Chapter 8 "Where it All Began"

(Tony's thoughts) I can't believe that she really called me that nigga name. I wanted to choke the life out of her.  That means the whole time while we were having sex she was thinking about him. I know i can't really talk with my situation that's going but thats fucked up. The reason why I'm so mad about is because out of the things i've done to Bey, she always stuck with me and i never thought that in a million years she would do something like this. This really makes me think that she and Shawn has something going on. Man i swear if i ever see him, it's OVER for him. He was suppose to be my boy and that was suppose to be my soon to be wife. Man, shit is just too crazy. Let me just calm myself down because i know if i go home now, it'll just make things worst.   




***(Tony and Bey's place) When Tony left out, i sat there on the floor against the wall crying. I grabbed a blanket out of the chair in the living room to cover myself up. I couldn't believe what just happened. The time now was 3 o'clock and Tony still hasn't returned. Damn i fucked up, bad. This is nothing like the time when I found out Tony cheated on me. This was way worst. For a guy, you would expect it from him, which is why i wasn't that upset when i find out. But i couldn't hold that as an excuse anymore because it was so far in the past. I also didn't think Tony and I would last this long neither. But to hear your fiancé call you another man's name while making love you is just something you just don't do. If he didn't think Shawn and I were messing around before, i know for damn sure he's going to think something this time around. All i could do is sit there and with my hands on my head, hoping he would come home. About 30 mins later, Tony came walking through the door. I was still sitting in the same place i was when he left. When he made it to the entrance of the living room he just stopped and stared at  me. When i looked up at him, he turned his head away and started walking upstairs. I started to follow after him but i was going to give him his space, so i decided to sleep in the guest room.


The next morning when I awoke, I felt so drained. I went and showered in slipped into some comfortable clothes. I went down the hall to my room to check and see if Tony was still in bed. I was relieved to see that he was still there. I sat there feeling bad about last night. I stood there for a few moments longer just watching him sleep, til i heard my phone going off from down stairs.

When i picked up my phone, i saw that it was Kelly calling. I had forgot to call her last night, which was most likely the reason she was calling.


(Bey) "Hey kelly" i said picking up the phone. My voice was hoarse from crying last night.


(Kelly) "Well since you didn't come home last night NOR call me, i take it that things with well???" she asked.


(Bey) "Far from it?"


(Kelly) "What? Well what happened? You didn't come home, i tho--"


(Bey) "I know. Things were good at first."


(Kelly) "So what happened?"


(Bey) "Well after dinner we came back home and started having sex and then....."


(Kelly) "Then what?"


(Bey) "I called him Shawn in the middle of having sex."


(Kelly) gasp "Beeeeey, nooooooooo. Please tell me you didn't."


(Bey) "Yes Kel......Yes."


(Kelly) "OMG. What he do?"


Bey starts hearing Tony wake up. 


(Bey)  starts whispering "Look Kel, let me call you back. He's waking up."


(Kelly) "Okay, call me back." hangs up


When I turned around, Tony was coming down the stairs. My eyes widened as I watched him walk down the stairs. I didn't know what to do, i just stood there staring as he looked at me coming down the stairs. He went into the living room and sat on the couch. I followed behind him and sat across from him on the coffee table. I knew he was mad, but i needed to talk to him and before i could open my mouth to say something he started speaking.


(Tony) "Did you fuck him?"


(Bey) "What? ..........No."


(Tony) Gets up and starts walking around "Well i find that hard to believe."


(Bey) "OH no hold on now, DONT act like your Mr. Perfect"  i said getting up after him   "I mess up one time and it's world war 3. I've forgiven you for EVERYTHING you've done or did you forget?" at this point i heated and i didn't feel sorry anymore.


(Tony) turns around like he was going to do something to Bey


(Bey) "And mother Fucker, i wish you dare try to touch me. You better hope aint shit wrong with my baby or i swear t-"


(Tony) "OKKKKKKKKAY. I get it, I'm sorry Bey and i forgive you." he started to sit down again "I just don't know how we've gotten to this place. We use to be so happy."


(Tony's thoughts) Even though i was so mad about last night, i still couldn't hold that against Bey because i've done her worst so many times. And if her and Shawn are messing around, the only person to blame is myself. I haven't been completely honest with Bey. I gotta tell her.


When I looked over at Tony, he was sitting on the couch, leaning forward with his hands over his face. I could have sworn he was crying. And when i walked over to him and removed his hands from his face he had tears and his eyes. I sat down next to him with my hands placed on his shoulders.


(Tony) "Bey, i really need to talk to you about something." his voice was very shaky and the tone of his voice became very serious. More serious then i have ever heard him before. He was even shaking.


(Bey) "Tony, whats wrong.....b-b-b-baby, your scaring me?" i started stuttering, i never seen Tony like this.


He stood back up and started walking around again. I studied his body language as I watched him walk back and forth. I knew whatever he was getting ready to tell me was something serious.


(Tony) Turns to look at Bey "Remember i told you that i was going to Iowa for rehabiltiation?"


(Bey) Starts getting worried "Yea, what about Iowa?"


(Tony) "Well....remember Victoira, the on--"


(Bey) starts standing up "YES the bitch who you cheated on me with." i interrupted. "What about her???" i been to get mad all over again.


(Tony) "Well yea.........apparently she had got pregnant and is now claiming that I'm the father of the child and is filing for child support, i used Iowa as an excuse to so that i could meet up with her and my lawyers to have a DNA test."


(Bey) "So let me get this straight?" i started walking towards him "You've been knowing about this for A MONTH and you're just now telling me this."


(Tony) "I just didn't know how Bey, you gotta understand."


(Bey) "So last night when i told you to be real with me, YOU LIED TO MY FACE."


(Tony) "But Be---"


(Bey) "How old is the he/she?" i was trying to calm down, remembering what the doctor was telling. But i was in full rage. 


(Tony) takes a deep breath "He's 2."


As soon as he said that i started to think. Tony's only 23, he graduated from high school when he was 17. Tony was 21 two years ago which means he had to have still been messing around with her. All of a sudden i got real sick to my stomach, i was hurt, i was mad, and i at that very moment i couldnt bare to look at him.


(Bey) with tears flowing down her face "...........What were the results?" 


(Tony) "I don't know yet, they said it'll take up to 2 weeks but i should know any day now."


(Bey) "You better hope........and i mean this from the bottom of my heart, YOU BETTER HOPE THAT TEST COMES BACK NEGATIVE...." i started choking on my words "because if NOT.......we're done."


After i said that i walked away. I grabbed my phone and my keys and i walked out the door. I called Kelly to let her know i was on my way. I couldn't stand to see Tony at that very moment. I just was going over Kelly's to vent a min, i was going to come back home. As i was turning the corner, to get to Kelly's house a car came flying down the street crashing in to me. Before i knew glass was shattered and my car was tipped over. I guess i must of hit my head because i blacked out. I just remember waking up in the hospital and the first thing that came to mind was if my baby was alright.

(DR.) comes walking in the room "Mrs. Knowles, Hi Im Dr. Steinfield. Do you have any idea where you are?"


I started sitting up and began looking around, of course i know i was in the hospital. My head was hurting bad, i had these tubes in me. I felt my head and i had a patch over it.


(Bey) "Yes. Im in the hospital."


(DR.) "Mmm hmm, that is correct. Do you know why you are here?"


(Bey) "Well all i know, i was driving and the next thing i know I'm here."


(DR.) marks something on her paper. "Well you were in a car accident and you hit your head. You blacked out and lost conscious and had to get stitches. The car that hit you fled the scene."


(Bey) "Omg, and what about my about my baby?" i started panicking.


(DR.) "Your baby is fine Ms. Knowles, but we want to keep you overnight so that we can monitor you and make sure you and the baby stay in good health."


(Bey) "Okay, well can i call my mom and let her know what's going on?"


(Bey) "We've already notified your family, your mom said that she was on her way."


No sooner after she said that, my mom came running in the room.


(Ms. Tina) "Oh my god, Beyonce, baby are you okay, i got here as soon as i heard." she said running over to my bed.


(Bey) "Yes mom, I'm fine."


(Ms. Tina) talking to the doctor "How's the baby?"


(DR.) "The baby is fine and so is Beyonce, but we are going to have to keep her over not because she has a head injury."


(Ms. Tina) "Well as long as they're both okay..."


Kelly and Solo came running in the room.


(DR.) "I'll give you guys some privacy."


(Kelly) "Bey, are you okay?"


(Bey) "Yes, yes, I'm good. Geesh yal acting like I'm dying?" i said joking.


(Ms. Tina) my mom started getting mad "This is not a joking matter Beyonce, you could have been killed."


(Bey) "Mom, relax....okay. I told you I'm okay."


(Solo) "Well Im glad your okay Bey" she said hugging me.


(Kelly) ''And what about the baby?''


(Solo) looks at bey "Baby?"


(Bey) "Yes, baby! And they said it's alright."


(Solo) "So hold up, Bey you pregnant?"


(Bey) chuckling "Yes Solo"


(Solo) "Awws shi--" looks at Ms. Tina who was looking back at her  "I mean awwww snap I'm gonna be a auntie."


Everybody starts laughing. I was happy to hear that the baby was alright. I was in a better mood despite all that had just happened and what was going on. I still couldn't believe i was in a accident though, that shit is scary. Im just glad i was alright.


(Kelly) "So where's Antonio?"


As soon as she said that he came walking down the hall. I could see him as i was looking through my window.


(Kelly) "Well speaking of the devil." kelly said as Tony walked in.


He didn't walk all the way by me he just kind of came in the room a little but and just stood there.


(Tony) "Baby...." he said, scared to speak a little bit. The tension between him and i was so thin, you could slice it with a knife. "Are you and the baby okay?"


(Bey) not looking at Tony "Im not dead am I."


(Ms. Tina) sensing the tension "maybe we should leave yal to alone. Come on Kelly and Solo." they all walked out.


(Tony) "Bey, I--"


(Bey) "Save it Tony, this is not the time or the place for this."


(Tony) "Well I'm just glad you in the baby are okay."


Bey didn't say anything back. Tony just stood there for a min then went to sit down. It was just silence for about 10 mins. Bey just laid there staring out the window, while Tony sat and watched her. When she rolled over to call for Kelly, she saw her out there talking to Shawn, then Shawn started knocking on the door.


Knock, knock, knock.


(Shawn) peeking his head in the door "Can i come in."


(Bey) "Yea come on in."


(Tony) standing up "Aye bro, What are you doing here?" he said with an attitude.


(Shawn) Looks at Tony "Why wouldn't i be here?"


(Tony) Steps up in Shawn's face "I think you need to leave."


(Bey) "TONY, STOP IT" i yelled.


When Kelly and Solo saw them arguing, they came running in the room. My mom had gone off to speak with one of the nurses. Tony and Shawn were in each other's faces.


(Shawn) "Look bro, i aint trying to start nothing. I just came to see if she was alright."


(Tony) "Well you saw her, so now you could leave."


(Ms. Tina) comes walking in the room "Whats going on in here?"


(Shawn) "Nothing, i was just leaving."starts walking away.


(Bey) "Shawn wait...."


Shawn turns around and as soon as he does, Tony swings at Shawn. They both started fighting. They were getting the best of each other. Bey was in bed screaming for them to stop. Ms. Tina, Kelly, and Solo stepped off to the side cuz they started getting wild. Next thing you know security came bursting in the room and broke them up. They took both Shawn and Antonio.


(Bey's thought) I was so mad at Antonio for acting so stupid, especially at a time like this. Shawn didn't mean any harm. The more i thought about it, the more i became mad at Tony. I also felt bad for Shawn because i didn't want to put him in an awkward position. I was happy to see him when he showed up.I had no idea he knew about it  and i had no idea he would even come. It was nice to see that he cared about me. The fact that we hadnt been seeing each other but he was there to check on me, shocked me. I really admired him for that. I am so tired of Tony and his nonsense, i was slowly becoming fed up.


After the whole fight thing with Tony and Shawn, i just wanted to be alone. I told my mom, kelly, and solo that i would see them tomorrow. It was still day time. All i wanted to do was sleep. I was tired of from all the frustration. Thinking about the situation made me mad all over again. Being that my head my already hurting from the accident, thoughts of today made it hurt even worse. I was so ready to get out this damn hospital it was driving me crazy. I laid in my bed for a couple of hours before dosing off. As i was dosing, my phone started going off, it was a text. I grabbed my phone off the table and checked to see who it was and it was Shawn.


(Text From Shawn) Beyonce, I'm sorry about earlier. I want you to know that was not my intentions. I hope your not mad. Im also glad too see you are okay, i had to come check on you.


(Text To Shawn) Im not even tripping on that. But I was happy to see you tho, it's been a min. Maybe we should do some catching up once i'm release.


(Text From Shawn) Yea that would be cool. But i know you had a rough day so I'ma ket you get some rest, i'll get at you later.


(Text To Shawn) Okay.....


I laid in bed looking at Shawn's and I texts.  I couldn't get over him coming to the hospital. But I'm glad he did though because it was nice seeing him. I love how he came through for me, even when we haven't been speaking. It showed how much he really cared about me. I hate he had to deal with Tony ass. I wish Tony wouldn't have even showed up to the hospital because after that shit he told me, i could have killed him. But like i said, those results better come back negative or else....im done.


**The next morning when i woke up, it was time for me to be released. The doctor came to my room and said my ride was waiting outside. I was expecting it to be my driver, my mom, or Kelly. When I got when i got out into the lobby of the hospital, i saw Shawn standing there against the wall, he had a suit on. I was shocked as hell to see him standing there, i had to blink twice to make sure i was seeing right. I walked up to him like a nervous kid, trying to pat a dog. And he just stood there all cool, watching me walk up. 

(Shawn) "You look surprised to see me." he said walking up extending his arms out to hug me.


(Bey) "......Thats cuz i am...i mean i was expecting to see you." 


(Shawn)  "Yea i wanted to surprise you." he said hugging me.


(Bey) "Ow....my back." i said tensing up.


(Shawn) letting loose, oops I'm sorry. Are you okay?


(Bey) "Yea I'm fine" i said trying to stretch out my back.


(Shawn) "Thats car accident must have really did something to you."


(Bey) "Well it's been hurting since yesterday."


(Shawn) "What you do to it."


By this time we had already started walking to the car.


(Bey) "Tony and I got into a fight."


(Shawn) stops walking "He put his hands on you?!" he had became mad.


(Bey) "I mean he through me around a bit, bu---"


(Shawn) "Na, that aint cool." starts back walking.


I could tell Shawn had got upset about what i told him about Tony. And i didn't want him to take it the wrong way, so i tried to change the subject.


(Bey) "....Wel thank you for coming to get me Shawn, I really appreciate it."


(Shawn) "Oh no problem, i know your just getting out the hospital but i got a whole day planned for you." he said opening the car door for bey.


(Bey) starts chuckling "What?  A whole day, Shawn no I ca--" she said getting in the car.


(Shawn) close bey's door and walks to driver's side. "I already cleared my schedule for today...." 


(Bey) laughing awkwardly Oh no Shawn, please tell me you didn't."


(Shawn) "I sure did" he said nodding his head, getting in the car. "I haven't seen you in a min....and i figured with all that happened i could treat you to a nice day of relaxation."


(Bey) smirking at Shawn, side eyeing him "Well...." i said starting to think "thats true and a little relaxation does sound nice right now"


(Shawn) "Annnnnnnnnd?" Shawn said sarcastically.


(Bey) "And what?


(Shawn) "You forgot to mention that you missed me."


(Bey) "Maybe just a little" i said trying to tease him.


(Shawn) "Na, you know you miss me" his said in his flirtatious voice.


(Bey) "Naaaaa, you know you miss me."


(Shawn) "No, not really."


(Bey) "What punk" i said smacking his arm.


(Shawn) "Im just playing" he said laughing ".....and you better stop hitting or I'ma end up fucking you up." he joked.


(Bey) "You aint gonna do shit."


(Shawn) "yea okay."


(Bey) "So what are your plans for me anyway?"


(Shawn) "Well first, I'm get you showered and out then clothes. Then the rest is a surprise."


(Bey) "Well what you mean get me shower and out my clothes" i said trying t insinuate something else.


(Shawn) looks at Bey "Get your mind out the gutter" he said playfully.


(Bey) starts laughing "Well If you swing by Kelly's house, i can get some clothes there since we already over in this area."


(Shawn) "Alright."


We got to Kelly's house i could get some clothes, but she wasn't there. I was kind of hoping because i didn't want to really see anybody today. I also didn't want to go back to my house and deal with Tony. I wanted to enjoy my day with Shawn, he was already making my day feel much better. After leaving Kelly's place we went back to Shawn's place so he could get changed out his suit. We both showered and got dress there. From there we drove all the way upstate in New York, for a festival they were having. It was so nice out.The wind was blowing, the sun was shining. I was having so much fun with Shawn.

(Shawn) "You enjoying yourself."

(Bey) "Yes, I'm having a really good time."

(Shawn) "Thats good."

(Bey) "Let's go sit down, my back is hurting a little."

(Shawn) "Okay let's go.

When went to go sit down. We spent the rest of the evening, sitting talking and laughing. I had a few drinks but, nothing to heavy.  When it was time for us to go, we headed back to shawn's place. I was so exhausted from the whole day, i just wanted to lay down, the minute we got into the door, i plopped down on Shawn's couch.

(Shawn) "You know you could go lay down in the bed right? I mean cuz you can go lay in there, i'll just chill out here and watch the game until you ready to go."

(Bey) "Uuuuuugh, i don't even feel like moving."

(Shawn) "I'll carry you...."

He walks over to pick Bey up and goes to lay her in the bed. He props a few pillows up to get Bey, comfortable. 

(Shawn) "Is this more comfortable?" he said rubbing Bey's shoulder.

(Bey) "Yes, actually it is. But you know what would be great?"

(Shawn) "And whats that?"

(Bey) "If you would give me a massage." starts poking out her lip "pleeeeeeeeeease."

(Shawn) "You are something else" he said chuckling "yea, i'll give you one. But I'm turning the game on in here, cuz i aint missing it."

(Bey) "Okay, thats fine." i said turning over to position my self.

I laid on the bed, facing the same direction as Shawn, so i could could watch the game with him and he could still give me my message. The minute i felt his hands touch me my body cringed.

(Shawn) "Don't tell me you ticklish?" he said playfully.

(Bey) starts laughing "Just a little bit."

(Shawn) "Oh shooooooot" he said and started tickling me.

I was twisting and turning, kicking my legs trying to breaks away.

(Bey) laughing hard "Shawn stop,,,,,stop it,,,,,,,please."

(Shawn) who was becoming amused by it "Okay, okay, ill stop."

(Bey) "You play too much" i said trying to hit him.

(Shawn) he still had his hands placed on my back. "You better stop before i tickle you again."

(Bey)  "Okay, I'm sorry. Carry on....." 

Shawn went on to massage my back, we were talking to each other while he was messaging me.

(Bey) "Geesh, you are the worst massager ever." i joked.

(Shawn) "Well how I'm suppose to massage you sitting like this."

(Bey) "Well who told you to sit like that."

(Shawn) "You got a smart mouth i see, but i know how to fix that." he started tickling me again.

(Bey) crying laughing "Okay okay, okay.......im sorry , I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

(Shawn) "Thats what i thought." 

(Bey) "Okay finish massaging me."

(Shawn) "OL bossy" he joked "alright thought, hold on."

Shawn kicked off his shoes and climbed on to the bed. He placed himself sitting over, with both his hands on each of my sides. As i felt his hands go up and down my back, i could feel myself began to get turned on by it. My leg got to shaking and my body got to twitching.

(Bey's thought's) GOT DAMN, this man's sure does know how to work his hands. God and they feel so warm. Shawn sure does know how to treat a girl. This whole day had been perfect, this is exactly what needed, with all that i've been going through.

(Shawn's thoughts) Beyonce back is so nice and smooth. I wonder what she's thinking about right now, cuz i know what I'm thinking. Every since the night of her party and from the night we kissed, i've been wanting Bey. At this point I'm like fuck Tony, he about to lose out on one of the best chicks he could possibly ever have. I wonder how Bey would react if i did this to her.

He took his hands and slid them under Bey's shirt. Bey's body tensed up.

(Shawn's thought) Ha, I'm about to mess with her.

(Bey's thoughts) Shawn think he's slick, trying to slide how hands under my shirt, he aint fooling nobody.

Shawn still had his hands under Bey's shirt and he was rubbing on her back. He slid his hands up Bey's back and noticed she was wearing a bra. He went up and down her back a few times and started grabbing a her of her sides, this drove Bey crazy.

(Bey's thoughts) As much as i want him to stop i just didn't want to, his hands feel so good against my back. Good lord, if i wasn't trying to work things out with Tony. Come to think about it, he ass is holding on by a thread. He lucky i wasn't done with his ass the moment he told me he had a son. Thinking about all the times Tony's hurt makes me want to get with Shawn out of spite, just to make Tony feel how i feel all those times. I swear if i weren't pregnant I just might.

Shawn was still massaging my back, i swear the more he went more on, the more i wanted to just flip over and let him have it. When Shawn moved his hands to my stomach, i grabbed a hold of his hand and turned back t look at him. When I did he just smirked. He moved his hands around my stomach and my sides for a few moments. At this point I couldn't even think straight no more. I started getting lost in the moment. Shawn started becoming more aggressive with the massage. When i felt his hand come across my breast my whole body jumped. I knew from this point what was about to happen. Shawn slid me closer to him and turned me over to face him, he was still sitting on top of me. We stared at each other for a few short moments, and Shawn leaned in to kiss me. I turned my head away and he started kissing my neck. Finally i snapped back into reality and realized this was really about to happen. I couldn't go through with this, as much as i wanted it to happened, it just didn't feel right and it wasn't the appropriate time.

(Bey) trying to sit up "Shawn...."

(Shawn) Still kissing Bey's neck.

(Bey's) starts moaning and fiddling around "Sh....awn.."

(Shawn) sits up and starts sliding Bey's shorts off.

(Bey) "Omg, Shawn we can't." i said trying to grab my shorts.

(Shawn) starts kissing Bey again "Yes we can...." he said rubbing his hand up her thighs.

(Bey's thought's) SHIT, this is feeling so good.. He is making it so much harder to say no.

Shawn starts taking off Bey's shirt, leaving her in her panties.

(Bey) sits up and pushes Shawn up "Look we can't do this"

(Shawn) rubbing on Bey "And why not, you know you want this to happen just as much as i do....so let it just happen."

He pulls Bey by the legs, so that she is laying back down and takes his shirt off and positions his self in between Bey's legs..

(Shawn) "So you telling me you don't want this?" he said pressing his dick up against Bey.

(Bey) laying staring at Shawn "Look, as much as i want to i just can't."

(Shawn) "And why not?"

RING RING RING.

 I lifted up out of bed and started looking around. I realized i was still in the hospital and that i was dreaming. Wow, that dream felt so real. I grabbed my phone and saw that it was Gwen calling, but when I went to answer it  she had already hung up. I checked the time and it was 2 am. I didn't bother calling Gwen back because i wasn't in the mood for talking. I just figured i'll call her tomorrow. I set there in bed just thinking about the dream i had. And made me think a lot about Shawn and if something like that really ever happens. What if if ever happens?  Could it ever happen? And will it ever happens? Was all i kept thinking unit i drifted off to sleep.