But while we're sharing news, i got some news for you too...."

(Tony) "Oh you do huh...."

(Bey) nodding her head 

(Tony) "And what is the news?" 

(Bey) "Im pregnant."

(Tony) "Are you serious?" he said with excitement.

(Bey) "Yeeeeeeea"

(Tony) "Baby thats great." he said kissing bey.

Tony and I sat and talked some more about the future of things and having a baby. After all that time of sitting there, we finally ordered us some food and ate. I was happy to see that Tony was excited about having a baby, it made things a lot easier. I was happy that we were also back on good terms because i really missed him. I decided I was going to head back with Tony tonight so that he and i could have some time together. Shit, it's been about month since the last time he and i had sex and tonight was the night. After dinner we headed back home and got it popping. Tony didn't waste any time. The minute he opened the door he lifted me up and sat me on the table in the hallway coming into the house. Our clothes were flying everywhere, first was my dress, then was his shirt and before I knew it everything was off. Went made our way into the living room and he laid me out on the couch. He started kissing me on my neck, then down to my breast, then down to my stomach, then down to my waist. When he got down by my waist he looked up at me and started smirking. My body started trembling as i felt his hands rubbing all of my body.

(Bey) "You wanna play games, i see."

(Tony) starts laughing.

He was tryna be a tease and i must say it was working. The longer he teased the more i wanted it. Before  i knew it, he started feasting like it was his last meal. My body jerked as i felt his warm tongue between my legs. I tried to pull away but he gripped me tighter and pulled me closer to him, grabbing me by my thighs. Out of nowhere Shawn crossed my mind. I began to fantasize about him and i having sex. I felt myself about to come but Antonio wouldn't let me. He rolled over on the couch, sitting upward and lifted me on top. 

(Bey) rolls eyes at Tony.

He positioned me on top of him and I proceeded to ride. It's been a while, and i must admit this shit was feeling good. I was getting all into it and started to lose control, our moans grew louder and louder and i felt Tony about to cum. I started go in, giving it everything i had.

(Tony) "SHIT baby" his voice started to go high, thats how i knew i had him"....Bey I'm about to come."

(Bey) moans "Wait Shawn......im not ready for you too yet."

Before i could catch the words, they slipped right out my mouth. I knew i had fucked up. Antonio jumped up throwing me to the floor. I knew i had messed up.

(Tony) "GET THE FUCK OFF OF ME." he said as he started putting back on his clothes. 

(Bey) "Baby wait" i said going over trying to stop him.

(Tony) pushing bey back "BACK THE HELL AWAY FROM ME." he started yelling he was so mad.

(Bey) attempts to grab him again "Bu--"

(Tony) grabs a hold of bey and rams her into the wall "DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME." he had his hand pointed in her face. 

He tried to walk away but Bey grab a hold of hime again. Tony turned around and slammed her into into the wall again. He started shaking her around and yelling at her.

(Tony) letting go of bey "I can't believe you." he said and walked away

(Bey) running after him "Where are you go--"

BOOOOOOOOM.

(Tony) slams the door in Bey's face.