Chp 18 Where it All Began

I couldn't even begin to explain how much fun i had last night. I couldn't get over Kelly's and Kanye's constant bickering. Them two of them were like vinegar and oil because they just didnt mix. I was still a little hung over from last night, so i did the usual popped a couple advils. I had forgot i had a shoot today. Gosh, i really have been slacking lately. I need to stay more on top of things. With my mom being my manager and all, you would think the she would be on top of everything, WRONG. I should have left it up to my dad because when it comes to matters of business he don't play around. My shoot wasn't  until 3, so i had enough time to get the house clean and everything situated at home. Shawn was off handling business, lord knows what Ye was off doing, Daniel was also gone, as well as Kelly because she had a flight to catch, and Solo was at the house. I was in the kitchen cleaning when Solo came in and sat at the counter. I was still in my clothes from last night, because i decided i was gonna clean up then shower.


(Bey) "Uuuuuuh you do see me cleaning right?" i said playfully, holding a trash bag full of empty liquor bottles and plastic cups.


(Solo) chuckling "Yea and whats that suppose to mean?"


(Bey) "That me and get your ass up and help." i joked, tossing the bag over to her.


(Solo) "I was just playing" she said grabbing the bag "You want me to finish getting the rest of this?" she said pointing to more bottles and cups.


(Bey) "Yea, ima sweep and mop." goes to the closet and pulls out the broom and mop "Oh and can you check out by the pool and make sure nothing is out there."


(Solo) "Yea i can."


(Bey) "Thanks." she said beginning to sweep.


(Solo) "Man, my head is killing me, i must have drunk more than usual last night."


I didn't mind that Solo drank, it didn't bother me. As long as she knows how to handle herself and my mom doesn't fin out because that is one conversation i am not trying to have.


(Bey) "Did you take some tylenol or advil?"


(Solo) in a whining voice "Nooooo, you have some?"


(Bey) "Yea, go look upstairs in my bathroom, behind the mirror on the far right it should be sitting right their on the shelf."


(Solo) "Ooooh good, cuz i sure do need it."


(Bey) chuckles "So where is Daniel?"


(Solo) "Off visiting his aunt."


(Bey) "Why you didn't go?"


(Solo) "Girl because his mom is in town too and that is one crazy bitch, i can't stand her."


(Bey) laughs "Im glad i didn't have to deal with that. Tony's mom died we he was about 5 or 6, he was raised by his dad. But his dad was pretty cool though."


(Solo) "Oh how did he react to yal breaking up?"


(Bey) "I really wouldn't know, he and Tony had a falling out when he found out Tony was being drafted, he wanted him to stay and finish school, but Tony decided to take the other way out. They haven't spoke since then."


(Solo) "Oh dang, well i don't know too much about Daniel's father, he never really speaks about him."


(Bey) "Well do you ask?"


(Solo) "Nope, i just figured if he wanted to talk about it, then he would."


(Bey) "Yea, i understand."


(Solo) "Im glad you finally got a chance to meet him though, mama and daddy already did. And shoot we've been together for too long for you not to have."


(Bey) "I know and he's such a nice guy. And on top of that he is HOT." i said chuckling "How long have you two been together."


(Solo) "YES HE IS." she said laughing "But i met him when i was 13, you know i told you, when we were at the party, but we started going together when i was 14, so about 2 years."


(Bey) "Oh okay, well I'm happy for you and if you ever want to talk about anything you know I'm here."


(Solo) walks over to hug "Yea, i know. I love you sissy." she said in her cute voice.


(Bey) hugging Solo "I love you more."


(Solo) goes to bag up the trash. "Well I'm done with this, but I'm to run upstairs real quick and get the advil, and i'll be back down to check outside."


(Bey) still sweeping "Okay."


By the time Solo was coming back downstairs i had already begin mopping. She went outside to check to see if anything was left outside but it wasn't. Good, because that was less work. Just as i was finishing up with mopping, i heard the door bell ring.
I rung out the mop and placed it back in the closet with the broom. I also carried the trash bag to the  door, so that i wouldn't forget to take it out. I peeked out the window first because i wasn't expecting any company and when i saw that it was Angie, i went and opened the door.

(Ang) walking in the house "Damn, people don't know how to answer phones around here."

My cousin Angie was crazy, this girl said what ever came to her mind.

(Bey) laughing "Hey Ang, and when did you call me?"

(Ang) "I've been calling you for the past 20 mins, you and Solo, but aint neither one of yal hoes answered."

(Bey) "Well apparently some of us have lives" i said joking around "No but for real, i was cleaning up and i left my phone upstairs on the charger."

(Ang) "Oh well i'll let it slide this time." she said walking into the living.

I followed Ang into the living room, where Solo was sitting. Then way Angie came in she was too hype, i just knew she was about to tell me something. 

(Ang) sitting down "Giiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirl, let me tell you." she said all full of energy.


(Bey) chuckling "Tell me what?"


(Ang) "Okay. You know how every Monday morning, i have my little power walks right?"


(Bey) nodding along "Uhm hmm."


(Ang) "So anywho, i was coming around the corner of Garcia and i saw Antonio and little Ms, what ever the bitch name is, girl all walking down the street like one big happy family."


When Angie told me that she saw Antonio with Victoria, i didnt phase me at all. He was where he needed to be and i really could have cared less.


(Bey) "Girl, I'm thinking you about to tell me something good, i could give 2 fucks about him and that bitch."


(Ang) "Weeeeeeeeeell damn, i guess you dont want to hear that their engaged to be married then."


(Bey) "What?!"


Now i couldn't lie, when she said that, it bothered the hell out of me.


(Ang) nodding her head "Yup, because i ran into Patricia when i did that charity thing back in Houston not too long ago, cuz you know them two use to hang, well she was telling me all about it, i didn't think i was true until i saw them together so thats why I'm telling you now."


(Bey) "Are yo serious?"


(Ang) "Yes, Bey as a heart attack."


(Solo) "Damn that's fucked up."


I couldn't even say anything, i had to sit and let what Angie said register in my head. I became so full with disgust that i could have went and found Antonio and Victoria and killed them both. I just didn't understand why he wanted to hurt me so bad. I mean it's only been about a month since he and i have been broken up and already he's engaged. 


(Ang) "Bey, you good?"


(Bey) "Huh" i said snapping out of my thoughts. "Oh yea, I'm fine."


(Solo) "You sure, cuz i understand if your not."


(Bey) "Yea, why wouldn't i be. He's a grown ass man who makes his own decisions. And besides where not together, I'm with Shawn. Tony and I are waaaaaaay past done."


(Ang) "Well thats good your not tripping about it cuz i don't want to see you all down in stuff."


(Bey) "Oh na baby, trust me. I aint tripping about a damn thing."


(Ang) "Alright, well I'm about to get going. I got a few things to take care of today. I'll catch up with you later." gets up and starts walking to the door.


(Bey) follows behind her "Okay."


(Solo) "Bye Ang"


(Ang) yells from the door "Byyyyyyyyyyye."


(Bey) hugging Ang "Aright love, ill talk to you later."


(Ang) "Alright baby, you take it easy and remember don't trip on that Antonio shit, okay."
she said walking out the door.


(Bey) "I aint" i said closing the door "See you later."


I be lying if i said that shit aint get to me. I only told Solo and Ang that because i didnt want them to know that it did and think that i still had feelings for him. I'd also be lying if i say that i don't still have feelings for him because i do, yet they are slowly fading away. Despite it all, i will always love Antonio but he always make me question why the hell i was even ever with him to begin with because he's always doing some shit. At this point i wasn't even trying to think about it no more, i just went ahead and got showered so that i would be ready for my shoot. But even after showing I had some time to spare. I was still thinking Tony and what Angie had told me. I getting heat by every thought that came to my mind. I started thinking back to when i was little and when i was going through something, how i would always right about it in a story or a poem. I went in my closet and pulled out my old writing book and began writing. The more i wrote the less angry i became. It was such a stress reliever. Writing in my book took a so much time, that i barely noticed it was close to the time i should be leaving. As i was leaving out, i noticed Daniel was still gone,so i figured i would ask Solo if she wanted to come with me today to my shoot.


(Bey) "Hey Solo, you want to come with me to my shoot?"


(Solo) rises up off the couch "Yea,i'll go. I don't know what time Daniel is suppose to be coming, but i'll call and let him know."


(Bey) "Okay cool."


(Solo) "Just let me run up and change real quick.'


(Bey) "Alright thats fine."


i waited for Solo to go up and change. After about 20 mins, she was coming back down. I still had enough time to make it to my shoot on time. We got there and as usual the paparazzi was there, Julius was already on guard. He is either already at the place i am going  or he'll drive or ride with me. Depending on the event, i normally just have him meet me their. As we were walking in there were reporters asking to speak with me. Some questions were pertaining to rumors and story's they heard about Tony and other's were rumors and stories they've heard about Shawn. But i don't feed into the press though, I'm normally good at dancing around their questions. I hate when they are all up in my business, in know thats the type of lifestyle i have, but i try to keep my personal life and my public life separate.  After hair and makeup  it was time to shoot. Solo just sort of stood around and snapped a few pictures of her own. Today' shoot we just played around with different scenarios, using different props. 

After about another 4 hr shoot, i was set to leave. I have so much fun shooting, as always. Its fun acting out scenarios and playing around with props. I get so lost in character that it feels like I'm a completely different person. As solo and I were leaving out we were bombarded by the press again. I was trying to get the hell in the car as fast as i could, i didn't have the time nor the patience to sit and deal with them.

                                                

The minute i got in the car Shawn started calling.

..................(Phone Convo)

(Bey) "Hello."

(Shawn) "Hey, whats all that noise?"

(Bey) "The paparazzi and the press snapping pictures and asking questions and what not." i said pulling off.

(Shawn) "Are you okay, you sound mad?"

(Bey) "Yea im okay, I'm just ready to get home thats all."

(Shawn) "Oh well...uhm..."

I could tell he wanted something but i guess he figured he didn't want to because he thought i was irritated or something.

(Bey) "What do you want?"


(Shawn) "I aint want nothing, just was gonna see if you were gonna come by the studio."


(Bey) "Well i have Solo with me."


(Shawn) "Well its cool."


(Bey) "Why do you want me too?"


(Shawn) "I mean well you said you got Solo with you so....i mean its on you."


*Sighs* He was starting to irritate me more than i already was.


(Bey) "Hold on a min" i said pulling the phone away from my ear "Solo, you wanna go to the studio."


(Solo) "Sure it don't matter."


(Bey) "Well i guess I'm on the way."


(Shawn) "Alright, ill see you when you get here."


I didn't even say anything back, i just hung up. I don't know why i was so mad though, i guess that shit with Tony was getting to me. It seems like once I'm good and happy, i get right back mad, sad, or miserable. I hate that i let him get to me like that. I mean but what do you expect after being with someone for so long. I grew more angry thinking about it, i just needed to do something to calm my nerves. I didn't want to take my frustration out on anyone.

We arrived to the studio not long after pulling off from the set. We got inside and it was Ye, Shawn, and a few other guys. My irritability level once against started rising. I wasnt in the mood to deal with people, i just wanted to just chill. Everybody was either standing or sitting, talking, laughing, and just joking around. They were so busy talking and what not, that i don't even think Shawn noticed that Solo and I even came in. We just sort of sat around until Ye finally noticed we were there.


(Ye) "Aw shit, whats up Bey, whats Solo dolo?" he said making his way over to us.


I just gave him a simple "Hey" and Solo got up to hug him saying "whats up Uncle Ye."


Shawn then started to make his way over to us as well. We he came over he greeted Solo first because she was still standing. I was still sitting down just looking around, observing everybody. 


(Shawn) "Hey you" he said nudging my arm.


I guess he could since that i was annoyed so he tried testing my behavior to see my reaction. I just set there with my arms crossed, just staring at him. I wasn't trying to be mean or anything, i just really wasn't in the mood. Shawn just stood there staring back at me for a moment, then he finally asked what was wrong with me.


(Shawn) "Whats wrong with you?"


(Bey) "Nothing, like i told you earlier I'm fine."


(Shawn) "I know your lying, so you mine as well just tell me."


(Bey) "I said I'm okay." i said with a bit of an attitude.


Shawn just looked at me with a funny face for a minute, before saying something else.


(Shawn) taps Bey's arm "Come on, lets go talk." 


(Shawn's thoughts) 
I knew something was bothering Bey. She's been having this same little attitude from when i spoke with her on the phone. I was a little upset because she was taking it out on me and i aint even did shit. I also don't seeing her like that. I also hate when she don't tell me shit, it makes me mad. I just had to get down to the bottom of it.


I got up and followed after him. The way he said it, it wasn't like he was asking me, it was more like he was telling me. I followed him down the hall to his office. After walking in, he closed the door behind me and went and sat behind his desk, as i just stood there at the door, still with my arms folded.


(Shawn) "What's your problem man, you been having an attitude since i spoke with you, i told you, you aint have to come if you aint want to." he sounded now, like he had an attitude.


(Bey) mumbling "I don't have a problem."


(Shawn) leans forward in his chair "Huh, I'm sorry i can't hear you, you gonna have to speak a little louder."


(Bey) "I said i don't have an attitude." i said with frustration.


(Shawn) "Look i don't know why you have an attitude and especially with me so until you tell me whats going on, we could play this game all day."


(Bey) rolls her eyes and walks to go sit down. "Im just not in the mood for anything thats all."


(Shawn) "And why is that?"


(Bey) "Just because...."


(Shawn) "Because of what?"


I started tearing up a bit, i was becoming frustrated because i was letting Tony's nonsense once again get in the way of Shawn's and I relationship.


(Shawn) "What are you crying for?" he asked all concerned and confused.


(Bey) look off away from Shawn "Because I'm just so frustrated."


(Shawn) "Your gonna have to elaborate more Bey, i don't know whats going on in your head."


(Bey) sighs and takes a deep breath "It's Antonio...."


(Shawn) "Antonio, what the fuck did he do?" he started getting all mad.


(Bey) "Nothing, i mean well i found out some information today that just sort of caught me off guard."


(Shawn) "Like?"


(Bey) "Well remember that girl who i told you he has a baby with?" i could feel the tears start to flow the more i talked.


(Shawn) "Yea what about her?"


(Bey) "Well i found out he's getting married to her and we haven't been broken up for no more than a month."


(Shawn) sits back in his chair "Why are you even tripping about that? I mean i know your still emotionally connected to him, but you can't let him get the best of you because once you do than it's gonna not only going to effect you, but us."


(Bey) "I know, that the thing the frustrates me the most. No matter how hard i try to play it off as if i don't care, i know deep inside i actually do."


(Shawn) "Come here" he said all sentimental.


I walked over to Shawn and he placed me on his lap.


(Shawn) "You see how much fun you've been having these past few weeks."


(Bey) "Yea."


(Shawn) "You see how much happier you've been in these past couple of weeks."


(Bey) sniffs "Yea."


(Shawn) "So why take that away and make your self all miserable and sad."


(Bey) "I don't know."


(Shawn) "See my point exactly." he said wiping Bey's eyes. "You are way stronger than that. You don't ever want to feel like a guy has that much power over you. I mean i know your still young and me i'm speaking from experience, but trust me when i say you'll look back one day and say he was the best thing you never had and your gonna be lucky to have dodged that bullet. This is your first broken heart, but i promise you if you give me a chance, i can make it your last."




(Bey's thoughts)
I was so flushed away with Shawn's words of wisdom. He was always saying  and i means always saying all the right things. All the things that i needed to hear. He was right about a lot of things. I was still young and this was my first heart breaking moment. Which was probably why i still get worked up about things. When Shawn told me if i give him a chance, he promises it will be my last, i just lit up on the inside. I knew that everything that Shawn was saying was real. I mean he was a whole lot older than me, so i know he's a lot more experienced than i am, but I'm willing to take a risk and take a chance. I mean who knows where Shawn and I will end up, maybe 5 or 10 years from now, well be married with kids or maybe we want but i was willing to find out. 


(Bey) "I could never stay mad or sad, when I'm with you."


(Shawn) "I know cuz I'm the man."


(Bey) chuckles "If you say so." i teased.


(Shawn) "Yea you know i am, now give Pop Pop some kisses." he said poking out his lips.


I smiled at Shawn and went in to kiss him, but it wasn't long until that kiss became more passionate. Shawn and I started kissing longer and more aggressively. I repositioned myself so that i was sitting on Shawn, facing towards him.  He started tonguing me down and kissing all over my neck. I gripped onto Shawn tighter and started grinding my pelvis against Shawn's completely aroused penis. He took his hands and slid them up my shirt caressing my soft smooth skin. I begin to moan lightly as i felt Shawn's tongue slide down my neck down to my breast. He began to bite down on my breast through my shirt, but not hard enough to hurt me, but hard enough to wear i could enjoy it. He than stood and placed me upon his desk and started loosening his belt and his pants, as did i. I just knew we were about to get it in but the minute he started sliding down my pants, someone started knocking at the door. 


KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK.


Shawn held on to me as i laid on the desk and dropped his head down to upon my chest in disbelief.


(Shawn) mumbles "Man aint this some shit."


(Bey) chuckles




KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK.


They started knocking again and this time they started yelling through the door.


(the voice) "Aye Jay man, wtf you doing in there bro? I been looking all over for you."


It was Ye.


(Shawn) mumbles "This nigga man." he said chuckling "I aint doing shit man, i about to be out in a min though." he yelled back.


(Ye) yelling back "Alright."


Shawn rises up off of Bey, so that they both can fix themselves. The look in both of theirs eyes were priceless. They both were pretty bummed out because they were interrupted.


(Shawn) walking to the door "Remind me to whoop his ass." shawn joked.


(Bey) laughing "You are too silly, but no need i'll just make it up to you later." i said winking at Shawn.


(Shawn) opening the door to walk out "Shiiiiiiit, bet." he said letting out laugh.


When the walked out, Ye was out in the hallway waiting for them.


(Shawn) "Man wtf you want?" shawn said playfully.


(Ye) laughing "Aye man Donald was looking for you" he starts looking back and forth between Bey and Shawn. "My bad, uuuuuh was i interrupting something."


(Bey) lets out a laugh.


(Shawn) smirking "Don't worry about it bro" they all begin to walk back down to the studio "it's all taken care of."


(Ye) just burst out laughing


They are all back into the studio.


(Solo) "Omg Bey, i am having so much fun. Ye let me make some beats and create some sounds for him."


(Bey) "Aw really thats whats up."


(Ye) "Aw Jay man, niecy is dope with the beat making, i was DAAAAYUUUUUUUUUM!"


(Shawn) cracks a smile "So you good at beat making huh?" he said talking to Solo.


(Solo) "Uhm hmm, it was something i just sort of picked up. When i was back in houston my friend let me Dj one her parties."


(Shawn) "Word."


(Solo) nodding her head "Yup"


(Shawn) "Well what if i told you, i could hook you up with a couple of gigs, you know where you could Dj and shit."


(Solo) "Omg Really" she said becoming filled with excitement.


(Shawn) "Yea, if you really serious about it though."


(Solo) Goes to hug Shawn "Yes i am serious, thats been something that i always wanted to do, omg thank you."


(Shawn) "Your welcome, just make sure you don't let it interfere with your schooling."


(Solo) "Oh that want be a problem. I just talked to my mom a few days ago, about letting me get home schooled so that i could graduate early."


(Shawn) "Alright bet, ima make a few calls and what not and get back at you, and then we gonna see whats up."


(Solo) ''YES, i can't wait." she said all excitedly.


(Shawn) turns to look at Bey "So what yal about to do, yal gonna chill out here or yal going back to the house."


(Bey) "I think we're gonna head back to the house." its getting late and i wanna get showered and stuff.


(Shawn) "Alright, then.....let me walk yal out." looks at Ye "Aye bro I'm about to walk them out real quick."


(Ye) "Alright."


(Shawn) getting downstairs "Okay, ima see you when i get home right?" he said kissing Bey. Solo is already in the car.


(Bey) "Yea, what time you be there?"


(Shawn) "Uhm as soon as i finish up here, about another hour or so."


(Bey) kisses Shawn "Okay, well just call me on you way home."


(Shawn) kisses Bey yet another time "Alright" as Bey walks away he smacks her on the butt "Be ready when i get there too."


(Bey) smiles "Okay" i said, going to get in the car.


After saying my goodbyes to Shawn, i went straight home. It was going on 9 o'clock. I was so hungry for not having eating anything all day. The cereal i had this morning was not enough to hold me over. I tried to sneak and eat something while i was on set, but i kept getting caught. After finally getting home i went straight up stairs to shower. Daniel was also there too. Solo went to chill with Daniel and told him all about what Shawn told her. Shortly after showering i went and fixed me something to eat. I made a grilled cheese i just really had a craving for one, but not on no pregnant type of crave. Meanwhile Solo and Daniel were off to bed. After i was done eating, i went up stairs and tried to stay up and wait for Shawn but after about 2 hours of waiting i fell asleep. I was so exhausted from today and the night before that i dozed off with out even knowing. A half and hour later Shawn came home. Hmp! Hour or so my ass. I knew he was gonna be a little disappointed that i fell asleep but he was gonna get over it. I felt him get in bed and everything but i was just too tired to get up. So off to be we went, no sex at all.




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