Chapter 14 "Where it All Began"

A few days has past since the whole outing with the girls. Things between Shawn and I were picking up. As the days went on I begin to think less and less about Tony. I was in the mood for some cleaning,  this what my day to really just let go.  Shawn was away handling business as usual and I was headed to my place. Out with the old and in with the new. It was time for Tony to go. I gathered every piece of item that was Tony's i could find and packed it all up. This was my house, I paid for, I've been living in, and i worked to damn hard to just give it up. After packing up all of Tony's things, including his ring, i called for a moving company to come get it and move it into a storage. I also called for a locksmiths to come change the locks and made an appointment with a home interior decorator, to come redecorate my place because baby when i move on, i move on to bigger and better things. As for the dog, he could keep it where ever he has it. After the movers came, I called for Shawn to come get me, my last and final thing was to return the car.  I didnt need shit from him nor did i want to keep anything. He was now truly a non factor in my life. After going to the dealership and returning the car. Shawn and I headed home, well back to his place and just to chill out and watch some tv. I was loving how things between Shawn and I were turning out. I don't think i've ever been happier. I couldn't help but lay under Shawn and just admire him and how's he's been making me feel. The thoughts that goes through my head, man ol man, the things i jus want to do to this man.

(Shawn) "What you smiling about?" he said looking at me.

(Bey) "Nothing..." i said chuckling.

(Shawn) "Yea okay...." he said tickling me a bit.

(Bey) giggling "Stoooooop."

(Shawn) "So did you get everything you needed to get done, done today?"

(Bey) "Yea. I meet with the decorator on Friday."

(Shawn) "You know you could just stay with me right? I mean i dont mind." he said joking but really serious.

(Bey)  starts sitting up "Im flattered, but as much as i like being here i still love that i am able to come or go as i please."

(Shawn) "Yea i understand, but you know, your always welcomed!"

(Bey) "Yea i know." I said kissing him on the cheek.

Bey pops up off the couch and goes into the kitchen. 

(Bey) yelling from the kitchen "Hey do you want anything while I'm in here."


(Shawn) yelling back "No I'm cool." then starts to think "No i changed my mind ca--"


Bey comes back into the living room with a plate of cherries and a beer and hands it to Shawn.


(Shawn) Shawn opens his beer and takes a sip  "How you know i was gonna ask for that?" he said side eyeing Bey.


(Bey) "Because i know you thats why!"


(Shawn) "Oh yea.....what you know?"


(Bey) "Well for instance you sleep on the left side of the bed, ALWAYS. You wake up early, every morning just to watch the news, and for breakfast you always eat a bowl of captain crunch."


(Shawn) smirking "Oh so you think you know me huh?"


(Bey) nodding her head "Yuuuup."


(Shawn) "Well why you talking, let's talk about how every time you sleep you are either curled up under a pillow or me, or the fact that you sing in the shower, or your tendency to always nibble in your bottom lip, which might i add is such a turn on." he said all flirtatious.


(Bey) "Oh gosh, hush up" she said eating another cherry "You wanna said what i could do?"


(Shawn) "What?"


(Bey) "Watch."


Bey takes the cherry and eats it and when she spits out the stem and it's tied together.


(Shawn) "Oh shit.....i see somebody know how to work there tongue." he teased.


(Bey) "You are a sick" i said laughing


(Shawn) "Well what am i suppose to do when your doing shit like that?" he said laughing.


(Bey) rolls her eyes "So i forgot to tell you."


(Shawn) "Tell me what?"


(Bey) "That Kelly and Kanye are messing around?"


(Shawn) "What, word?" he said sounding all surprised "How you know?"


(Bey) "Because i know things, remember." i teased.


(Shawn) "Keep getting smart with me, you hear." he said attempting to tickle me, but i got away from him. "But that would cool as hell, to 2 would be something else together."


(Bey) "Yea they would."


(Shawn) "We should all get together sometime and do something."


(Bey) "Yea that would be nice."


Shawn and I sat on the couch and watched some more tv, talking, until i fell asleep on him. I slept for about a good 1 or 2 before waking up to my phone ringing, it was Gwyn.


.....(Phone Convo)


(Bey) "Hello"


(Gwyn) "Bey, hey girl, how ya been? I haven't talked to you in a minute."


(Bey) "Yea, i know. I've been alright, how've you been?"


(Gwyn) "I've been great, just been busy shooting and what not. You know how that goes."


(Bey) chuckling "Yea."


(Gwyn) "Well i was calling because i needed your help planning a surprise party for Chris and i knew you would be great at it."


(Bey) "Gwyn, you know they have professionals for that."


(Gwyn) "Yea, but i want you to help out. I don't got time to be dealing with all those others people."


(Bey) chuckling "Okay Gwyn, i got you......and make sure you tell Chris i said hey."


(Gwyn) "Ok I will."


(Bey) "So wait, whats the surprise for anyway?"


(Gwyn) "Oh yea, well he just finished his album and it's ranked in the top 20 for billboard and his first concert was a sell out."


(Bey) "Oh thats good, I'm so proud of him. But sure i'll help out. When you plan on having it?"


(Gwyn) "I wanna do it sometime over the next 2 1/2 weeks. Im tryna have it done before thanksgiving because i have a trip planned for us."


(Bey) "Gosh so sudden" i said letting out a laugh "No problem, i'll be glad too."


(Gwyn) "Oh great, so i'll call you tomorrow maybe we can meet up or something, i'll let you know."


(Bey) "Okay girl"


(Gwyn) "Alright"


(Bey) "Byyyyye" hangs up


After hanging up with Gwyn, I got up to got look for Shawn. I called around for him but he didn't answer so i figured he was gone or something. After waking up i had to pee so bad, I went into the bathroom I saw Shawn getting out the shower with no towel or anything tho cover him up. I shut the door quickly and fell out laughing on the bed, i felt so awkward.


(Bey) "OMG Shawn" i yelled to the bathroom "You didn't hear me calling for you." i couldn't stop laughing.


(Shawn) stepping out of the bathroom, but this time in a towel "No and haven't you heard of knocking" he said chuckling.


(Bey) "Oh fine time to put a towel on...." i said sarcastically.


(Shawn) "Oh whatever, you know you wanna look." he said grabbing on to his towel as if he was gonna take it off.


(Bey) "Please" i said trying to cover my eyes "I saw enough."


(Shawn) smirking "i bet you did." goes to his closet and pulls out some clothes.


(Bey) Laughing "Whatever punk, but where you off too?"


(Shawn) beginning to get dress "Oh Ye, wants me to go with him to some bar tonight for something i forgot though."


(Bey) looking at Shawn getting dress "Uh do you mind?"


(Shawn) "what?" he said pulling up his boxer's "You were going to see it eventually." he said joking.


(Bey) rolls eyes "You are a trip, but your gonna leave me alone tonight?" i said pouting.


(Shawn) putting on the rest of his clothes "Aw don't act like that, i'll be back in a few hours. I'm just going to chill with Ye and have a couple of drinks and I'll be home so we hang tonight."


(Bey) trying to act all sad "Well okay, i guess i'll just pig out and watch a movie by myself."


(Shawn) "You are such a baby" he said gong to kiss her on the cheek "Look I'm about to head out, you want me to bring you anything home." starts walking to the door.


(Bey) walking behind him "No, just you." i said all flirtatious.


(Shawn) chuckles and turns around to Bey "Okay now.....!"


(Bey) laughing "Alright, you go and have some fun, call me when you on your way." opens door


(Shawn) Walking out and kisses Bey again "Alright, see you in a few."


After Shawn left, i couldn't stop thinking about seeing him naked. I thought it was so funny.  But, hmp......dude is packing. Man the thoughts that were going on in my head when i see him. I was missing Shawn, I couldnt wait for him to come back home.


****(At the Bar when Kanye and Shawn)


-(Shawns Point of View)
Ye and I were at the bar having us a good ol time. Ye was like a brother to me, i met him coming into the industry, he was a new artist and i was already established. From day one, he's been real as hell and he and i have been good friends since then.


(Shawn) laughing at something Ye had said "Haaa, Ye you silly man."


(Ye) "Aye, but you know I'm right though." starts looking off in the crowd and notices some guy, taps Shawn "Aye bro, aint that, that dude Markis the one you been telling me about."


(Shawn) takes another sips of his drink and puts it down, "It sure is, aye hold up man i'll be right back."


Shawn walkes over to Markis and he is mugging him real hard. The thing with Markis and Shawn is that they used to be buddies, but once Shawn started making a name for his self, Markis became jealous and  started bad mouthing Shawn. He would take Shawn's merchandise like clothes, albums, and other things and bootleg them, practically making money off of Shawn's names. When Shawn found out that Markis was stealing from him, he swore that the day that he saw Markis he was going to "handle" him. Markis was sitting at the bar drinking, when he saw Shawn walking up he automatically took defense because he knew it was about to go down.


(Shawn) walking up to Markis, Ye and all his guys were walking up as well "Whats up Man, long time no see!" he said in a tough tone.


(Markis) standing up from the bar with his boys behind him "Yea, last i heard from you, you was threatening to kill me." he said smirking.


(Shawn) pulling something out his pocket "I don't make threats nigga, i make promises"


And with that being said, Shawn grabbed a hold  of Markis and started stabbing him. A big fight broke out in the crowd, Markis boys vs. Shawn boys. It was getting pretty bad, bottles were being thrown and shots are being fired. Shawn was really giving it to Markis. There was blood everywhere. It wasn't long though before security came and broke it up.


(Ye) grabbing Shawn "Aye Jay man, we gotta get up outta here."


(Shawn) "Come on, lets go."


Shawn threw the knife and he and Ye made a run for it, but they didn't get very far because the police had the place surrounded. Both Ye and Shawn were placed under arrest, and as for Markis he was rushed to the hospital.




***(Back at Shawn's Place with Beyonce)
 I was in the middle of fixing me something to eat, when i got the call that Shawn was placed under arrest. Kelly had called me telling me that Kanye called her. She explained to me everything that happened. When she told me that they ere being charged with attempt to murder, I couldn't believe it. Not Shawn, not this loving, sweet, caring man. I just knew they it had to be false, but it wasn't.


........(Phone Convo)


(Bey) "Well i be able to talk too Shawn, I mean can i go see him."


(Kelly) "I don't know, i don't think they're letting him talk to anyone....but I'm headed out the door, I'm about to come over. I'll see you when i get there."


(Bey) "Okay."


I waited anxiously for Kelly to get here. My nerves were really bad, My mind was racing, and my emotions once again were all over the place. I was for sure he was coming home tonight. Things were not making since. Attempt to murder? The Shawn i knew wouldn't harm a fly, i was just so confused. I needed answers.


KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK. It was Kelly at the door. I quickly opened the door to let her in.


(Kelly) walking in "OMG, this is some crazy shit."


(Bey) "Who you telling.......it just doesn't make sense."


(Kelly) walking around "Where's the kitchen, i need a drink."


(Bey) leading Kelly to the kitchen and pulling out 2 glasses and a bottle of wine.


(Kelly) takes a glass "I just can't believe it. When i was talking to Kanye he was telling me the guy that Shawn got into with was some guy from the past and that Shawn said that if he ever saw him again that he was going to kill him."


(Bey) "What?!"


(Kelly) "Yea. I know, i said the same thing."


(Bey) "i gotta sit down, this shit got me bugging out."


We went into the living room to sit down and i turned on the tv and then minute i did, it was a breaking news report about Shawn and Kanye and what had happened. They had a picture of their mugshots plastered on the tv saying how they were being charged with attempt to murder. Kelly and I just looked at each other in disbelief. I couldn't believe that this all was happening. Kelly and i talked some more about the situation. We didn't hear from neither one of them for the rest of the night. Kelly went back to her place and I stayed at Shawn's just incase he was released and sent home. Kelly and i agreed to call each other the minute we heard from the police or any of them.




It's been 4 days since the night Shawn went to jail. I haven't spoke to him at all. I even tried calling and going up there but they wouldn't release any information pertaining to him. On that 4th morning,  i awoke to a phone call it was Shawn. Words couldn't express how excited i was to hear his voice.


(Bey) "oh my god Shawn, are you okay?"


(Shawn) "Yea, I'm fine. Did i wake you?"


(Bey) sitting up "No, i was already getting up anyway. So whats up, do you need anything?"


(Shawn) "No I'm good. I actually on my way home, i just finished meeting with my lawyer. He got them to release me on a bond for half a mil."


(Bey) "Shawn thats good" i said getting all excited.


(Shawn) "Yea, i'll say."


(Bey) "And what about Kanye?"


(Shawn) "Kanye's he's good, they let him go to."


(Bey) "Okay, cool. Well I'm just glad your out, i can't wait to see you."


(Shawn) "Yea me too, but let me get off this phone. I'll see you in a bit, alright."


(Bey) "Okay."


It felt good hearing Shawn's voice. I was so happy that he was able to come home. I called Kelly to let her know but apparently she talked to Kanye already. I got out of bed and hurried with my shower and got dressed. I had no idea what time Shawn was coming but i wanted to be ready for when he do get here. Knowing I'm not the best cook, i decided though i would try to make Shawn some breakfast. I had a 2 o'clock meeting with my team for my fashion line, and i wanted to get as much time in with Shawn as possible. The fact that he was only gone for 4 days, made me think about if he would have been gone longer. Shawn was the only thing keeping me sane since breaking up with Tony. I needed him, i couldn't stand the thought of us being apart. I guess it's safe to say that i was actually falling in love with him, it seems sudden but thats is how i was feeling. Shawn was coming in as soon as I was setting the table.

(Bey) "Shaaaaaaaawn" i said rushing over to greet him.

(Shawn) "Hey...." starts sniffing around "Did you cook?"

(Bey) "Yea" i said leaving him towards the kitchen "I hope you like it."

(Shawn) "I've never knew you could cook."

(Bey) chuckling "Yea i know. But i tried.  I did it especially for you."

(Shawn) smiling "Aw look at you." giving Bey a kiss "You going somewhere today?" he asked after noticing Bey all dressed up.

(Bey) sitting down to eat "Yea. I have a meeting with my team for the fashion line at 2."

(Shawn) "Oh okay."

(Bey) "We--"

(Shawn) cutting Bey off  "Look Beyonce, i want to apologize for about what happened. I just got caught up in the heat of the moment, sitting in that just cell really had me thinking about things." he said sitting down.

(Bey) "Shawn, It's fine, I'm just glad that you are okay. I mean i don't know what i would have done with out you."

(Shawn) "Yea me too and sitting in that cell made me realize that, I don't ever want to put you through anything like that again.......EVER!" he said grabbing my hand.

(Bey) "Your home now so lets just put it behind us..."

(Shawn) "Cool......" taking a bite into his food "Mm. You made this?"

(Bey) "You like it?" i asked getting a bit excited.

(Shawn) "Na, not really...." he starts laughing "Na I'm just playing."

(Bey) "You get on my nerves, cuz i was about to say...."

(Shawn) "You wasn't about to say nothing."

(Bey) "You are such a punk."

(Shawn) "Aw don't call me names because you can't cook." he said teasing me.

(Bey) "But your eating it though, huh"

(Shawn) laughs "Well who am I to turn down a meal?"

(Bey) "I'll give your ass something i know for sure you want turn down." i said all flirtatious.

(Shawn) puts down forks and side eye's Bey "You better stop playing for i hop over this table on you" he said half way serious.

(Bey) taking a sip of juice "Who stopping you?" i teased.

(Shawn) "Oh you think I'm playing....."

Before i knew it he got up. I tried to get up and run but he caught from behind. We were in the middle of the dinning room wrestling and playing around. I must admit, i was getting a little turned on.

(Shawn) "Now what was all that you were talking about?" he said still holding from behind.

(Bey) "You heard what i said punk!" i said still talking mess.

(Shawn) "What i tell you about that smart ass mouth." he said and started tickling on me.

When he did that i got weak, i dropped down to the floor from laughing so hard.

(Bey) laughing hard "Okay.....Sorry, I learned my lesson."

Shawn has Bey pent down to the floor and is still tickling her.

(Shawn) "Now say, sorry Jay. Noooooo, say sorry big daddy Jay."

(Bey) "I want" i said and he started tickling me even harder "Okay, Im sorry big daddy Jay."

(Shawn) "Say it like you mean it?" he teased. 

Shawn was really getting a kick out of this.

(Bey) "Im sorry BIG daddy Jay." i said in my seductive voice.

(Shawn) "Now say, i want ever talk to you like that again."

(Bey) "And i want ever talk to you like that again."

(Shawn) smack Beys butt "Alright you can get up now"

Bey was still laying on the floor and Shawn was still standing over her.

(Bey) Trying to get up "Dang your not gonna help me up?"

(Shawn) "Nope" he said sarcastically, then helps bey back up.

Bey just gets up and stares at Shawn with a smirk on her face.

(Shawn) "Oh what you got something to say." he said grabbing on Bey again.

(Bey) "No, i learned my lesson." i said trying to surrender.

(Shawn) "I bet you did" he said letting Bey go.

(Bey) going back to the table "Are you done eating?"

(Shawn) "Yea."

(Bey) "Okay. Well I'm about to clean this table off and get these dishes cleaned."

(Shawn) "Alright."

Bey goes into the kitchen and washes the dishes and cleans off the dining room table, while Shawn goes into the living room and watch tv. After Bey was done in the kitchen she goes and joins him.

(Bey) goes to sit next to Shawn "So watch you watching, i got some time to spare."

(Shawn) "ESPN, catching up on last nights games."   

(Bey) "Oh okay."

(Shawn) "Why you wanted to watch something?"

(Bey) "No i was just coming to chill with you until i leave, I'm fine watching this."

(Shawn) "Oh alright."

Shawn and I just sat on the couch watching tv until it was time for me to go. After leaving from Shawn's place I headed straight to my office. Being that i still didn't have a car, i drove one of Shawn's. I met up with my team to discuss the project for my launch. my team consisted of my self, my stylist Ty, my cousin Angie, my mom, a few designers and investors. Unfortunately my mom was back in Houston so she wasn't there. We talked about the style, who our audience would be, the pricing, the budget range, the locations, what we would expect, you know pretty much everything that needed to get covered. From there we decided who was going to cover what. It felt good to be back working.  But because I'm pregnant i had to take a break from modeling, thank god though for this line i got about to come out, i hate not working. It's just something that i enjoy doing. My meeting in the office ran for about 4 hours. I stayed for an extra hour or so just putting together sue things. After leaving, I called Gwyn because i had a missed call from her. 

.................(Phone Convo)

(Bey) "Hey Gwyn, whats up? I was in a meeting earlier so i couldn't answer."

(Gwyn) I was just calling because instead of meeting up i was just thinking i could email some ideas of what it is I'm looking for and you could just put it together and go from there."

(Bey) "Sure, it doesn't matter. What ever is good for you."

(Gwyn) "Great because the new movie that I'm working on is taking up a lot of my time."

(Bey) "Oh no I understand."

(Gwyn) "Alright, so i'll send you an email by tonight and call me if you have any questions or concerns."

(Bey) "K"

(Gwyn) "Alright babes talk to you later."

(Bey) "Okay..." hangs up.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       

I was now heading home and i realized i haven't received a call or text from Shawn. He normally calls or sends me a text to check up on me and see what I'm doing. I tried calling but his phone went straight to voicemail. I even tried texting, but i was getting no reply. I started panicking because i was thinking about last night and if the police had came back to come pick him up and all these crazy things were just racing in my head. I began to rush home. I was so worried i couldn't stop thinking negative. I became even more worried when i pulled up and didn't see Shawn's car. I rushed to the door and when i opened it my mouth dropped. I walked in the door and were candles and rose petals all around. He had the table set and the music playing in the background, Luther Vandross i believe. I was so speechless. 

(Bey) "Shawn...?" i called out. 

(Shawns) walking out from the bedroom "Yes?"

(Bey) Walking towards him "What is all this?"

(Shawn) "This is for you?"

(Bey) "Me? What for?" i asked a little confused.

(Shawn) "No reason. Juts because. I just wanted to do something special for you that's all."

(Bey) I set my purse and my phone down on the couch and started walking more towards the back.

(Shawn) "Why you looking like that?"

(Bey) "Because I'm shocked, nobody has ever done anything like this for me before. I mean i've always been treated too but I never been catered to."

(Shawn) "Well tonight is your night." he said walking up to hug on me.

(Bey) "Well can i at least get showered and a little cleaned up, i've been in these clothes all day."

(Shawn) "Sure of course, i've already ran you some bad water."

(Bey) kisses Shawn "You are just too sweet. I want take long."

(Shawn) "Take all the time you need."

I went into the bathroom and that too was lit up with candles. I stripped out of my clothes and climbed into the tub. The water was freshly ran, i could see the steam come from out the tub as i slowly sat down.

KNOCK.KNOCK.KNOCK.

(Shawn) peeking his head around the door "Can i come in?"

(Bey) looks up at him "Sure."

In walks Shawn with a glass of wine and a plate of strawberries.

(Shawn) sitting on the edge of the tub "Here, this is for you." he said handing me the glass "i brought you these strawberries because it brings out the taste in the wine, here go head and try" he said picking a strawberry to feed me.

I took a sip of my wine and took a bite out of the strawberry.

(Bey) "Mm, you right that does taste good."

(Shawn) sitting down the plate of strawberries "Well i'll leave you be, just call me if you need anything."

(Bey) "Okay."

(Bey's thoughts) Wow, is all i could say. Things with Shawn have been so great. He is so unpredictable. I love how he keeps me on my toes. Like tonight, i was not expecting this. It's not even my birthday or anything. I am so fascinated by him an all that he is doing. Gosh he makes me want him so bad. I am loving everything about this man. He's nothing like Tony. I would say he is much greater. Tony has never once in his life did anything like this. He was always tryna showboat something. Thinking about him is just making me sick to my stomach.

After bathing for about 30 mins, i toweled dried my hair and threw on something i could both wear and fall asleep in. I made sure i looked cute. I walked out into the dinning room and saw Shawn already sitting at the table, so i sat right next to him. All of a sudden i got butterflies, i felt like a girl back i high school going on her first date with a boy.

(Shawn) "Whats wrong?" shawn asks i was sitting down.

(Bey) "Nothing." i shyly answered.

(Shawn) "You seem all nervous or something?"

(Bey) "What? I'm not nervous, I'm just a bit cold after getting out the tub." i said lying.

(Shawn) "I mean i understand if i make you nervous or something, i tend to have that effect on people." he said playfully.

(Bey) smack his arm "You are so silly."

(Shawn) "Ow, You are so abusive."

(Bey) chuckling "No your just a big baby...." i teased.

(Shawn) "But I'm your baby though."

(Bey) "Yes you are..." i said kissing him on the cheek.

Shawn and I started eating. The food was so good. I didn't even know he could cook. I swear i thought we would be going out to eat or ordering takeout every night. When we were close to done eating, Patti Labelle's song "If only you knew" started playing. I watched Shawn as he got up from the table. I had no clue what he was doing but i knew he was up to something.

(Shawn) starts dancing around "Come on lets dance."

(Bey) starts laughing "What?"

(Shawn) "Lets dance" he said grabbing my hand to get up.

(Bey) "Gosh, could you be more aggressive" i joked.

(Shawn) pulls Bey in close "Don't act like you don't like it."

(Bey) rolls her eyes at Shawn "Whatever punk."

Shawn and I danced for a brief minute, well until the song was over. I got so lost in dancing with Shawn that i practically fell asleep in his arms. I was loving every minute of tonight. And i was feeling Shawn even more. This man just does something to me. Something i can't explain. I can honestly say the only thing i don't regret from being with Tony is meeting Shawn, he was such a good man.

(Shawn) holding bey by the hand "follow me, i got something for you."

(Bey) "Okay."

I followed Shawn into the bedroom. He reached in the top drawer of his night stand and pulled out a small box. When i saw that small black box, i didn't know what to think? I was hoping he was not about to propose to me. I started to get a little nervous.

(Shawn) noticing Bey's face expression "Relax it's not a ring" he said chuckling.

(Bey) "Well what it is?"

(Shawn) "Well it's nothing major, but i knew it was something you would like." he said handing me the box.

When i opened the box, i saw a charm piece of a roman numeral 4 in there. I was relieved it was a ring. I must say i was expecting to see some earrings or a necklace or something.

(Shawn) looking at Bey as she opens the box "I read in a magazine that your lucky number is 4 and when i was in the store the other day, i saw this and figured it would go great with your charm bracelet and figured you could add this on there."

Although the gift wasn't diamonds or nothing fancy, the thought behind it was priceless. It was something that represented me, something i'll be able to cherish and keep with me.

(Bey) "I see you been doing your homework" i chuckled, kissing Shawn "I looooooooooove it, Thank you."

(Shawn) "I knew you would and your welcome."

(Bey) sitting down on the bed and falls back "*Sighs* Today has been an absolute long day."

(Shawn) sitting down  next to Bey "I hear ya...." grabs one of Bey's feet and starts rubbing it.

(Bey) "Shawn, i can't with you right now. You are just too much."

(Shawn) "I told you tonight is your night, so just enjoy it."

(Bey) smiles "Im trying..."

(Shawn) "Just relax...." he said as he turned Bey over.

(Bey's thoughts)

When i felt Shawn climbed onto the back of me, i thought i was having deja vu or something. It felt just like my dream. Especially when i felt his hands all over my back, i could have sworn i was dreaming, but i wasn't, this was all real.

(Bey) letting out a chuckle

(Shawn) rubbing on Bey's back "Whats so funny?"

(Bey) "Oh nothing, just had a little case of deja vu thats all."

(Shawn) starts laughing "Oh, yea...."

Shawn massaged my back for a few more minutes. Laying there, all i could do was just think about all the things i wanted to do to him, and shit, let him do to me. His hands were so warm and firm and he sure knew how to use them. The thoughts that were going through my head right now, good lord, i just couldn't help myself. 

(Shawn's thoughts) Beyonce has been through a lot these past 2 months. I just want to get her back to her normal self again. It's been a while since she's been happy and thats all i want to do. When i was sitting in jail last night, the only thing that scared me was not being able to see her, hold her in my arms, tell her how beautiful she looks, and tell her how much I love her. Wait, did i just say i love her. Well damn i guess i do. I don't think i could ever tell her though, it's just too soon. She just getting out of a relationship she needs sometime to breathe. I'll tell her though soon, when the timing is right, but now is just not the time.

(Shawn) Now laying next to Bey "You look so beautiful" he said looking her into her eyes.

(Bey) "Thank you."

(Shawn) "Can i tell you something?"

(Bey) "You can tell me anything" i said rolling over in my side to completely face Shawn

(Shawn) "You wanna know what i kept thinking about when i was sitting in jail last night."

(Bey) "What?"

(Shawn) "Out of all the things i should have been thinking about, i could only seem to think about you."

(Bey) "Shawn, im flattered."

(Shawn) facing the ceiling "Man attempt to murder, that crazy. At the time i didn't really realize the situation at hand, until i was speaking with my lawyers and everything."

(Bey) ''Yea Shawn thats a very serious charge, I'm still trying to wrap my hand around what would cause you to get like that?"

(Shawn) *sighs* "Oh man, i don't even know. It was like seeing that dude, made me mad all over again, i guess i sort of got caught up in the moment."

(Bey) lays on Shawns chest "Wow. When i heard about, i was in disbelief. I also thought i was never going to see you again."

(Shawn) wrapping his arm around Bey "You and me both."

(Bey) "i would have fought for you though, i would have called and hired every lawyer in New York."

(Shawn) "Really?"

(Bey) "Uhm-hmp, either that or i would have just bust you out myself." i said letting out a laugh

(Shawn) chuckling "You are silly, but we would have really been on some Bonnie and Clyde shit then" 

(Bey) "Hell yea, the 03 Bonnie and Clyde Hov and Bey" i said rapping the lyrics of our song.

(Shawn) "Holla." 

We both laughed. 

Laying there with Shawn on that particular night, made me feel something different about him. It was like what i was feeling before x's 10. The moment felt so perfect, it was like all that was happening was suppose to be happening. Things between Shawn and I started getting real intense. As Shawn held me, i laid on him with my head on his chest, my face was buried in his neck. I wanted Shawn and I wanted him bad, i couldn't take it. While laying on Shawn i started to bite on his neck, i guess he wasn't expecting it because he sort of jumped. I took my tongue and trailed it across Shawn's neck and the minute i did that he held on to me tighter. I sat up and climbed onto him, and he was holding me by my waist. I smiled at him and leaned in to kiss him. Shawn then rolled me over and positioned himself on top of me, i tried to roll him back over but he just wouldn't let me.

(Shawn) stroking Bey's hair and looking into her eyes "Tonight I just wanna please you, i don't want you to do anything but enjoy all that i am about to give you."

When he said that i just wanted to flip him back over and please his ass. I laid back down and got ready for whatever he was about to give me. Shawn started unbuttoning my dress then once that was done he slipped it off, leaving me in just my panties. I laid back down as Shawn leaned in to kiss me. I started pulling on his shirt to take it off but the way he was positioned made it hard. I guess he caught on to what i was trying to do because the next thing i know his shirt was off. Aside from his pants being on, Shawn and I were skin to skin. His hands were all over me and his tongue was practically down my throat. I could feel my body temperature rise, as time went on. Shawn started kissing me down from my neck to my waist. He took his finger and trailed it across my panty line, as if he were trying to tease me. Once he felt he teased me enough, he slipped them off and kissed me up my legs to my thighs. This drove me crazy. I could feel my body start to shake. It wasn't until i felt his warm, long tongue in between my legs that my body became weak.

(Shawn) "You like that huh?" 

(Bey) moans "Mmm, yeeeeeeeeeeesss!" i said biting my lip

(Shawn) smiling "I love it when you do that."

Shawn was really going in. I could barely make sentences out. I felt myself about to come, but Shawn stopped. He started kissing on my stomach then up my thighs. My body hasn't felt this good in a while. I needed this.

(Bey) Moans "Shaaaaawn."

(Shawn) chuckling "Yes?"

(Bey) moaning "Dont stop."

(Shawn) "I don't think you can handle much more" he teased.

(Bey) "Try me." i said all seductive.

With that being said Shawn dove back in, he worked his tongue fast and he worked his tongue slow. Up and down and all around he went. He did it all. I came at least 5 or 6 times. I started gripping on the sheets and biting on the pillows. The only words i was able to get out were shit, fuck, or damn. He had me running, but each time i pulled away he snatched me closer. After he was done, i wanted to do more, like i wanted to go all the way. I was a little curious as to why he didn't. Maybe it was because i was pregnant and he felt weirded out by it. Im not sure what is was, but I'm glad we were able to get somewhat physical, i didn't know how much longer i was able to hold off. I just laid there under the cover as Shawn just stared at me and thought about everything about that night and how wonderful it was. It couldn't have gone any better. I enjoyed every minute of it.